Who's with me??
Having a very hard time gearing myself up for baby making week. I am feeling so discouraged and it's just hard to get excited about this knowing how I've felt these last couple months. I need my hormones to kick in and evolution to remind me this is what I really want so I can start to get at least a little excited... I'm just done with the roller coaster!
Re: March WTO
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@coco2787 i can't remember are you doing RPL testing soon? I'm sorry you're feeling so hopeless right now. Just know we're all here if you need to vent or cry or scream. Loss sucks. *hugs*
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Doing my best to relax (haha) and just live my life at my DH's advice. Doesn't hurt that we both have the week off work this week. I've decided that this is our week. Lazy mornings (morning BDing!) and lots of self care. I'm taking full advantage of the gym, booked a massage, and doubling up on acupuncture. Even have an evening planned with my girlfriends, which I have completely avoided since my MC. Maybe a little less obsessing and a little more getting back to me is actually ok.
Acupuncture was good but naturopath isn't happy that I don't have a definitive O day. Does anybody? I find those OPKs so inconsistent. Not sure I've ever had a real read on them. I'm really guessing at best.
:tw: emotional mess today
I'm feeling like a bfp is never going to happen again. It took 6 months to get my bfp that ended in MC. Just having a woe is me type of day
@prpl11butterfly I think that's exactly what happened to me this month too; body geared up to O, but didn't. Hopefully it only happens once for both of us!
@furmama1986 Sorry you're having a tough day. We all have them, so this is a good place to be for finding people who understand.
@kikimi83 I would have been due Sept 16. My step SIL announced last weekend. Due Sept 8. It was a knife to the heart for a million reasons. I'm sorry that you are being bombarded. It's tough.
DD born 4/1/2023
Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
..... Heading to TWW now. I think yesterday was O day!
Just had another FB announcement last night. Didn't hit me hard at all. She's also due around the same time I would have been. BUT I also know she had a loss last year (or maybe 2 years ago) around this same time.
@kikimi83 it's making me rethink announcements now too. But that's hard because you'll want to share the joy when the time comes but also not hurt feelings. Ugh, life is to difficult sometimes.
edited bc it cut off have my comment.
I'm excited to be moving and acting on things again FINALLY but pretty anxious and nervous about it all, too. I start letrozole Saturday so hopefully I O a little earlier than normal and don't have to live over here for like three weeks the way I sometimes do!
Checked with the clinic and it is specified that they want me to start with the estrogen orally pending that CD12 check; something about the fact that I'm also doing progesterone inserts same cycle.. she said most people absorb it fine orally and about 1/5 don't and need to switch to vaginal route the next try, but we will start with by mouth. I already warned DH I'm sorry in advance for what I say or do that first week of April.... I can have crazy mood swings with my cycle and no meds so I'm just nervous. lol
AFM, I just had US and 4 follicles. Trigger shot tonight and IUI Wednesday.
day 3 of 5 Letrozole and no real side effects here except for BLOATING. Oh wow. I wish it were socially acceptable to unbotton my pants at work. LOL
@Mack2342 Yay for 4 follies!
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019