#1 Know that I am an optimist
#2 Know that I'm going to order pizza and drink wine tonight with DH
Today DH and I went to my first appointment, 8 weeks 6 days by LMP. We saw the gestational sac via transvaginal ultrasound, but it was just that. All sac and no baby. The sac measured in at 6 weeks 1 day. I kind of wanted to just pass the tissue naturally, but doctor recommended D&C to be sure. He said that if I was nearer 6 weeks he'd be okay with waiting...but technically we already have been waiting. So, the surgery is scheduled tomorrow morning. I'm happy that I'll be knocked out, and I should be out of recovery before noon. DH happens to be off tomorrow, so he'll be taking care of me.
I was kind of expecting this today though. Yesterday I was called in for some labs (progesterone and betas). This morning a receptionist called and said that both were low, and that I had a progesterone prescription that I needed to fill right away. My progesterone was 5.1, and my beta hCG was 8,646 mIU/mL. With numbers that low I lost the hope real quick, but didn't cry until after seeing the empty sac.
But since I'm an optimist, I know that when we move in June I won't be 8 months pregnant. Also, I can delay car shopping for a little bit. Also, recurring blighted ovum is rare. Supposedly the six months following a MC is supposed to be more fertile than normal, so we'll see. This gives me more gym time again, I was avoiding cardio classes because I was avoiding over exertion. Meanwhile, until I work up the nerve to be in public again (and by public, I mean pregnant women and happy babies) I'm just going to hang out at home, covered in puppies and being thankful that I hadn't started any baby registries. I'm probably going to watch all of the Hobbit movies too. Because that's productive
Have a great rest of your journeys y'all!
Surgery went well, I was quickly discharged and feel great. DH bought me new fuzzy pajama bottoms, then made me a box of Annie’s white cheddar shells (how can I love that guy more?! Gosh). I’ve been drinking green tea with ALL of the caffeine, and monitoring the blood (minimal!).
I’m happy that I got the D&C, my body feels like it’s resetting, and we are optimistic about trying again. Doctor wants us to wait two months, and nothing in my vag for two weeks.
Next week or so I’m going to introduce myself to some other Bump boards, and realistically look forward to graduating to a PGAL group.
Meanwhile, my “puppy” will be five years old next spring...he’s the best.