@BourbonBiscuits I'm sorry he didn't make it but you made his last moments much much comfortable than they would have been otherwise. You are a kind soul!
@cali1710 that’s awesome! So happy for you and your little fam! I can’t imagine the emotions you were feeling thinking of having to be away from dd on Christmas! Best news !!
@BourbonBiscuits - You're such a lovely person to make that kitty feel love and comfort. Hugs.
@cali1710 - GREAT news! A friend of mine had a vessel issue that required a long hospital stay and the hospital was 90 minutes from her husband/ other kiddos. So tough! Glad you can be home for the holidays
First IV iron infusion today, hope it helps. My energy has been so low and I can't fight anything off. Ugh, ready to feel better now!
TW: 1 infant loss 8/17: Our daughter was born 8/18: Our daughter kicked open heart surgery ass 2/19: We lost our son to Prader-Willi/Paradoxical Vocal Cord/ Noonans at 6wks old 4/26/2020: EDD for baby #3!!!
@smallbutmighty77 I hope the infusions help! My sister had to have them her last pregnancy and she felt better and had more energy pretty soon after. They just started me on iron pills daily because mine was low.. we'll see if infusions will be needed in the future or not.
I don’t know why I keep watching these damn hallmark christmas movies. They are so predictable but addicting and make me cry everytime. I mean who wouldnt cry when a girl gets reunited with her dog.
I just went to put one can back in the pantry and ended up reorganizing the entire thing. I need to go put something in the nursery so my energy will be put to good use!
Hi friends, thanks again for your nice thoughts (and LOL @ my phone for initially autocorrecting that to “nice thighs”).
This week has been incredibly rough. The kids and I came home Saturday to our house after our Thanksgiving trip. My son finally realized his Dad wasn’t here. My cold morphed into a full blown sinus infection on Monday.. so everything hurts and I’m dying, clearly. On Tuesday, we sat down and told our oldest (almost 8 to) about what’s going on. Adam (H) is very clear that he does not want to try to work on our marriage so divorce is what it will be. Eli (DS) said that he was “heartbroken, 100% angry, sad that we don’t love each other anymore, he could fix it, and that if it was forever he was leaving.” It was brutal for me to see my sweet baby hurting that way. I did my best to semi-hold it together for the time.
THEN last night happened. I had Lou (DD - 2) to go to a movie while Adam took the big kid out for some fun. Adam came to pick up Lou and took both of the kids with him. My first night alone in our family home. They didn’t even make it out the door before I was a complete sobbing puddle, and after they left I just melted down. I cried so hard that my nose started bleeding profusely and got blood all over my bed because I didn’t realize it was bleeding. It was great, let me tell you. I finally calmed down enough to take a bath and eat some cereal, then I went to bed.
I feel so emotionally drained, congested, and exhausted today. I wish I could take off work. I’m not sure if I’ll get to see the kids or not. It’s absolute misery here alone. Definitely looking for silver linings now.
Hope everyone else is well. Sorry for my sob update. Someday, I hope to have happy news to share, lol.
@cmjenkies my friends on my other pregnancy board who went through similar have said that making plans for the nights they know the kids won't be there helped a ton. plans with friends, doing a book club, the gym, planning a craft or task they want to get done. Testing new recipes before giving to the kids. Even organizing their kitchen in a new way they liked since their soon to be ex wasn't there. They said that helped a lot, and if you are planning to stay in the house, my one friend got new bedding, new shampoo she liked the scent of she knew her ex didn't. Little things even like that they said made them feel better for themselves.
TW: 1 infant loss 8/17: Our daughter was born 8/18: Our daughter kicked open heart surgery ass 2/19: We lost our son to Prader-Willi/Paradoxical Vocal Cord/ Noonans at 6wks old 4/26/2020: EDD for baby #3!!!
@cmjenkies I cannot imagine what you're going through, but I have a huge amount of respect for you. You are so strong, and I fully believe that you will have happy news to share down the road. Hang in there. We're all rooting for you!
@cmjenkies I’m so sorry you had a rough time alone, and telling your oldest kid sounds like a brutal experience! It’s hard on kids, but they’ll be fine and eventually get used to their new normal. And so will you! I have no doubts you’ll have happy news to share at some point, in the meantime please know we’re all rooting for you. You and your kids deserve happiness (your POS ex does not though, he can suck a dick).
DS born 2/18/2019 DD born 4/1/2023 Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
@cmjenkies that is so rough. I definitely agree with what @smallbutmighty77 said about making plans for when you know you won’t have the kids! Hoping for a quick adjustment for ds so you can all start to get back to a new normal!
@cmjenkies my heart hurts for you girl and I know it hurts so bad right now especially during pregnancy. Take baby steps and you have so much support here. xoxo
@cmjenkies oh man that sounds horrible. You’re an extremely tough girl. As much as it sucks, just know it will get better eventually. We are all here for you. The kids will also get better, and get into their new routine. I remember you said you have the support of his family so hopefully there is someone you can lean on for help. And of course we are all here for you too. X
@cmjenkies - That all sounds completely awful. If I knew what your H looked like, I would make a voodoo doll of him and beat the sh-t out of it. Hang in there, doll. You are doing great, considering, seriously.
@cmjenkies I'm so sorry, that all sounds truly terrible. When my dad left (granted I was in high school), I distinctly remember my mom getting new bedding. At the time I thought of it as doing something kind to take care of herself, but in retrospect I know she was getting rid of things that reminded her of bad parts of their marriage and I'm so proud of her for doing that! It is not easy, ever, for anyone involved, but it does become a new normal that I have faith you and your kids will all get used to. Sending you hugs
@cmjenkies I am so sorry you have to go through this. I can't imagine what you are going through Thinking of you and sending you some internet stranger hugs.
@smallbutmighty77 I really like those ideas. I’ve been trying to figure out how to do that without too much increased spending. Tonight I’m getting cheap dinner and a movie with a friend. I have lots of stuff I could definitely do at home since it’s still a mess, I just don’t always feel motivated to clean/organize after work. I also don’t want to just lay around though because that’s not good either. It’s getting dark here before 5 now and it’s so cold, so that’s annoying. I love to sew but I still don’t have a table in my house to set my machines on. That’s a high priority on my project list.
@smallbutmighty77 - how are you feeling? Notice anything with the transfusion yet?
@cmjenkies - your post... dang. I’m so sorry. I don’t really know what to say and the cliche “you’ll come through this stronger” stuff just seems stupid. I’m hoping the best for you and your babies. I can’t imagine how awful that convo with your babies was.
@cmjenkies I'm really sorry you're going through this, it's so shitty. Sending you internet hugs, and the other ladies are right, it's going to get better, eventually.
@cmjenkies I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Sending you all the good vibes. Setting up your sewing table sounds like such a great idea. Do you make clothes or pillows or?
@casperthefriendlybeeb mostly clothes for my toddler and occasionally for myself or the big kid. I usually work with knits like this hoodie but the last thing I made was this dress with wovens back in the summer before we moved.
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@cali1710 I am ecstatic for you!!!
@cali1710 - GREAT news! A friend of mine had a vessel issue that required a long hospital stay and the hospital was 90 minutes from her husband/ other kiddos. So tough! Glad you can be home for the holidays
MMC 2.12.11 @ 8w
PVM 5.8.12
GWM 3.17.15
RPM 2.21.19
Ugh, ready to feel better now!
1 infant loss
8/17: Our daughter was born
8/18: Our daughter kicked open heart surgery ass
2/19: We lost our son to Prader-Willi/Paradoxical Vocal Cord/ Noonans at 6wks old
4/26/2020: EDD for baby #3!!!
@smallbutmighty77 I hope the infusions help! My sister had to have them her last pregnancy and she felt better and had more energy pretty soon after. They just started me on iron pills daily because mine was low.. we'll see if infusions will be needed in the future or not.
Thanks everyone. Its truly a christmas miracle!
@smallbutmighty77 I hope the infusions help, it's no fun feeling even more run down that usual with pregnancy stuff
This app blows! I'm so over the slowness and glitchy access .Ugh
Maybe next time I unload the dishwasher that'll get organized too!
This week has been incredibly rough. The kids and I came home Saturday to our house after our Thanksgiving trip. My son finally realized his Dad wasn’t here. My cold morphed into a full blown sinus infection on Monday.. so everything hurts and I’m dying, clearly. On Tuesday, we sat down and told our oldest (almost 8 to) about what’s going on. Adam (H) is very clear that he does not want to try to work on our marriage so divorce is what it will be. Eli (DS) said that he was “heartbroken, 100% angry, sad that we don’t love each other anymore, he could fix it, and that if it was forever he was leaving.” It was brutal for me to see my sweet baby hurting that way. I did my best to semi-hold it together for the time.
THEN last night happened. I had Lou (DD - 2) to go to a movie while Adam took the big kid out for some fun. Adam came to pick up Lou and took both of the kids with him. My first night alone in our family home. They didn’t even make it out the door before I was a complete sobbing puddle, and after they left I just melted down. I cried so hard that my nose started bleeding profusely and got blood all over my bed because I didn’t realize it was bleeding. It was great, let me tell you. I finally calmed down enough to take a bath and eat some cereal, then I went to bed.
I feel so emotionally drained, congested, and exhausted today. I wish I could take off work. I’m not sure if I’ll get to see the kids or not. It’s absolute misery here alone. Definitely looking for silver linings now.
Hope everyone else is well. Sorry for my sob update. Someday, I hope to have happy news to share, lol.
plans with friends, doing a book club, the gym, planning a craft or task they want to get done. Testing new recipes before giving to the kids. Even organizing their kitchen in a new way they liked since their soon to be ex wasn't there.
They said that helped a lot, and if you are planning to stay in the house, my one friend got new bedding, new shampoo she liked the scent of she knew her ex didn't. Little things even like that they said made them feel better for themselves.
1 infant loss
8/17: Our daughter was born
8/18: Our daughter kicked open heart surgery ass
2/19: We lost our son to Prader-Willi/Paradoxical Vocal Cord/ Noonans at 6wks old
4/26/2020: EDD for baby #3!!!
DD born 4/1/2023
Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
@smallbutmighty77 I really like those ideas. I’ve been trying to figure out how to do that without too much increased spending. Tonight I’m getting cheap dinner and a movie with a friend. I have lots of stuff I could definitely do at home since it’s still a mess, I just don’t always feel motivated to clean/organize after work. I also don’t want to just lay around though because that’s not good either. It’s getting dark here before 5 now and it’s so cold, so that’s annoying. I love to sew but I still don’t have a table in my house to set my machines on. That’s a high priority on my project list.
@BourbonBiscuits - sorry about the kitty
@smallbutmighty77 - how are you feeling? Notice anything with the transfusion yet?
@cmjenkies - your post... dang. I’m so sorry. I don’t really know what to say and the cliche “you’ll come through this stronger” stuff just seems stupid. I’m hoping the best for you and your babies. I can’t imagine how awful that convo with your babies was.
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