TTCA35 Weekly Checkin : 2/12/18

kristimh80

@vlagrl29 FX for you that it does come early and you can get back to your regular self!!

@Momifbysea Funny, I feel the opposite. Part of me wonders if my body will cooperate now it's been shown what do it. lol I know better and still won't ovulate, but it's a fun thought. 

vlagrl29

@momifbysea - I also put a call into the nurse.  The spotting is a lot heavier today so I suspect I'll start my AF will start a week early WTF?  How can 1 get pregnant with a 3 week cycle.  I'm not regretting my decision at all to stop and never again take medicine.  Why - my cycles are perfect and I don't  want to mess with that.

We are taking a break this next cycle but moving forward I'm not putting effort into TTC.  We will just have sex.  I'm over it

mich_elle

@Labluver2 : good for you! I understand needing to push TTC off to the side for a bit.  It can consume you. I remember hitting a point where I was just like-I’m done for now, done with temping, done with OPKs and pg tests, done HIO every damn cycle, done with taking meds and getting nowhere. 

@vlagrl29 : feel better! and oh my-that’s one cute hamster!

@kristimh80 : agreed! I became Bitter Betty and I hate her. She’s creeping back in lately and I’m trying not to let her win but it’s tough. Oh, and I feel you with the Zika stuff. Threw off my damn timeline by half a year!

@jld36 : I’m sorry your feeling down. (((hugs)))

@Momifbysea : OMG that’s great news! Congrats on your move-what a crazy time. We moved this summer and it’s a wonderful but exhausting experience. 

AFM: Wednesday was my saline HSG done=right tube is still blocked. Pain was not nearly as bad as the first one I did with the radiographic dye. Saline for the win! Thursday was my SHG=uterus looks good. Just waiting for biopsy results. DH semen analysis results showed good quality but low quantity so he'll repeat 3/1. Our next appointment with RE is 3/5 to review all of these tests and make a plan going forward. DH & I agreed to TTC again this cycle (should O next Fri or Sat). We live in PA and he just found out that he's got to fly to France Sunday-Tuesday then to UK Wednesday-Thursday. I never sleep when he's away but my bigger fear is my anxiety. I suffer from post pardum anxiety and knowing he will be traveling internationally has me freaked out. Oh, and DS just spiked a fever of 101.3 and vomited all over the bathroom. Great timing universe!

vlagrl29

AF officially started a week early. Well hopefully things can normalize. Dh was shocked by that too. I've been really tired this week. Did any of you feel that during tww with femara or clomid? Not pg obviously lol.

Momifbysea

@vlagrl29 absolutely yes I did feel that way on Femara, like run over by a truck tired! But I wasn’t sure if it was that or just other life stress. I hope you feel back to normal soon!!!

kristimh80

Guess I'm having a "moment". My husband is 1 of 6 kids and everyone has 2-3 kids. 2 kids are having a joint bday party and I feel terrible saying this, but I have NO desire buying them anything. Kids are great, but we have none and ever bday, christmas, etc we are expected to send gifts. I'm sure a lot is hormones and in my head since i the middle of our IVF stuff. I wanna ask if anyone wants to send something for our embryos lol I mean wasn't Jan 31st their bday? 

vlagrl29

@Momifbysea - ok good I don't feel so crazy now. Thought maybe it was the anxiety med I started. After lunch every day I want to nap. My parents moved today and I wanted to help them more but I had zero energy. I forced myself to yoga tonight.

@kristimh80 - I'm sorry you have to deal with that.  I feel your emotions are valid. I'd totally send your embies gifts

PoeMasque

@Momifbysea so happy to read your update!!! 2 is amazing!!! Yessssss! 

vlagrl29

@momifbysea - once your tww was over you felt more normal right? After you had your flow and it ended?  I'm not convinced this is a real flow even though it's heavier.  It's not as heavy as it normally would be on day 2.  This was my 3rd week so I have 1 more week of my normal cycle.

kristimh80

@vlagrl29 awe you're too sweet! I think I was just having a moment yesterday after my MIL called asking if we had sent gifts yet. Hope you get to feeling totally normal soon! I know after this last cycle with meds I felt so much better when my period finally showed up. But everyone is different. My gf did ivf with me and has had a really bad time feeling better. 

ndz2018

@Momifbysea I am benched this month. My last day of Estradriol and Progestrone is today so I should get AF within a week. Next cycle is all natural baby! No meds, no appointments, nada!! Just going to enjoy life. I can even try naturally if I want but due to our MFI I doubt that will happen. 

@vlagrl29 Yeah these meds really screw up your cycles. Hopefully this cycle you’ll feel back to your normal self.

@kristimh80 ugh sorry you had to deal with that. It’s ok to feel that way, your going through a lot! 

@mich_elle Does allow quantity mean low sperm count or low volume?

vlagrl29

@kristimh80 - well I'm sure Ivf recovery is harder than clomid recovery. I'm so ready to see that red heavy flow lol

kristimh80

@vlagrl29 Everyone I know that's tried clomid has said it messing with your emotions big time, so you may have it worse! Soon as AF was here, anything I felt from meds was gone, so hopefully that'll happen to you too! 

vlagrl29

@kristimh80 - I went to yoga last night in hopes it would help energy but it sure as heck didn't!  My emotions aren't bad right now just constantly tired.  Feeling like a horrible mother and wife because I am not doing everything 100% like normal.  Some times I'll also have some indigestion but I take tums for that.  i know this might sound bad but I hope I'm not pregnant from this cycle because I need to recoup lol.  we didn't Bd much at all anyways because I felt horrible.

ndz2018

@vlagrl29 Yeah you need to press the reset button, that’s all. You’re not a horrible wife and mother Bc you’re not feeling good. Don’t beat yourself up, these things happen and you need to take time to get yourself back to normal. Sorry it’s taking so long to feel better. You sure it’s not something else lurking like a virus? Or cold?

vlagrl29

@ndz2018 thanks! Nope no cold or virus lurking that I'm aware of. The fact I still have mild night hot flashes tells me it's still there.  From what my pharmacist said it can take 25 days to flush it all out. That's soon thank god!! I'm on day 21. Still have to take some Ativan as needed. I'll get off that once the flow starts.

kristimh80

@vlagrl29 I think I spoke too soon thinking my old meds weren't affecting me. I told my husband I needed to go home and not be in public anymore today. Everything and everyone is irritating me!!! #calagontakemeaway

ndz2018

I’m with you on that @kristimh80 Today is one of those stay in bed all day kinda days. H had to go to the shore house yesterday to take care of things, it’s snowed last night about 5 inches and he took the dog and I’m all alone binge viewing The Fall on Netflix. I’m not feeling to greatest between the hormones and the antibiotics I’m on for a tooth infection.
Some good news is yesterday was the last day of Estradriol and progestrone!!! Should be getting AF this week some time .. my luck it’ll be longer lol looking forward to a hormone free month!!

ndz2018

OMG as if the thought of spending all day in bed wasn’t good enough my mom just called and is headed to breakfast with friends and asked if I wanted Go come... when I said No she said “you want me to bring you something?” UMMM HELL YEAH!!  

Momifbysea

I have to say I’ve been having anxiety the last few nights since having moved. Not sure if it’s just AF or those meds getting out of my system or just all the change and anticipation of more change, even if it’s good change, can still be stressful. Today is the last day my parents are here so my dad is helping me unpack while mom watches DD. DH is working 7 days a week til mid April so I need to meet a buddy here as I know nobody! Feeling isolated...

vlagrl29

I got enough sleep but I'm still so exhausted.  I did take a tiny dose of ativan at 6am - cut it in half.  I actually dry heaved this morning. That makes 2 days in a row   I was doing so well too wens-fri.  I just need to reset myself.  really praying AF comes soon!

vlagrl29

@kristimh80 - how long have you been off your meds and when does your AF come - hopefully you'll feel more normal after that

@ndz2018 - that's great you can stop those meds.  The oral prog was so bad for me.  Dh and I were talking last night and he said every time my hormones are messed with I just get all messed up so I've learned my lesson and not taking anymore.

kristimh80

@vlagrl29 Ugh, dry heaving is the worst! Hope you get to feeling better today! AF came 5 days after egg retrieval, so was shocked to feel this way now. Today boobs hurt, so idk what in the world is going on!! If was normal, I'd think AF was about to show up again. 

@ndz2018 Sounds like the perfect day!!! I don't plan to get out of my pj's all day either. Luckily, it's cloudy here and rained a little this morning. My husband asked my plans for today...I told him a whole lot of nothing! I may eventually get the nerve to clean a little. 

@Momifbysea Kudos to you!! I can't imagine moving while undergoing everything you've been going thru lately! Hopefully, once everyone is gone, you can sit down and relax for a moment! 

ndz2018

@Momifbysea That’s gotta be tough moving to a place where you don’t anyone. Ok we can think of things you can do to meet some new friends in your area. Maybe after things get settled you can join a FB group in your area of things your interested in whether it be cooking or something like yoga, whatever it is you’re into this way it can point you in the direction of like minded people? Im sure once you get settled and you get into a routine you’re nerves will settle too. 

@vlagrl29 You think the dry heaving can be from anxiety? I know when I used to get nervous I’d dry heave.

@kristimh80 here’s to you and I doing a whole lotta nothin today!!

kristimh80

I agree...I dry heave when get really nervous / anxiety. Glad I'm not the only one!! lol

@Momifbysea How far away did you move from your old house? We moved to TX 2 1/2 years ago...I liked the idea of not knowing a lot of people. It's like your can become whoever you wanna be! Here we have a great FB group for infertility, maybe there's one by you too. I got lucky and have met girls going thru it with me. Sometimes we have dinner or coffee. Next weekend the group is doing pedi's and lunch. 

vlagrl29

@ndz2018 - yes it very well could be but it's not every day which is the weird part.  Not Wens-Fri but today and yesterday.  Hence why I needed the ativan lol.  In the beginning of taking clomid I believe it was a side effect because it was multiple times a night.