Oh @adirat I am so sorry. I hope that you at least have the peace of mind knowing you tried and did everything you could. I'll be thinking of you this week.
@adirat Oh no, I'm so sorry. When will it be? Did your period not clear out enough?
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
@madspunk I had like three glasses of wine and had a hangover like I drank a bottle of tequila the next day. I even threw up which is something I never do.
@adirat Sorry to hear you have to go through it again! I hope this gets you through this horrible place you have been stuck in and are able to move on finally to a new plan.
Noooo @adirat I am so sorry!!! So many hugs to you.
TTC History
Me: 35 DH: 34 Married 07/2012 DD born 07/2014 DD2 born 10/2018 DS born 10/2022
IF history: TTC #2 since January 2016 June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018 FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@Redpuma119 I'm so sorry for the bad news. Love and hugs to you.
@adirat Damn. So much love to you, that is absolutely shit. It's just insult on top of injury and is not fair.
@TravelingCouple Hugs girl. I hope there is alcohol at this baby shower... my sister and bff are also fertile Mertyls.
AFM. *TW - Speaking of fertile friends and family, my sister and bff, who are both pregnant. Again. At the same time. Again. Are both having boys. Again. And now, I get to ship back all of the boy baby clothes that have been hanging out in our spare bedroom closet for the last 18+ months. Bff mailed them up for my sister (their boys are 3 months apart) and told her to give them to me when nephew outgrew them because *obviously* I was going to be the next one ktfu.....ha. Uuugghhhh. - end TW*
On the other hand, H seems to have slipped out of his slump and is back on track taking all of his vitamins and just generally getting his TTC ish together, so that's an improvement. He's not super chatty about it, but I can imagine how hard all of this bs is on him.
@adirat Wow. I really thought you were out of the woods with AF. That's so awful. I'm really sorry. I hope it goes by fast so you can move the hell on.
@adirat that is just the pickle on a shit sandwich. I am so sorry. All good thoughts heading your way. @TravelingCouple I hope today went as painless as possible. @Redpuma119 so many hugs
Me: 32, DH: 31 Together: 11/2008, married: 3/2014 DH: Type 1 Diabetes, (dx 4/15) Celiac Disease (dx 11/14), Treatment induced Neuropathy of Diabetes (dx 7/15) DH SA: 11/16: low count and low motility DH SA: 12/16: borderline low, count and motility 1/20/17: BFP, 1/24/17: CP 5/17:low AMH (0.89) 6/17: first IUI cycle, 50 mg clomid + ovidrel + IUI: 2 follies, BFN (count 58 million, 97% motility) 7/17: second IUI, 2.5 letrozole, OPK, IUI: 1 follie, BFN (count 9.5 million swimming- dont know percentage) 8/17: third IUI, 5.0 letrozole,
I lost my grandmother today unexpectedly. Some sage advice: spend time with those people you love even if it is inconvenient and regardless of what you are going through.
@adirat Well, fuck. I'm so sorry. So many hugs to you. This whole situation is bullshit, and I hate that you're having to endure it.
@travelingcouple and @zwink1 Ugh. I'm in that shitty boat with you. My sister just had her third (by accident, natch), and my SIL is KU, after 1 motherfucking month of trying. Both boys. I'm trying so hard to concentrate on soaking up the pregnancy vibes, and remember that they didn't take the last pregnancies on Earth or something…but it's damn hard. Struggling when everyone else seems not to drains you. Drink all the wine and shout at the universe…I'll be right next to you. Hugs all around.
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Me: 35 DH: 34 Married 07/2012 DD born 07/2014 DD2 born 10/2018 DS born 10/2022
IF history: TTC #2 since January 2016 June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018 FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@zwink1 ugh I'm so sorry. I'm with you friend @adirat I am so so sorry. I wish you could just move on and actually be able to grieve without having to pour so much salt on the wound. So much love to you. @saralee797-2 I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs
Thank you so much everyone for all of your kind encouragement and thoughts. Today went ok and now it's done. I took a few breaks and sat alone throughout the day which was helpful. No one said anything cringe worthy so that was a relief. My period didn't even show. Just when my brain had me convinced I was pregnant, some light brown spotting showed up. But no full blown AF yet. Glad it waited and now I'm ready for it to show so we can move on to next cycle and IUI.
Oh @saralee797-2 Grandparents are so special. I'm very sorry. Hugs to you.
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@saralee797-2. Oh dear, I am so sorry for your loss... it is so true - if we don't make time to spend time with the ones we love now, the chance could be gone in an instant. Life is so fragile and precious :'(
@saralee797-2 *hugs* I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandmother. I had really similar feelings when I lost mine as well. It took a while before I could stop dwelling on all of my regret for not taking more opportunities to call her, send her an email or a card... etc. I'm sending you lots of love and hope you can find some peace.
We only had one embryo make it to blast/freeze today. There are 6 others that they are hoping will develop to a blast by giving them more time. But I don't have my hopes up for that.
It was biopsied before freeze for PGS.
I am so scared it won't be normal. I'm so scared we won't even get to try a transfer. I'm so upset.
20 eggs, 17 fertilized... and just one blast.
This makes me think we could have been getting embryos this whole time... but that they aren't viable.
Please please please send your prayers/thoughts to my one embryo that it is normal.
Oh @antoto I'm sure that is extremely disappointing, to say the least. I know you were expecting more, we all were for you!! But I am praying that 1 is your take home baby that implants its little self so deep and remains there stubbornly.
I am curious, I understand the process up until the blast/freeze point of IVF. Why do they need to freeze the emrybos? And what happens between fertilization and freezing?
@TravelingCouple because we are doing genetic testing on the embryo (PGS) we won't be transferring anything (if we get anything... that is) until July. You can't leave an embryo just hanging out for that long (it would die). If someone isn't doing PGS and they want to do what's called a fresh transfer then they would have skipped the freeze and then would be transferring the embryo today.
Ohh ok I totally misunderstood and completely understand the reason why you're so upset. I thought the 1 was definitely being transferred. Ugh, girl I'm so sorry. I really hope all the testing comes back normal and you end up with more than one. Rooting for your little embryos so so much. @antoto
@antoto I completely understand how scared you are. It's terrifying. If you remember, my story was similar. Don't give up hope just yet! On day 5 I didn't have any make it to blast but they were both ready by day 6 and I ended up with my two. Starting off with that many eggs is a complete mind f. I'm sending you and your embryos lots of prayers.
@antoto You could absolutely have that embryo be normal! And those others can catch up. Try not to lose hope. @saralee797-2 is right, high numbers are a mindfuck, but it only takes one. I'm crossing everything for your embryos to get where they need to be and come out normal! Keep us posted.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
@antoto sending all my positive vibes your way, friend!! I know you must be incredibly frustrated at this point, but give it a few more days and I hope you are surprised by the results.
Me: 31 DH: 32 Dating since: 11/17/2001 Married: 9/26/2009 TTC: June 2016
@antoto sending you all the good test results vibes for the one frozen blast, and continued maturity for the other 6. None of the 7 are out yet! Hang in there!
Thanks everyone. I am so depressed about the loss all over again now. I also made the stupid mistake of looking up reasons why my uterus didn't go back to normal after the d&e and learned about Asherman's Syndrome and freaked myself out. Last night DH and I watched some old episodes of House to try and feel better...like at least I don't have any of those crazy diseases (probably).
@travelingcouple I'm glad you made it through the shower and out the other side. Big hugs friend.
@antoto That sucks. I'm so sorry. I hope the remaining embryo is a fighter! Sending you hugs and good vibes for a strong embryo.
I imagine it's too soon to be thinking about reasons, but when you check in with your RE, I hope you can get some explanations as to what happened. Was it a protocol problem that could be fixed somehow? Egg or sperm quality issue? Might one of you have a microdeletion or translocation that is causing embryos to arrest? I hope there's a way to move forward (if you choose to).
Re: IF/Testing Weekly Check-in 6/5
This gif is me every day recently:
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
You too @TravelingCouple
@adirat Nooooooooo!! So sorry girl. We are thinking about you.
@adirat oh my goodness, how much more can one sweet girl take? I'm so sorry to hear this. sending love from afar.
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
@saralee797-2 I'm sure you've figured out by now how tiny 10 units is
@adirat, I'm so sorry. No one should have to keep suffering the way you are. FX this is the end of it for you so you can move on.
Me: 30 | DH: 31
Met: August 2006
Married: July 2012
TTC #1 since June 2016
***TW***
BFP: 7/12/16 | MC: 9/12/16
BFP: 1/18/17 | MMC: 2/13/17
BFP: 10/7/17 | EDD: 6/21/17
MTHFR: homozygous A1298C
@madspunk thank you. And I'll definitely let you guys know how the call goes on Monday.
@saralee797-2 and @laurad75 all the cheers to you. I've had quite a few drinks the last few nights.
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@adirat Damn. So much love to you, that is absolutely shit. It's just insult on top of injury and is not fair.
@TravelingCouple Hugs girl. I hope there is alcohol at this baby shower... my sister and bff are also fertile Mertyls.
AFM. *TW - Speaking of fertile friends and family, my sister and bff, who are both pregnant. Again. At the same time. Again. Are both having boys. Again. And now, I get to ship back all of the boy baby clothes that have been hanging out in our spare bedroom closet for the last 18+ months. Bff mailed them up for my sister (their boys are 3 months apart) and told her to give them to me when nephew outgrew them because *obviously* I was going to be the next one ktfu.....ha. Uuugghhhh. - end TW*
On the other hand, H seems to have slipped out of his slump and is back on track taking all of his vitamins and just generally getting his TTC ish together, so that's an improvement. He's not super chatty about it, but I can imagine how hard all of this bs is on him.
@TravelingCouple I hope today went as painless as possible.
@Redpuma119 so many hugs
Together: 11/2008, married: 3/2014
DH: Type 1 Diabetes, (dx 4/15) Celiac Disease (dx 11/14), Treatment induced Neuropathy of Diabetes (dx 7/15)
DH SA: 11/16: low count and low motility
DH SA: 12/16: borderline low, count and motility
1/20/17: BFP, 1/24/17: CP
5/17:low AMH (0.89)
6/17: first IUI cycle, 50 mg clomid + ovidrel + IUI: 2 follies, BFN (count 58 million, 97% motility)
7/17: second IUI, 2.5 letrozole, OPK, IUI: 1 follie, BFN (count 9.5 million swimming- dont know percentage)
8/17: third IUI, 5.0 letrozole,
I lost my grandmother today unexpectedly. Some
sage advice: spend time with those people you love even if it is inconvenient and regardless of what you are going through.
@travelingcouple and @zwink1 Ugh. I'm in that shitty boat with you. My sister just had her third (by accident, natch), and my SIL is KU, after 1 motherfucking month of trying. Both boys. I'm trying so hard to concentrate on soaking up the pregnancy vibes, and remember that they didn't take the last pregnancies on Earth or something…but it's damn hard. Struggling when everyone else seems not to drains you. Drink all the wine and shout at the universe…I'll be right next to you. Hugs all around.
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
@adirat I am so so sorry. I wish you could just move on and actually be able to grieve without having to pour so much salt on the wound. So much love to you.
@saralee797-2 I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs
Thank you so much everyone for all of your kind encouragement and thoughts. Today went ok and now it's done. I took a few breaks and sat alone throughout the day which was helpful. No one said anything cringe worthy so that was a relief. My period didn't even show. Just when my brain had me convinced I was pregnant, some light brown spotting showed up. But no full blown AF yet. Glad it waited and now I'm ready for it to show so we can move on to next cycle and IUI.
ETA missed a previous post
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@saralee797-2 I'm so sorry for your loss.
@TravelingCouple I'm glad the timing wasn't "as bad" in the end.
It was biopsied before freeze for PGS.
I am so scared it won't be normal. I'm so scared we won't even get to try a transfer. I'm so upset.
20 eggs, 17 fertilized... and just one blast.
This makes me think we could have been getting embryos this whole time... but that they aren't viable.
Please please please send your prayers/thoughts to my one embryo that it is normal.
I am curious, I understand the process up until the blast/freeze point of IVF. Why do they need to freeze the emrybos? And what happens between fertilization and freezing?
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
Dating since: 11/17/2001
Married: 9/26/2009
TTC: June 2016
EDD: 5/14/2018
@travelingcouple I'm glad you made it through the shower and out the other side. Big hugs friend.
@antoto That sucks. I'm so sorry. I hope the remaining embryo is a fighter! Sending you hugs and good vibes for a strong embryo.
I imagine it's too soon to be thinking about reasons, but when you check in with your RE, I hope you can get some explanations as to what happened. Was it a protocol problem that could be fixed somehow? Egg or sperm quality issue? Might one of you have a microdeletion or translocation that is causing embryos to arrest? I hope there's a way to move forward (if you choose to).