I'm new to the boards, although I've been lurking since early pregnancy. I am a SAHM to a 10 month old little girl.
Ever since she was very young, I've been obsessing about whether or not I interact with her enough, whether I'm enjoying everything enough, if I'm talking to her enough, etc. etc. We do lots together - go for walks, sing silly songs, go to the library, read, the park, baby sign language, the zoo - but I'm always worried that it's somehow not measuring up.
All the baby books say - talk to your baby! sing to your baby! point things out! explain what you're doing! and I DO do this, but do I need to do it constantly? Is it OK to just have silence throughout the day? I do housework all day (otherwise it would never get done!), but am I allowed to read, watch a show, or work on personal projects occasionally (while supervising her, obviously!)? She's very independent and can entertain herself for quite some time alone, but I feel so guilty if I'm not talking to her. For example, she's currently on her playmat as I type this (she should be asleep, but decided that wasn't happening tonight
Am I a terrible mom or am I overthinking this? How can I find balance? How much independent play is OK?
Also, if you feel this way or have felt this way in the past, can you PLEASE message me? I need to talk to someone who understands. Thanks