Our third attempt at IVF got cancelled yesterday, on Day3 (again!) due to low follicle count and high FSH (18). We've been trying for about 3 years and had tried 3 IUIs (with clomid) earlier this year. None worked. We took a few months break to get ourselves ready (mentally) for IVF. Finally, we accepted we cant get pregnant naturally, or with IUI so we moved onto IVF. Our first attempt got cancelled at Day3 due to low follicle count (7) and high FSH (11). At the second attempt they saw 11 follicles and my FSH was ok, so we started. After 12 days of high doses of stims (follistim +menopur), only 3 follicles grew. We didn't go forward with retrieval because of the low chances and the fact that we cant afford to pay for multiple IVFs. Still we spent over $6K just for that. That cycle got converted to IUI which again didnt work. We went in yesterday to start the 3 IVF cycle and learned the heart breaking news.
My doctor never tells me anything, just we'll try again blah blah. He is a very good doctor with very bad communication. I know multiple people who went to him and got pregnant at the first try. He didn't diagnose me with anything. But, from what I understand I have DOR (diminished ovarian reserve) and we are completely devastated. We cried all day yesterday, thinking it will never work and we'll never be parents. I dont know what to do, feel completely lost. Even if we try IVF again, or attempt, what if it will be the same. What if my body will never be ready or wont grow follicles. I can't take the pain anymore. I feel like I should accept that I will never have a child of my own. Has any of you went through the same thing? Were you successful with IVF? Did you do anything differently? any supplements or alternative medicine? Please help.
Me: 34 DH: 34
TTC #1 since May 2015
Feb 2017 - IUI#1 = BFN
Mar 2017 - one large cycts - benched
Apr 2017 - IUI#2 = BFN
May 2017 - IUI#3 = BFN
September 2017 - 1st IVF = cancelled high FSH low count
October 2017 - 2ndIVF = failed (poor repsonder)
November 2017 - 3rd IVF = cancelled high FSH low count
February 2018 - 4 IVF 3PGS tested embryos
March 2018 - FET on 3/26 - BFP - EDD 12/12