December 2018 Moms
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PGAL Check In (Pregnant After A Loss) w/o March 28th - check out the newest thread instead!
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Hi all! I am so happy to be starting this thread because I really need it today! Please join me, any ladies who have had losses. The PGAL check in can be such a strong and valuable community as we go through the anxiety and fears (and excitement and hope!) of going through a pregnancy after a loss.
**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and / or stillbirth may be mentioned. With this general warning up top, I don't think we need to use TWs throughout this thread - thoughts?**
1. Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
4. Any appointments this week?
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and / or stillbirth may be mentioned. With this general warning up top, I don't think we need to use TWs throughout this thread - thoughts?**
1. Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
4. Any appointments this week?
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
Re: PGAL Check In (Pregnant After A Loss) w/o March 28th - check out the newest thread instead!
MMC confirmed on 9.18.17 at 9 weeks (baby stopped growing at around 6) then failed medication, then D and C on October 9th. Second miscarriage at 4.5 weeks in early February of this year.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
I am only 3 week and 5 days, so still very early days. Looking forward to getting past 4.5 weeks, which was my most recent loss. But, of course, the main milestone that I'm obsessing about is making it through an ultrasound and seeing a heartbeat. But that's not for another few weeks (which feels like forever.)
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
Symptoms are still mild, since I'm so early on, which, of course, makes me nervous, even though I logically know I'm not even four weeks yet and that's normal.
4. Any appointments this week?
Second round of betas today. Cannot wait to find out the results. I'm really, really nervous.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I feel like I can't focus on anything else but this pregnancy, which is unfortunate, because I have a giant writing project I'm working on with a huge deadline and I can. not. focus. I'm hoping getting my beta results today or tomorrow will help me just relax and let things happen as they will.
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
Probably my elopement/honeymoon in Scotland. It was the first week of spring, but it was their coldest spring in 50 years, so it snowed, a lot! (Including on our wedding day!) It was just so magical and cozy and romantic. I think about that trip all the time.
1. Helloooo! I needed this today too, although I think I’ll be anxious until my appt on the 14th. I had a stillbirth in Nov of 2016 and a CP in January. Our son was born healthy in sept of 2017.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up? 4+2, just my first appt
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)? Really hungry, really irritable and really anxious. I had some cramping yesterday and I’m trying to put it out of my mind. I’ve been taking pregnancy tests every day and the line doesn’t seem to be getting darker and I know i should probably just stop. We’ve been trying for 8 months though so add that on top of PGAL nerves and I’m a ball of anxiety.
4. Any appointments this week? Nope
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Nothing really, just trying to keep it together
BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
But as for your anxiety about lines getting darker, it's good to remember that hcg only doubles every 48 hours, if I'm remembering correctly, so you may not get a much darker test from one day to the next (also with fluctuation of urine concentration, etc.) Try not to psych yourself out (I know it's hard.) I hope time flies between now and your first appointment. I'm trying to give myself mini milestones I will celebrate to get to that point - like, at 4 weeks (Friday) I'm going to make a ticker, at 5 weeks I will have made it past my most recent loss, at 6 weeks I'm only about 1 week from my appointment, etc. It's been helping a little to break up the time into smaller chunks to get through.
Well as I mentioned in my intro, I'm 35. I have one 4 yr old girl. Our second pregnancy ended over Christmas time .I went in to the ER due to bleeding at 7.5 weeks and ultrasound showed that it stopped developing at 5 weeks .
Tomorrow makes 4 weeks .I just had an appt today to confirm the pregnancy .they took blood to check my hcg level and progesterone and I should be hearing back tomorrow.
I haven't really had many symptoms yet much. I had a bit of nausea for a few minutes yesterday. I want to be excited but also scared as well . I know things can happen at any time during a pregnancy so of course most of us are probably never completely worry free. I know I wasn't the first time but mannn.... I'll have such a sigh of relief when I get to the 2nd trimester.
I don’t know why it’s tagging all weird for me, but thank you for your advice and reassurance, it really did help today! ❤️ @maureenmce
BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up? 4w4d. I'd like to get past the 5 week mark for for some reason. Really looking forward to a happy 8 week appointment, then of course, second tri!
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)? I think I'm a bit tired, but my symptoms didn't really kick in until 5 weeks. Anxiety wise, every time I go to the restroom I'm nervous
4. Any appointments this week? None this week
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I have a PCP appointment to check my thyroid levels. I'm coming off of an antidepressant, so hopefully this pregnancy will keep me chipper.
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken? My honeymoon to Kauai!
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
Hello, I'm Ashley. I have 2 boys ages 2.5 and 8. I had 3 losses between them, 1 MMC, 1 ectopic (resulting in a tube loss) and an early loss.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
3 weeks 6 days today, EDD Dec 7th
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
Physically in feeling pretty normal, boobs hurt a little. Emotionally I still can't believe it, wasn't really prepared for it to happen so fast but also about 1,000x's less anxious then with my Rainbow baby (2.5 year old). It's weird but very welcome.
4. Any appointments this week?
Nothing until April 10th
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I make YouTube videos and I made one about finding out, telling my husband, my feelings, etc. I'm not posting it for a long time but it felt so good to speak about it. I refuse to tell anyone, even my immediate family until at least 12 weeks.
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
Last summer we took a trip to Romania, Italy and Germany, it was so much fun!
BFP #1: 6/25/09 EDD 2/13/10 @ 6 weeks- Saw HB @ 9 weeks - DS born 2/11/10 (39w5d)
BFP #2: 2/20/13 EDD 11/4/13 - Saw HB 3/19/13 (7w2d) - MMC discovered 4/13/13 (10w5d) - Est. loss @ 9w3d - D&C 4/14/13
BFP #4: 9/10/14 (3w6d) EDD 5/21/15 - natural MC 9/23/14 @ 5w5d
BFP #5: 11/23/14 (3w3d) EDD 8/4/15 - Please be our Rainbow!
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up? 4 weeks 3 days, due Dec 5th. Had two betas this week and my numbers are rising like they should. So that's one step in the right direction.
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)? Little symptoms right now...a little bit of mild cramping and a tiny wave of nausea here and there. Weirdly looking forward to more symptoms, as it somehow calms my nerves to have the pregnant feeling.
4. Any appointments this week? next appointment is April 18th - first ultrasound appt
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Just trying to be productive and not obsess about all things pregnancy all day long. Blah. These first few weeks are so hard!
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken? Probably just our low-key family beach vacations every year. We aren't fancy people and are more homebodies. So we like the relaxed family trips over the bigger and busier trips we have taken. Way too boring for our 30s. Lol
@littlewhitecottage Yay for good beta results! And I know the feeling about wanting strong symptoms (even if they suck.) I've been feeling symptoms earlier than with DD but no real morning sickness yet, and I can't wait (even though I HATE morning sickness.)
Hi there, I’m 42 years old and work in NYC. I had a loss in 2012, followed by fibroid surgery and had my daughter in 2013 (she’ll be 5 in two months). I had another loss in 2015 and ended up going through fertility treatments. We did two rounds of egg retrievals and nothing was ever viable. To say this is a surprise would be an understatement! I also just got over a really bad flare with my ulcerative colitis, so the timing is crazy.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
I’ll be five weeks tomorrow.
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
So far, waves of nausea that keep coming and going. I’m bizarrely calm about the pregnancy and not knowing the outcome. As we’ve had so many challenges, I now better than to get excited.
4. Any appointments this week?
I’m hoping my old reproductive endocrinologist will be willing to see me and run some tests. If it isn’t viable, we want to know sooner than later.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
We are in the middle of selling our house. It actually gets listed on Monday. Talk about timing!
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken? The Philippines - my husband is from there. Beautiful country!
Hiii... Very cautiously here. I am not even ready to intro on the main board yet. I had an early loss in december that resulted in a D&C (spent a short amount of time on the Aug18 bmb). It was my first pregnancy so I was fully unprepared for the devastation of a loss, especially so early.
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
I think 3w5d-ish... not 100% sure because i think i O'd early and don't have a consistent cycle anyway. First milestone is just getting to 6 weeks, that will be the record!
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
Symptoms are pretty minimal. Some sore nipples, after I saw my BFP of course now i feel like my uterus is very busy (things I wouldn't even have noticed otherwise). As far as anxiety.... like I said I am cautiously optimistic, there is no reason to think that this pregnancy will end, but I also don't want to get my hopes up yet.
4. Any appointments this week?
Nope, haven't even called the Dr. I will later this week
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
So of course last week I scheduled a jaw surgery that would require anesthesia for may 2. Obviously I wont be able to do that preg, but if this doesn't work out I want to have the surgery ASAP. Will probably wait a week or 2 before I cancel (I hope that doesn't jinx me!)
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
I love taking trips! Not sure I have a favorite, but definitely in the top tier is spending 2 months in Scandinavia, with some side trips to Berlin and Prague.
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
Hi there.
It looks like we have something In common. I was originally in the August 2018 group as well and had to pull away early. My MC happened in December as well. Hoping for sticky babies for both of us this time around.
Hi ladies
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
Still really early. 3w4d. If I make it to 5 weeks I'll be past my CP milestones, next hurdle will be 8 weeks.
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
No real symptoms except sore nips and crazy dreams already. Feeling really anxious about another early loss, I may or may not have taken 4 different brands of pregnancy tests this morning. Slightly darker lines than yesterday but still really nervous.
4. Any appointments this week?
Going to try and get in for betas tomorrow.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Worried about being able to finish up my internship and do a good job with nausea and doctors appointments (or dealing with another loss during it).
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
Surprised a friend for her 30th birthday last summer, her SO paid for me and another friend to fly down there and rented a house on the beach for the weekend. Got to spend a week with my BFFs just hanging out, having drinks, and eating good food. It was awesome.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
@GoyaBean913 Keep us posted with your results tomorrow! Sending you good thoughts!!
@morgantu Thank you! I hope time flies for all of us (even though it will probably feel like it's crawling. Ugh, first trimester!!!)
@littlewhitecottage Thanks so much. I've heard the same thing, and since, including losses, this is technically my 4th pregnancy, maybe my body *really* knows what to do and is kicking into high gear asap! I am feeling symptoms earlier than usual for me, so I'm going to hope that's the case.
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Hi everyone, I too am very cautiously here and not ready to join the main intro board. I'm 28 and we started trying for our first at the end of last year. I was very briefly in the November BM group (formerly known as ecologyphdmama) before having an early loss at 5 weeks. It was really emotionally draining, I had really fully invested when I saw that first positive and hadn't even fathomed that I would lose it. I'm a full time graduate student and we needed to get pregnant this year for it to work with my research schedule, so we decided to try again right away one last time before taking a break. And low and behold we are here again! I have another positive! I am trying to be optimistic but cautious too...DH doesn't even want me to take any HPTs until I'm a little further along but I cannot help myself!
2. How far along are you? Any milestones coming up?
I am 3 weeks 6 days. I took two cheapy tests at 10 dpo (risky decision) on Sunday and had some faint positives. Resisted the urge to take another yesterday, but did get a darker positive today. AF is due Thursday so that's a big milestone for me. I am also waiting until Sunday (which will hopefully be 3 days after my missed period to use my last first response early detection - I have been holding off as if it's this magic wand and once I pee on it, it will seal the deal! lol). I am also waiting for the 5 week mark, which is when I had my loss last month. But really I just want to be at 8 weeks already so I can have a doctor appointment to confirm everything is alright!
3. How are you feeling (symptom or anxiety wise)?
I'm having some very slight cramping which I am trying to not psych myself out about. I didn't get it last month so I am telling myself it's a good sign. I am actually managing the anxiety pretty well and trying to stay hopeful.
4. Any appointments this week?
None. Hopefully next week I'll call my GP to get a referral to an obgyn
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I have started some field research for my graduate program this week which has been a great distraction. It also gets me outdoors in the fresh air and gets me a little more active. I also LOVE my new undergraduate interns that are helping me out. They are so great and enthusiastic, which always makes the long hours easier to deal with. I am nervous about getting MS in the coming weeks and how I'll cope but maybe I'll be one of the lucky few who doesn't get it? HA! I'm also nervous because I do some brief heavy lifting, but there's not a real way to avoid it. I'm hoping it's not that big a deal in the first trimester...?
6. GTKY: What's your favorite trip you've ever taken?
Oh gosh that's so hard. DH and I love to travel. Last year we got to visit Japan which was just absolutely amazing!
**also I'm sorry for such a long post! I think it just feels good to talk it all out since we really haven't told anyone we're trying, or about the loss we had!
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@wackers87 I think it depends a lot on the practice (and the country where you're located - are you in the US?) Have you asked to been seen earlier and reminded your OB of your loss history? Sometimes they can be flexible. For my OB, even with loss, she doesn't typically like to see people before 7 weeks, since dates can be off and she doesn't like limbo where you don't know if you're too early or there's no heartbeat. I could push to be seen earlier because I hate the wait, but since I was in that exact limbo position with my MMC, I do appreciate the clarity, I suppose and I'll stick with her idea of seeing me at 7 weeks and 4 days.