@beachbunnyxo123 the wait sucks but keeping busy. I take college classes online and it is finals week. On top of that my father in law builds and sells bunk beds so I help him with the selling part when there are festivals and such. It has been two weekends of back to back festivals. I am tired. How are you holding up.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
So I got the call, none of the 6 made it to freeze. Now totally bummed and gotta figure out what our next step is.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mandurz OH NO! That’s devastating news. I’m so sorry that was the outcome. I don’t know what your IVF package looked like but if you have another cycle, would your clinic consider 3 day transfers? I’ve read that the cultures aren’t always best suited to sustain growing embryos and they might do better in utero. Obviously this cuts out the possibility of pgs testing but keeps possibilities open. Sending you strength.
@northbeach3 I wish that was an option. My clinic doesn't do fresh transfers at all. They explained 3 yrs ago when we started that they have seen much better results giving the uterus time to build up a nice healthy lining after stimulation. He said that stimming can hurt the lining and not make it "compatible" for a successful transfer. I know many clinics do frsh transers but the FET side may be what this Dr is best at. I am just so unbelievably upset that we just threw 10k down the drain (for the cycle, the biopsy for genetic testing,and the meds) and have nothing to show for it.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
I am so sorry! That is terrible news. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Just when we think we've come to terms with this stuff, infertility finds a new way to bring you to your knees. I hope you can take the time you need to be angry and grieve and process everything before deciding what to do next.
Sending you some kind of vibes to help you be ok with being angry, disappointed, enraged etc? xo
@mandurz I am so very sorry to hear that news. I was refreshing all day for your update. Will you have a WTF appointment with your doctor? I’m sending you all of the hugs. I’m so very sorry.
@mandurz what IVF cycle was this for you? I couldn’t remember if you cycled in Jan/Feb. I’m sorry for this major blow. Things seemed to be going well at your fert report. (( I’m so so sorry. I hope you’re still able to have a debrief with your RE and can consider if you’ll take next steps. I just remember hopingforlilbit from Jan IVF transferred two d3 embryos and got PG with twins.
@megmac2010 we had 5 embryos make it to blast and they were all frozen and biopsied for PGS testing. Last IVF cycle I only had one (TW resulted in a CP end TW). I was shocked to say the least when they told me!
@beachbunnyxo123 not until Monday. The wait is ruining me. I'm obsessively peeing on everything. (Omg, my phone tried to autocorrect "everything" to "everyone"... that would have been awkward!)
@megmac2010 WOO HOO!! Honestly I know how you feel. TW with my last transfer that ended in a MMC at 10.5 weeks I had about 6 or 7 already at home and went to the store to get more because I was obsessed with POAS END TW Congrats on your non squinter!
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@beachbunnyxo123 right now I have a "what's next consultation" on may 23rd but I called and left a voicemail for my nurse to get some answers before that. I have one embryo and will not discount the idea that it could be the only one I need. So I want to find out what I have to do to get on with that and if they are gonna push for another ER...gonna ask them if they are willing to work with us since they didn't listen to my concern about there not being enough to even do the er in the first place.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mandurz I'm really curious about your protocols. I think I remember you saying you have PCOS and egg quality issues. Have your protocols included DHEA and human growth hormone? What about inositol? I just can't believe that you got nothing this cycle. I want answers, so I can only imagine how impatient you are for them!
Meanwhile, I am starting to understand the bizarre compulsion people have to post pee sticks on the internet. I always thought it was so weird. But now, after 6 years of waiting and getting a strong positive this afternoon, I want to show the whole world pictures of things I peed on.
@megmac2010 yes I am super anxious to get answers. It doesn't help that I left a VM for my nurse Monday morning and have yet to get a call back. I called again this morning just to make sure she got the message, cuz one time the excuse was used that she didn't get my message. So a second one couldn't hurt.
I totally get the urge to post a picture. So what's your stick count up to LOL? I would go broke if it were my choice how many I used. But my hubby keeps me in check.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
@mandurz 11? 12? I've lost count! But in fairness I tested out my trigger. So I'm not THAT obsessive. Although, I still have to wait until Monday for my beta, so I'm sure I have time to pee on more money.
I got my beta results and it's not looking good. I've been getting positives - I got a positive in a clear blue digital yesterday. But my beta came back at 19.9. Looks like a chemical. I going in on Wednesday for another blood draw, but my hopes are zero. So bummed.
@megmac2010 I am so sorry it's not looking great. That is so devastating to have that positive ripped right from under you. Take time to grieve and process this. I hope you get answers on wed that you need.
Married since 2009 Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
IVF #1 - Jan 2015 - 25 eggs retrieved down to 4 blasts to freeze FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys Lost one twin June 2017 FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl Miscarriage Oct 2017 IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo) Break from TTC and IVF FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
Thanks for the love everybody. I think this is harder than any BFN I've ever had. It's like a tease! Because I'm a sucker for punishment, I took a FRRR today to see if it was gone and I'm still getting obvious positives. Which is super annoying.
I had my second blood draw this morning. I always hear from the clinic by lunchtime the same day. It's now almost 3pm and nothing. This is just the cruelest joke the universe has ever played on me.
*lurking* @megmac2010 so sorry you're having to wait. I have been there. My call from second beta came at 430 pm and waiting for that call was the most anxious I have ever felt in my life. I hope from the bottom of my heart that your results are better than mine were, but ultimately I hope they call you soon so it can stop dragging out your anxiety.
TTC History in Spoiler
Me: 29 DH:34 TTC 21 cycles All TI cycles BFN (with letrozole, ovidrel, prometrium) Hysteroscopy + Polypectomy + D&C on 1/3 IUI #1 February 6, BFP 2/21, CP 2/26 IUI #2 March 14, BFN IUI #3 April 11, BFN IUI #4 May 11, BFN July 2018 IVF, developed lead follicle, converted to TI, BFN August/September 2018 IVF converted to freeze-all: 7 mature eggs; we fertilized 3 and froze 4. 3/3 fertilized and 1 blast! October 2018 FET-BFN November 2018 FET-TBD
@wishing-and-hoping I am fully prepared for bad news. I just reeeeeeally wanted to have a beer tonight! The nurses only work until 3pm at my clinic so if I don't hear in the next... 6 minutes... I'll be sober until tomorrow
Me: 29 DH:34 TTC 21 cycles All TI cycles BFN (with letrozole, ovidrel, prometrium) Hysteroscopy + Polypectomy + D&C on 1/3 IUI #1 February 6, BFP 2/21, CP 2/26 IUI #2 March 14, BFN IUI #3 April 11, BFN IUI #4 May 11, BFN July 2018 IVF, developed lead follicle, converted to TI, BFN August/September 2018 IVF converted to freeze-all: 7 mature eggs; we fertilized 3 and froze 4. 3/3 fertilized and 1 blast! October 2018 FET-BFN November 2018 FET-TBD
@megmac2010 so very sorry. it is such a painful and cruel thing to go through. i am glad you got an answer at least and didn't have to wait another day. hope you can do some things to care for yourself in the days to come. #1 on the list is enjoy your beer tonight.
TTC History in Spoiler
Me: 29 DH:34 TTC 21 cycles All TI cycles BFN (with letrozole, ovidrel, prometrium) Hysteroscopy + Polypectomy + D&C on 1/3 IUI #1 February 6, BFP 2/21, CP 2/26 IUI #2 March 14, BFN IUI #3 April 11, BFN IUI #4 May 11, BFN July 2018 IVF, developed lead follicle, converted to TI, BFN August/September 2018 IVF converted to freeze-all: 7 mature eggs; we fertilized 3 and froze 4. 3/3 fertilized and 1 blast! October 2018 FET-BFN November 2018 FET-TBD
Re: April 2018 IVF
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
dx: PCOS, low progesterone; 2 MMC
Sept FET 2018 Spreadsheet
Jan 2 2018 - 1st IVF cycle - 9 retrieved, 7 mature/fertilized, 1 5d transfer + 5 untested snowbabies
Jan 19 2018 - Fresh Transfer #1 one 5dt; BFP 1/25/2018; EDD 10/7/2018; MMC at 8w3d; D&C 3/6/2018
May 16 2018 - FET #1 one 5dt; BFP with 4 betas (6.5, 24.3, 165.5, 2250) - EDD 2/1/2019; MMC at 6w; D&C 6/20/18
Sept 17 2018 - FET #2 one 5dt; BFP 38.9 7dpt, 167 9dpt - EDD 6/5/2019
(3 untested embryos remain)
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
I am so sorry! That is terrible news. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Just when we think we've come to terms with this stuff, infertility finds a new way to bring you to your knees. I hope you can take the time you need to be angry and grieve and process everything before deciding what to do next.
Sending you some kind of vibes to help you be ok with being angry, disappointed, enraged etc? xo
Oh no @mandurz I’m so sorry.
Take care of yourself. I'm sending you so many creepy internet hugs.
dx: PCOS, low progesterone; 2 MMC
Sept FET 2018 Spreadsheet
Jan 2 2018 - 1st IVF cycle - 9 retrieved, 7 mature/fertilized, 1 5d transfer + 5 untested snowbabies
Jan 19 2018 - Fresh Transfer #1 one 5dt; BFP 1/25/2018; EDD 10/7/2018; MMC at 8w3d; D&C 3/6/2018
May 16 2018 - FET #1 one 5dt; BFP with 4 betas (6.5, 24.3, 165.5, 2250) - EDD 2/1/2019; MMC at 6w; D&C 6/20/18
Sept 17 2018 - FET #2 one 5dt; BFP 38.9 7dpt, 167 9dpt - EDD 6/5/2019
(3 untested embryos remain)
I've been getting faint positives for 5 days and this morning got my first non-squinter (10dp3dt). It's still a pretty light line, but I'll take it!
@megmac2010 WOO HOO!! Honestly I know how you feel. TW with my last transfer that ended in a MMC at 10.5 weeks I had about 6 or 7 already at home and went to the store to get more because I was obsessed with POAS END TW Congrats on your non squinter!
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
Meanwhile, I am starting to understand the bizarre compulsion people have to post pee sticks on the internet. I always thought it was so weird. But now, after 6 years of waiting and getting a strong positive this afternoon, I want to show the whole world pictures of things I peed on.
I'm fighting the urge. Promise.
I totally get the urge to post a picture. So what's your stick count up to LOL? I would go broke if it were my choice how many I used. But my hubby keeps me in check.
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
We we got our PGS results back and we have 3 normal embryos. I am super thankful and looking forward to our FET in June!
@beachbunnyxo123 oh that's wonderful news!! so happy to hear your embryo report! fx for you in june!
@megamac2010 best of luck, my fx for you! had you tested?
dx: PCOS, low progesterone; 2 MMC
Sept FET 2018 Spreadsheet
Jan 2 2018 - 1st IVF cycle - 9 retrieved, 7 mature/fertilized, 1 5d transfer + 5 untested snowbabies
Jan 19 2018 - Fresh Transfer #1 one 5dt; BFP 1/25/2018; EDD 10/7/2018; MMC at 8w3d; D&C 3/6/2018
May 16 2018 - FET #1 one 5dt; BFP with 4 betas (6.5, 24.3, 165.5, 2250) - EDD 2/1/2019; MMC at 6w; D&C 6/20/18
Sept 17 2018 - FET #2 one 5dt; BFP 38.9 7dpt, 167 9dpt - EDD 6/5/2019
(3 untested embryos remain)
I got my beta results and it's not looking good. I've been getting positives - I got a positive in a clear blue digital yesterday. But my beta came back at 19.9. Looks like a chemical. I going in on Wednesday for another blood draw, but my hopes are zero. So bummed.
dx: PCOS, low progesterone; 2 MMC
Sept FET 2018 Spreadsheet
Jan 2 2018 - 1st IVF cycle - 9 retrieved, 7 mature/fertilized, 1 5d transfer + 5 untested snowbabies
Jan 19 2018 - Fresh Transfer #1 one 5dt; BFP 1/25/2018; EDD 10/7/2018; MMC at 8w3d; D&C 3/6/2018
May 16 2018 - FET #1 one 5dt; BFP with 4 betas (6.5, 24.3, 165.5, 2250) - EDD 2/1/2019; MMC at 6w; D&C 6/20/18
Sept 17 2018 - FET #2 one 5dt; BFP 38.9 7dpt, 167 9dpt - EDD 6/5/2019
(3 untested embryos remain)
Me-PCOS DH-nothing wrong
History in the spoiler (child and pregnancy loss mentioned)
FET #1 - March 2015 -- BFP twin boys
Lost one twin June 2017
FET #2 - August 2017 -- BFP single girl
Miscarriage Oct 2017
IVF #2 - Jan 2018 - 13 eggs retrieved down to 1 blast
IVF #3 - June 2018 - BFN (transferred 2, 1 from previous cycle and 1 adopted embryo)
Break from TTC and IVF
FET # 4 - Unknown start date, waiting to finalize everything
Ugh. Ugh to everything right now.
TTC 21 cycles
All TI cycles BFN (with letrozole, ovidrel, prometrium)
Hysteroscopy + Polypectomy + D&C on 1/3
IUI #1 February 6, BFP 2/21, CP 2/26
IUI #2 March 14, BFN
IUI #3 April 11, BFN
IUI #4 May 11, BFN
July 2018 IVF, developed lead follicle, converted to TI, BFN
August/September 2018 IVF converted to freeze-all: 7 mature eggs; we fertilized 3 and froze 4. 3/3 fertilized and 1 blast!
October 2018 FET-BFN
November 2018 FET-TBD
TTC 21 cycles
All TI cycles BFN (with letrozole, ovidrel, prometrium)
Hysteroscopy + Polypectomy + D&C on 1/3
IUI #1 February 6, BFP 2/21, CP 2/26
IUI #2 March 14, BFN
IUI #3 April 11, BFN
IUI #4 May 11, BFN
July 2018 IVF, developed lead follicle, converted to TI, BFN
August/September 2018 IVF converted to freeze-all: 7 mature eggs; we fertilized 3 and froze 4. 3/3 fertilized and 1 blast!
October 2018 FET-BFN
November 2018 FET-TBD
i totally would have called!!
They did call, but not until I had taken my 3pm progesterone suppositories. Obviously. Beta dropped from 19.9 on Monday to 2.8 today.
What a roller coaster! I'm exhausted!
TTC 21 cycles
All TI cycles BFN (with letrozole, ovidrel, prometrium)
Hysteroscopy + Polypectomy + D&C on 1/3
IUI #1 February 6, BFP 2/21, CP 2/26
IUI #2 March 14, BFN
IUI #3 April 11, BFN
IUI #4 May 11, BFN
July 2018 IVF, developed lead follicle, converted to TI, BFN
August/September 2018 IVF converted to freeze-all: 7 mature eggs; we fertilized 3 and froze 4. 3/3 fertilized and 1 blast!
October 2018 FET-BFN
November 2018 FET-TBD