I am due nov 13th, this is my fourth. This was unplanned, but a blessing. I am feeling so completely overwhelmed and depressed. Financially, I’m in a hole. I can’t afford all I’m going to need to for the baby. I have a 1 year old that gets into everything, and it’s making me even more scared thinking how I am going to handle them both. I have two other daughters 12 and 9 that I know will help out, and I have a husband. I’m having a very hard time mentally, trying to get some things for the baby and instead of being excited I feel dread, fear, a disconnection. I can’t even enjoy any of this and it’s a shame because this little baby is a blessing from God. He’s going to be my long awaited son, I have Three daughters. I’ve been crying for the past few days, I feel dead inside. Like really depressed. I can’t talk my husband about this because he doesn’t understand what I am feeling I tried. I wish Jesus himself would come down and just tell me everything will be alright. I just want to cry all the time.