How far along are you? 5 weeks, 1 day Any appointments coming up? I had my last beta today and it came back at 3,341! It was 201 last Monday, so it more than doubled! They scheduled me for my first u/s next Tuesday, the 5th. I just hope the time goes quickly.
Questions? I don't think I have any questions today. How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I am doing okay. I had myself convinced yesterday that my beta wouldn't come back good today and was pretty upset. And now I just feel relieved that it did come back okay! I hate going from one minute feeling good and the next minute worrying something will still go wrong. I had my loss at 5 + 3 last time, so am anxious about getting past that date. GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I really hate cleaning the bathroom. I just don't want to do it.
How far along are you? around 7-8 weeks. It's pretty frustrating that I haven't been able to get a dating US yet.
Any appointments coming up? Friday!!! 4 days!
Questions? I went for my first beta draw on Fri (39924) and second this morning (49359). I know they stop doubling at some point, but does anyone know whether these are good numbers for 7-8 weeks? My OB will call tomorrow to go over these results but I am too anxious to wait til then!
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) With every tiny cramp I am still running to the bathroom to check for bleeding. Feeling a little more hopeful, but not much.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I cannot stand putting the laundry away... which is why it stays piled up on the guest bed for weeks at a time.
@sparklingdiamond you are almost over the emotional hump of last time's loss! So glad the beta tests were so positive. I'll be thinking of you on Wednesday. Hopefully you just go from strength to strength and feel more and more secure.
How far along are you? 6 weeks, 3 days Any appointments coming up? September 12th just can't come fast enough.
Questions? None today. How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I am really vacillating between being just so anxious to allowing myself to be excited. We told my SIL and her husband while visiting them in Telluride this weekend. That felt pretty scary. But we had fun making up all sorts of outrageous demands "the baby wants" so we ended up laughing a lot, which felt good. But also dangerous. Does that make sense? I don't know. GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Filing expense reports at work... I call them TPS reports and watch an Office Space snippet to make it less loathsome.
@stalkinghorse I get being emotionally torn. I am having trouble enjoying this pregnancy like I did with my DD. Maybe I will feel more comfortable after first tri, but it feels scary to commit to joy right now.
@ashnbubs those are solid numbers for 7 weeks (range is from 7,659-229k). Unfortunately doubling is supposed to happen up through 14 weeks .
@ashnbubs my numbers went from 32k to 48k at early 6 weeks (I've always tended towards higher HCG) they called me in for an ultrasound when the labs finally got back to them because they weren't doubling (not until 5 days later due to a mix up) and we saw a happy little nugget with a strong heartbeat. My OB said that when numbers start getting up there the doubling can take longer sometimes. Stay strong!!
@sparklingdiamond Yassssssss excellent beta! I hope next Tuesday comes quickly for you!
@ashnbubs I agree with @sunshinedays-2. It may be that your numbers are so high that the doubling is taking longer. Please don't worry. If you lurk other BMBs (like March) there are some ladies whose betas were steadily increasing around that range, but not doubling, and who are still pregnant. Don't fixate on the not doubling being a sign that you should worry. Let us know what your OB says!
@stalkinghorse Good for you for celebrating this pregnancy and laughing a little! I understand the trepidation about letting yourself go there though. I told my dad and BFF this week. It was scary to say it out loud to them, but it's nice to share some happiness too. We are pregnant today and that is worth celebrating and being happy about in the company of those you love.
How far along are you? 5+3
Any appointments coming up? Still white knuckling it until 9/13
Questions?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm feeling more positive! I have finally let go of peeing on wondfos and temping. The nausea and sore boobs have really amped up the past few days and I am weirdly happy to be feeling so shitty!
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Laundry. So much laundry.
Thanks @kbamomma33@sunshinedays-2@ngolimento I am trying not to freak out about the numbers! I can't wait to find out what my doc says. Thanks for the support!
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Doing ok. The b6 and unisom is definitely helping a good bit. I've decided to see how one more week goes now that school's back and I'm getting into my routine. Today my major issue was dizziness.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Probably washing dishes
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm feeling more positive! I have finally let go of peeing on wondfos and temping. The nausea and sore boobs have really amped up the past few days and I am weirdly happy to be feeling so shitty!
Yes!! I relate to all of this! I'm 5w2d and also just stopped POAS and temping. Even though I know the nausea doesn't really mean anything, it's oddly comforting.
History (TW/loss/child):
7/2017 -- miscarriage at 6w 5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz 9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC 3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w 7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC 9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
Any appointments coming up? First ultrasound in 8 more days! Questions? How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Physically, just lots of burping, some waves of nausea every day, and a general "out of it" feeling--very hard to get work done. Emotionally, doing pretty well. I just passed the length of my last pregnancy (m/c at 5w1d), which feels like a kind of milestone. But I also started vaginal progesterone, and all the extra discharge makes me feel like I'm bleeding, which sends me running to the bathroom to check. : / GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Definitely putting laundry away! I don't mind washing it, but then I would sooner just dump it in a pile on the floor and pick outfits out of it every day than hang things up or fold them. It's the same with unpacking after a trip. No idea why!
History (TW/loss/child):
7/2017 -- miscarriage at 6w 5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz 9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC 3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w 7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC 9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
How far along are you? Today I am 6+4 Any appointments coming up? My possibly last RE appointment (ultrasound) is on Friday. I'm nervous to "graduate"! Questions? Are crazy vivid dreams a thing that happens? I've been having bad dreams, verging on nightmares, and it's exhausting. How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm okay. Like someone else said, trying to balance the fear/anxiety and letting myself be excited. One of said vivid dreams was about *TW losing this pregnancy, and I woke up just devastated. Even though up until now everything has been perfect with this pregnancy.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I hate putting away clean clothes and scrubbing the bathtub.
@mstoddart I have vivid dreams, too! I find it hard to wake up in the morning because it's like I've been on another planet and I have to get reacquainted with earth / my bedroom.
History (TW/loss/child):
7/2017 -- miscarriage at 6w 5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz 9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC 3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w 7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC 9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
Any appointments coming up? Ultrasound on Wednesday! I'm kind of nervous about this, since my mom mentioned we might be able to hear baby's heartbeat. That didn't even occur to me! It just seems so weird to have another heartbeat inside of me!
Questions? I'm sure I have many, but my brain can't think of any right now.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Honestly, I am really, really struggling with this pregnancy. It was unplanned and unexpected, and came at a pretty stressful time of transition for my husband and me. We've only been married a year, we just moved 3 states away from my parents, DH just got his first high school teaching job, I'm smack in the middle of opening a small business, and we live in a run-down apartment that I specifically told my husband I did NOT want to have kids in. When I got the BFP, I felt no joy (for other reasons too, like the danger of an IUD pregnancy). The only time I've smiled as a result of this pregnancy was when I told my mom, and that was mostly muscle reaction. I'm trying to be happy. I feel like I should be happy. I want to be happy. But I'm just not.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Cleaning grody dishes. We used to have a dishwasher, but don't in our new apartment and washing dishes by hand just grosses me the hell out.
Any appointments coming up? Just had one today and it went really well! *Happy dance*
Questions? Nope
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) We announced to my in-laws tonight, and they were very supportive. I was glad that my hubby didn't do it on speaker phone, because I don't know if I could have handled my jerkoff FIL saying something nasty about me being pregnant "again". I still hate sharing the info, but it's over with
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I loathe vacuuming. I swear to God that the stupid thing fights me the whole time, and the cord is possessed by Satan. Evil vile machine.
@ashnbubs I read somewhere that when levels get over 1200, they start to double slower (every 72-96 hours) and then even slower when over like 6000 (more than 96 hours to double) or something like that. So them not exactly doubling isn't necessarily bad I wouldn't think.
@kbamomma33 I finally gave up and stopped peeing on Wondfos too! It's so hard to let go of it! In a weird way, I feel like it makes me feel like I have control over the situation, even though I don't!
@stalkinghorse That's good that you were at least able to relax enough to have a little fun with being pregnant :-)
@mdwiny I started progesterone too. I hate that mine is pink, so when it comes back out it looks like spotting. Like really? Why did they make it that color??
@mdwiny I started progesterone too. I hate that mine is pink, so when it comes back out it looks like spotting. Like really? Why did they make it that color??
Oh that's just cruel!! That pharma lab is filled with men for sure...
History (TW/loss/child):
7/2017 -- miscarriage at 6w 5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz 9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC 3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w 7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC 9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
P&G for the time being, as the app is being a jerk.
How far along are you? 8w4d Any appointments coming up? U/S tomorrow, finally!
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm feeling much better than I did in weeks 6 and 7 - my desire for food has returned and I can eat semi-normally now. I'm still getting an upset stomach for at least part of the day each day, but not nearly as bad. The best thing really is being able to eat vegetables and other healthy foods though.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I hate cutting/hauling/stacking firewood. It's always hot when you do it, so you wind up sweaty, dusty, itchy and scratched up, and there's always the possibility of rattlesnakes or scorpions to make it even less pleasant. Yuck.
TW
Me: 33 DH: 32 Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013 Started TTC August 2016 BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17 BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17 BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18 BFP: 2/27/20
@sparklingdiamond yay for the betas! We have an U/S on the same day... this is going to be the longest week ever!
@stalkinghorse I can relate to that roller-coaster... every day I flip flop from there's something wrong to omg we're having a baby... I'm hoping after my first U/S I will have some sort of relief
@mdwiny im guilty of not unpacking and letting my bags sit against the wall for like... up to a few weeks. Its such a pain!!!
@vannesmarshall sorry you're struggling with this pregnancy- you will come around to it, but don't beat yourself up for not being ecstatic... I think people who 100% intentionally got pregnant have second thoughts once "the deed is done." I'm still a little shocked that I'm actually, really, pregnant, and we were not trying not preventing... I can't imagine what my thoughts would be, having it happen while on B.C while you were in the midst of turning a brand new page in life!
Any appointments coming up? Today! Today is my formal intake appt and was supposed to be my 1st ultrasound. However, because I got called in a week and a half ago for a viability ultrasound due to my numbers it will be my second look! So excited to see that little bean again.
Questions? Is anyone having trouble drinking plain water? I've been surviving off of Gatorade and vitamin water and the sugary stuff is killing me (I never drank it prior to this pregnancy). Any recommendations for unsweetened drinks that might go down easy?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) This is a hard one for me. I've passed my loss milestones but I haven't actually passed when I had my MMC (stopped growing at 6+2 didn't miscarry until almost 10w) and I feel like I'm trying to white knuckle it through the anxiety. I feel like I need to be positive so I'm slapping a smile sticker on everything but if I'm honest there are some dark moments. Thankful for an US today.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Mopping!! Hate it! Love the way it clean floors feel afterwards though...
@sparklingdiamond What great betas! Congrats! @ashnbubs If it makes you feel any better, I am only juat now getting my dating U/S at 8w5d. Also, I hate putting away laundry too @stalkinghorse Your feelings definitely sound familiar to me. I said something about being worried the other day to MH and he responded "That's why we shouldn't get too invested/excited." The idea if getting hurt again is so scary. Also, LOL, TPS reports @kbamomma33 I hope the next two weeks fly by! @allowachick I'm sorry you've been feeling so bad.... dizziness just seems like adding insult to injury. Yuck. @mdwiny Passing milestones is great! And, I am also terrible at unpacking from a trip. @mstoddart Sorry about the nightmare - hopefully Friday's U/S will be reassuring. @vannesmarshall Be gentle with yourself. Your situation sounds really stressful, so give it some time to sink in. My pregnancy was very much wanted, but I have had lots of moments when I am pretty sure I'm crazy for wanting/choosing it. It's scary, and all the more so for you with the dangers of the IUD pregnancy. Good luck, and remember, we're cheering you on too! @sunshinedays-2 Yay for an U/S today! I hope it can give you a little peace of mind Edit: forgot some words.
TW
Me: 33 DH: 32 Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013 Started TTC August 2016 BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17 BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17 BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18 BFP: 2/27/20
Any appointments coming up? A week from today is my first and an ultrasound a couple days after that. Can't. Wait.
Questions? No
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Passed my previous loss date. Still won't fully relax till i see that baby though. I am having more symptoms now which makes me feel better though!
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Giving the dog a bath. She hates it. I hate it. But since she weights 60 pounds and fights it big time, dh usually takes over that chore when I'm pregnant. Thank goodness!
@sunshinedays-2 I have been trying an infuser and putting lemons and limes into the water. It helps a lot since I don't like water either. I also have a lot of luck with watering down juices (they are too sugar and thick for me).
@sunshinedays-2 I also smoosh some fresh mint and put it in my water. Sometimes I add lemon, but then you need to follow with plain water to prevent the acid from hurting your enamel. Also, fresh rosemary in sparkling water is really refreshing.
@ngolimento@stalkinghorse Those are great ideas! I'm going to swing by target today after my appt and see if I can find an infuser. I've never used one before.
Hi! Did a formal introduction on the board today. I recognize a few names from the ttcal board. It had been my home for the past 9 months. I am 5 1/2 weeks. My first appointment isn't until 5 more weeks,Oct 3. How am I? Relatively calm. I am checking for spotting less and less each day. My miscarriage happened around 8 weeks but I had begun spotting around 7. I called to schedule my appointment yesterday and was told that my new insurance doesn't automatically cover a dating ultrasound but have a feeling I can talk them into something due to my dd genetic condition. I hate to take out the trash. I actually really like cleaning the bathroom, I find it satisfying.
Any appointments coming up? September 1. This Friday!!! I think I am only seeing the nurse, bit still have some anxiety.
Questions? None for now.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I feel terrible. I am nauseous ALL the time. The only food I can seem to stomach right now is smoothies. I am so conflicted. I want the nausea to go away because I literally can't focus on anything. At the same time I want it to stick around because it is reassuring me that I am still pregnant.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Dishes. I hate them. Give me laundry all day every day bit no dishes!
@allowachick and @mdwiny - thanks for the reassurance about the dreams! @sunshinedays-2 I agree about the plain water. I've been adding lemon, or drinking seltzer has been ok for me too
@sunshinedays-2 I've been mixing sparkling water with a bit of fruit juice, lemonade, etc. Like a 4:1 ratio. The sweet juices are too intense on their own, and the water is too plain on its own. Together--problem solved! I figure the sugary stuff is okay in moderation, and it's helping me get my water in.
History (TW/loss/child):
7/2017 -- miscarriage at 6w 5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz 9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC 3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w 7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC 9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
@mstoddart@mdwiny I haven't tried sparkling water! I have been pretty hit or miss with soda so assumed all bubbles were out but now I'm thinking I might give seltzer with a bit of lemon or fruit juice a shot!
@sparklingdiamond those are great numbers! What kind of progesterone are you taking? I'm taking Prometrium vaginally instead of oral and they mentioned they had pink and white ones. If it's the same kind you should ask if they can get you the white ones. My RE specially made sure I got the white ones because he said the pink ones looks exactly like spotting. Sorry you have to deal with that! @ashnbubs my RE told me once your numbers hit 1000 your doubling time increases and your numbers won't necessarily double within the 48-72 hour range. @stalkinghorse I know exactly where you're coming from. It's so hard to be excited when you're just nervous all the time. Hopefully once we all get to the second trimester we can actually enjoy it. @kbamomma33 nothing weird with being happy about feeling shitty. I understand it completely. @mdwiny you will get use to the progesterone discharge. It's gross but after awhile you can tell that's what it is. @ngolimento I'm sorry your FIL is like that.
How far along are you? 9+2 I think. I know it's within a day but I can't remember. Any appointments coming up? I have one with my OB next Tuesday. The nurse said we would listen to the heartbeat but I didn't think the Doppler would work at 10 weeks. Questions? Nope. How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm just waiting for the moment that I feel 'relaxed' and can actually enjoy this without worrying about everything. I'm not sure if that will ever happen but I'm hoping it does. GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Cleaning the toilet. But right now cleaning anything. The smell from cleaning supplies make me feel awful. Even though most of the time I make DH do it because I don't want to breath in the fumes. I usually use mrs meyers but everything couple of days the kitchen needs a good cleaning or if I cook with meat I make sure to clean up good. (well I make DH clean up good)
@mispanda I can't remember what it's called, but I know I have gotten it from two different places and they have both been a different shade of pink. I didn't even know they had white ones!
@mispanda it's funny that you hate the smell of cleaning supplies, my DH is the same way. I, on the other hand, loooove the smell of bleach. I remember sniffing a while hospital towel while in labor, and it helped me through contractions quite a bit. I'm weird .
@mispanda it's funny that you hate the smell of cleaning supplies, my DH is the same way. I, on the other hand, loooove the smell of bleach. I remember sniffing a while hospital towel while in labor, and it helped me through contractions quite a bit. I'm weird .
Ahh I can't stand the smell of bleach! There is some kind of cleaner or something that 7-11 uses that I can't stand. The one by our house smells so gross every time I go in there.
@mispanda it's funny that you hate the smell of cleaning supplies, my DH is the same way. I, on the other hand, loooove the smell of bleach. I remember sniffing a while hospital towel while in labor, and it helped me through contractions quite a bit. I'm weird .
this really made me LOL.... ok, that's a little...unusual. But good for you for knowing what works for you, that is certainly a readily available commodity at a hospital to help you with labor!!! What did your doctor's think? Did they just order up a pile, ready to smother you? Too funny!
@stalkinghorse I just needed one towel ;p. I draped it over the yoga ball and put my face in it when a bad contraction came. It helped me to breathe when normally I would have held my breath (have to breathe to sniff!). I highly recommend finding a smell you really like, and having it present during labor. I actually did bring a DoTerra oil that I really liked before pregnancy, but I ended up detesting it while I was in labor.
Re: PGAL check in 8/28
Any appointments coming up? I had my last beta today and it came back at 3,341! It was 201 last Monday, so it more than doubled! They scheduled me for my first u/s next Tuesday, the 5th. I just hope the time goes quickly.
Questions? I don't think I have any questions today.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I am doing okay. I had myself convinced yesterday that my beta wouldn't come back good today and was pretty upset. And now I just feel relieved that it did come back okay! I hate going from one minute feeling good and the next minute worrying something will still go wrong. I had my loss at 5 + 3 last time, so am anxious about getting past that date.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I really hate cleaning the bathroom. I just don't want to do it.
How far along are you?
around 7-8 weeks. It's pretty frustrating that I haven't been able to get a dating US yet.
Any appointments coming up?
Friday!!! 4 days!
Questions?
I went for my first beta draw on Fri (39924) and second this morning (49359). I know they stop doubling at some point, but does anyone know whether these are good numbers for 7-8 weeks? My OB will call tomorrow to go over these results but I am too anxious to wait til then!
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
With every tiny cramp I am still running to the bathroom to check for bleeding. Feeling a little more hopeful, but not much.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work.
I cannot stand putting the laundry away... which is why it stays piled up on the guest bed for weeks at a time.
How far along are you? 6 weeks, 3 days
Any appointments coming up? September 12th just can't come fast enough.
Questions? None today.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I am really vacillating between being just so anxious to allowing myself to be excited. We told my SIL and her husband while visiting them in Telluride this weekend. That felt pretty scary. But we had fun making up all sorts of outrageous demands "the baby wants" so we ended up laughing a lot, which felt good. But also dangerous. Does that make sense? I don't know.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Filing expense reports at work... I call them TPS reports and watch an Office Space snippet to make it less loathsome.
@ashnbubs those are solid numbers for 7 weeks (range is from 7,659-229k). Unfortunately doubling is supposed to happen up through 14 weeks .
@ashnbubs I agree with @sunshinedays-2. It may be that your numbers are so high that the doubling is taking longer. Please don't worry. If you lurk other BMBs (like March) there are some ladies whose betas were steadily increasing around that range, but not doubling, and who are still pregnant. Don't fixate on the not doubling being a sign that you should worry. Let us know what your OB says!
@stalkinghorse Good for you for celebrating this pregnancy and laughing a little! I understand the trepidation about letting yourself go there though. I told my dad and BFF this week. It was scary to say it out loud to them, but it's nice to share some happiness too. We are pregnant today and that is worth celebrating and being happy about in the company of those you love.
How far along are you?
5+3
Any appointments coming up?
Still white knuckling it until 9/13
Questions?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
I'm feeling more positive! I have finally let go of peeing on wondfos and temping. The nausea and sore boobs have really amped up the past few days and I am weirdly happy to be feeling so shitty!
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work.
Laundry. So much laundry.
8w2d
Any appointments coming up?
Not this week
Questions?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Doing ok. The b6 and unisom is definitely helping a good bit. I've decided to see how one more week goes now that school's back and I'm getting into my routine. Today my major issue was dizziness.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work.
Probably washing dishes
5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz
9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC
3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w
7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC
9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
Any appointments coming up? First ultrasound in 8 more days!
Questions?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Physically, just lots of burping, some waves of nausea every day, and a general "out of it" feeling--very hard to get work done. Emotionally, doing pretty well. I just passed the length of my last pregnancy (m/c at 5w1d), which feels like a kind of milestone. But I also started vaginal progesterone, and all the extra discharge makes me feel like I'm bleeding, which sends me running to the bathroom to check. : /
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Definitely putting laundry away! I don't mind washing it, but then I would sooner just dump it in a pile on the floor and pick outfits out of it every day than hang things up or fold them. It's the same with unpacking after a trip. No idea why!
5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz
9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC
3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w
7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC
9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
Any appointments coming up? My possibly last RE appointment (ultrasound) is on Friday. I'm nervous to "graduate"!
Questions? Are crazy vivid dreams a thing that happens? I've been having bad dreams, verging on nightmares, and it's exhausting.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm okay. Like someone else said, trying to balance the fear/anxiety and letting myself be excited. One of said vivid dreams was about *TW losing this pregnancy, and I woke up just devastated. Even though up until now everything has been perfect with this pregnancy.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I hate putting away clean clothes and scrubbing the bathtub.
5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz
9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC
3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w
7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC
9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
7 weeks 4 days.
Any appointments coming up?
Ultrasound on Wednesday! I'm kind of nervous about this, since my mom mentioned we might be able to hear baby's heartbeat. That didn't even occur to me! It just seems so weird to have another heartbeat inside of me!
Questions?
I'm sure I have many, but my brain can't think of any right now.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Honestly, I am really, really struggling with this pregnancy. It was unplanned and unexpected, and came at a pretty stressful time of transition for my husband and me. We've only been married a year, we just moved 3 states away from my parents, DH just got his first high school teaching job, I'm smack in the middle of opening a small business, and we live in a run-down apartment that I specifically told my husband I did NOT want to have kids in. When I got the BFP, I felt no joy (for other reasons too, like the danger of an IUD pregnancy). The only time I've smiled as a result of this pregnancy was when I told my mom, and that was mostly muscle reaction. I'm trying to be happy. I feel like I should be happy. I want to be happy. But I'm just not.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work.
Cleaning grody dishes. We used to have a dishwasher, but don't in our new apartment and washing dishes by hand just grosses me the hell out.
Any appointments coming up? Just had one today and it went really well! *Happy dance*
Questions? Nope
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) We announced to my in-laws tonight, and they were very supportive. I was glad that my hubby didn't do it on speaker phone, because I don't know if I could have handled my jerkoff FIL saying something nasty about me being pregnant "again". I still hate sharing the info, but it's over with
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I loathe vacuuming. I swear to God that the stupid thing fights me the whole time, and the cord is possessed by Satan. Evil vile machine.
@kbamomma33 I finally gave up and stopped peeing on Wondfos too! It's so hard to let go of it! In a weird way, I feel like it makes me feel like I have control over the situation, even though I don't!
@stalkinghorse That's good that you were at least able to relax enough to have a little fun with being pregnant :-)
@mdwiny I started progesterone too. I hate that mine is pink, so when it comes back out it looks like spotting. Like really? Why did they make it that color??
@ngolimento Congrats again on a great appt!
5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz
9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC
3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w
7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC
9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
How far along are you? 8w4d
Any appointments coming up? U/S tomorrow, finally!
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm feeling much better than I did in weeks 6 and 7 - my desire for food has returned and I can eat semi-normally now. I'm still getting an upset stomach for at least part of the day each day, but not nearly as bad. The best thing really is being able to eat vegetables and other healthy foods though.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. I hate cutting/hauling/stacking firewood. It's always hot when you do it, so you wind up sweaty, dusty, itchy and scratched up, and there's always the possibility of rattlesnakes or scorpions to make it even less pleasant. Yuck.
Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013
Started TTC August 2016
BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17
BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17
BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18
BFP: 2/27/20
@stalkinghorse I can relate to that roller-coaster... every day I flip flop from there's something wrong to omg we're having a baby... I'm hoping after my first U/S I will have some sort of relief
@mdwiny im guilty of not unpacking and letting my bags sit against the wall for like... up to a few weeks. Its such a pain!!!
@vannesmarshall sorry you're struggling with this pregnancy- you will come around to it, but don't beat yourself up for not being ecstatic... I think people who 100% intentionally got pregnant have second thoughts once "the deed is done." I'm still a little shocked that I'm actually, really, pregnant, and we were not trying not preventing... I can't imagine what my thoughts would be, having it happen while on B.C while you were in the midst of turning a brand new page in life!
How far along are you?
8+2!
Any appointments coming up?
Today! Today is my formal intake appt and was supposed to be my 1st ultrasound. However, because I got called in a week and a half ago for a viability ultrasound due to my numbers it will be my second look! So excited to see that little bean again.
Questions?
Is anyone having trouble drinking plain water? I've been surviving off of Gatorade and vitamin water and the sugary stuff is killing me (I never drank it prior to this pregnancy). Any recommendations for unsweetened drinks that might go down easy?
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
This is a hard one for me. I've passed my loss milestones but I haven't actually passed when I had my MMC (stopped growing at 6+2 didn't miscarry until almost 10w) and I feel like I'm trying to white knuckle it through the anxiety. I feel like I need to be positive so I'm slapping a smile sticker on everything but if I'm honest there are some dark moments. Thankful for an US today.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work.
Mopping!! Hate it! Love the way it clean floors feel afterwards though...
@ashnbubs If it makes you feel any better, I am only juat now getting my dating U/S at 8w5d. Also, I hate putting away laundry too
@stalkinghorse Your feelings definitely sound familiar to me. I said something about being worried the other day to MH and he responded "That's why we shouldn't get too invested/excited." The idea if getting hurt again is so scary. Also, LOL, TPS reports
@kbamomma33 I hope the next two weeks fly by!
@allowachick I'm sorry you've been feeling so bad.... dizziness just seems like adding insult to injury. Yuck.
@mdwiny Passing milestones is great! And, I am also terrible at unpacking from a trip.
@mstoddart Sorry about the nightmare - hopefully Friday's U/S will be reassuring.
@vannesmarshall Be gentle with yourself. Your situation sounds really stressful, so give it some time to sink in. My pregnancy was very much wanted, but I have had lots of moments when I am pretty sure I'm crazy for wanting/choosing it. It's scary, and all the more so for you with the dangers of the IUD pregnancy. Good luck, and remember, we're cheering you on too!
@sunshinedays-2 Yay for an U/S today! I hope it can give you a little peace of mind
Edit: forgot some words.
Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013
Started TTC August 2016
BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17
BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17
BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18
BFP: 2/27/20
5+2
Any appointments coming up?
A week from today is my first and an ultrasound a couple days after that. Can't. Wait.
Questions?
No
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Passed my previous loss date. Still won't fully relax till i see that baby though. I am having more symptoms now which makes me feel better though!
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Giving the dog a bath. She hates it. I hate it. But since she weights 60 pounds and fights it big time, dh usually takes over that chore when I'm pregnant. Thank goodness!
I am 5 1/2 weeks.
My first appointment isn't until 5 more weeks,Oct 3.
How am I? Relatively calm. I am checking for spotting less and less each day. My miscarriage happened around 8 weeks but I had begun spotting around 7.
I called to schedule my appointment yesterday and was told that my new insurance doesn't automatically cover a dating ultrasound but have a feeling I can talk them into something due to my dd genetic condition.
I hate to take out the trash. I actually really like cleaning the bathroom, I find it satisfying.
7w 4d
Any appointments coming up?
September 1. This Friday!!! I think I am only seeing the nurse, bit still have some anxiety.
Questions?
None for now.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
I feel terrible. I am nauseous ALL the time. The only food I can seem to stomach right now is smoothies. I am so conflicted. I want the nausea to go away because I literally can't focus on anything. At the same time I want it to stick around because it is reassuring me that I am still pregnant.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work.
Dishes. I hate them. Give me laundry all day every day bit no dishes!
@sunshinedays-2 I agree about the plain water. I've been adding lemon, or drinking seltzer has been ok for me too
5/2018 -- DS born 3 days after due date, 8lb 4oz
9/2020 -- missed miscarriage at 9w / DNC
3/2021 -- miscarriage at 8w
7/2021 -- missed miscarriage at 8w / DNC
9/2021 -- IVF cycle #1 (FET 1/25/22)
@ashnbubs my RE told me once your numbers hit 1000 your doubling time increases and your numbers won't necessarily double within the 48-72 hour range.
@stalkinghorse I know exactly where you're coming from. It's so hard to be excited when you're just nervous all the time. Hopefully once we all get to the second trimester we can actually enjoy it.
@kbamomma33 nothing weird with being happy about feeling shitty. I understand it completely.
@mdwiny you will get use to the progesterone discharge. It's gross but after awhile you can tell that's what it is.
@ngolimento I'm sorry your FIL is like that.
How far along are you? 9+2 I think. I know it's within a day but I can't remember.
Any appointments coming up? I have one with my OB next Tuesday. The nurse said we would listen to the heartbeat but I didn't think the Doppler would work at 10 weeks.
Questions? Nope.
How are you doing? (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I'm just waiting for the moment that I feel 'relaxed' and can actually enjoy this without worrying about everything. I'm not sure if that will ever happen but I'm hoping it does.
GTKY: What is your absolutely most hated chore? Can be from around the house, or from work. Cleaning the toilet. But right now cleaning anything. The smell from cleaning supplies make me feel awful. Even though most of the time I make DH do it because I don't want to breath in the fumes. I usually use mrs meyers but everything couple of days the kitchen needs a good cleaning or if I cook with meat I make sure to clean up good. (well I make DH clean up good)
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