August WTO

silvergreen

Got another strong positive OPK around midnight and a slightly more faint one this morning. Will be marking today as my O day, I guess! No BD last night, but might try to get some in tonight just in case.

vlagrl29

@justsuzie well I would have but we bought a puppy last night.  So probably BD tonight.

vlagrl29

was in the bathroom today and pulled my underwear down and told DH it's on tonight - still got the good stuff lol.

leahcimmichael

Got a super dark line on my OPK last night. Attacked DH like
 

Now hoping for a temp spike tomorrow to confirm O. 

MooFish2364

@leahcimmichael I literally just lol'd at work. Haha

Mack2342

I just lol out loud too @leahcimmichael and DH was like what's so funny.  

weareturtles

CD1.

vlagrl29

sorry @weareturtles

Mack2342

Ugh @weareturtles. I'm sorry.  Mine should arrive on Tuesday 

leahcimmichael

@weareturtles So sorry. CD1 is the worst. Be kind to yourself today. 

robyn2201

I'm CD10 and FF is predicting my fertile days are this coming Thur (CD16) thru next Sat, which I hope turns out to be wrong because DH leaves for a work trip Thur.   I don't temp anymore or use opk's so FF is just basing this on cycle length. But the two cycles before I got pregnant (that resulted in the m/c) had gotten shorter and were only 28 days. Hoping we can have sex every other night between now and when he leaves and just make sure we have sex Thur morning. Not feeling very hopeful though about this cycle though. 

shri929

CD 1... discouraging and exciting all at the same time. 

Mack2342

CD1 for me too. 

jchpg

Well I'm officially here now too. CD1. AF come a day late and tricked me a bit. I had spotting (which I usually don't a day before expected AF then it stopped and AF didn't start as expected yesterday. I had my hopes up there could have been a chance....but no. She's here just a day late. Ugh. 

Mack2342

Sorry @jchpg

Mack2342

So has anyone had follicles that remained from previous cycle? And if so was AF heavier the next cycle?   I had heavy bleeding first day then yesterday it slowed down and was more brownish today I woke up to heavy bright red flow again.  This is not normal for me and wondering if it due to left over follicles last cycle 

robyn2201

I'm still over here and on CD19. DH has been out of town since Thur and comes home tomorrow. Still showing signs that I haven't O'd yet. At this point I'm just hoping my body waits till he gets home and we can at least have some chance this cycle. 

weareturtles

@Mack2342 - I have no idea, but I'm right there with you with a very strange AF this cycle. Two days if very light flow followed by 5 days of brown/gray spotting, which bordered on light flow at times. Super weird.

@robyn2201 - FX you don't O before DH gets home!!!

Mack2342

@weareturtles sorry for the weird AF I think it makes this whole process I bit harder.  Hopefully it's not a big deal that our cycles are strange.  FX for you! 

Mack2342

Yesterday DH was acting different and he finally said he is scared about continuing TTC.  He said he doesn't want to stop but that he is concerned. He said what if we can't have another baby or what if MC again will that break you mentally and if you do get pregnant he said he's worried about my health because I'm in constant pain now with arthritis in my hip.  I told him I've already come to terms with the fact that we may not have another and continuing to try means a chance for MC. Doesn't mean that I won't be upset by either but I'm starting to accept things.  As far as my hip goes I said it could get worse but either way I have to have my hip replaced in near future.  I asked him what he wants to do and he said he wants to keep trying.  I told him that I want to do these rounds of IUI and the. Re-evaluate because if they don't work I don't know that I can keep trying   He said that's fair. We were both in tears but his biggest fear is losing me somehow mentally or physically.  

leahcimmichael

@Mack2342 I was tearing up reading this. I love that you two had an honest conversation about how scary and heartbreaking this whole process is. *hugs*

Mack2342

@leahcimmichael thanks lady!  A conversation that needed to happen.  This process is scary and heartbreaking.  A few months ago the thought of not trying was heartbreaking but now I know that we can be a happy family of 3.  While I'm not there completely, I do see an end to my TTC days.  

vlagrl29

I'm sorry @Mack2342 - I totally get that what you and your DH discussed.  DH and I had the discussion last week about how far we would take it.  DH is willing to take it further than I want to.  I see myself accepting way before he does.  I hope you have success in the near future with a BFP.  I had already told DH if we had another loss I would be done.  It's just too much mentally for me and I see that now that I"m on the good side mentally speaking.

Mack2342

@vlagrl29 we would be done too if another loss.    It is too much 

sprkls8506

@Mack2342 these conversations are so hard to have. The whole process is so exhausting and draining! Sad that anyone has to have these conversations but glad you got it all out. 

silvergreen

CD1. AF showed up earlier than expected. Silver lining is that I might actually get some good BD days in before DH leaves for Japan in September!

Mack2342

@silvergreen that's awesome.  Get some good BD in before he leaves.  Always have to look for the bright side in this situation