PGAL Check in 4/19

rainbowdashh

@justsuzie a heartbeat is a good thing! I hope your next US shows even more progression.

rainbowwishes5

@justsuzie can you get bloodwork in the meantime to check hcg levels??

peachy13

@justsuzie progression is good and yay for the heartbeat! Try not to stress out too much from now until next week. Pick up a book that you love and dive right into it for a good distraction. Fingers crossed for you!!

justsuzie

Thanks ladies. I'm going to try and relax. I'm positive of O so now it's just a waiting game.  Hoping for the best. 

beaandthebabes

Yay heartbeat @justsuzie!!! 

grochril

@justsuzie that's great that you heard a heartbeat!  Last time it was just the yolk sac right?  Try not to fret, I know easier said than done, but we are all keeping FX for you!! 

justsuzie

Yes @grochril there was only a yolk sac last time.  The heartbeat was low and it looked like just the beginning of an embryo. No distinct head or appendages yet.  I am hoping that someone I just had a later fertilization/ implantation. I was temping so I know my O date was dead on. 

pandawares

I had the faintest bit of spotting two days ago and a bit today after a BM. I reached out to the nurse I'll be seeing at my first appointment on 5/4, and she asked me to come in tomorrow for a beta draw. I had an outstanding order from my last cycle that I never used, so I walked over (my PCP works a block away from me) and had it done then. Will get the numbers in the morning.

jljeanblanc

@pandawares thinking good thoughts for you! 

justsuzie

@peachy13 Thank you. 

cenzosmomma

@justsuzie stay busy! I understand what you're going through!

@pandawares fx for good news tomorrow

pandawares

@justsuzie I hear a heartbeat is a very good thing! I second reading. It's a great distraction!

Thanks for the well wishes! I haven't had any more spotting today, even when TMI I had another BM. /TMI Lol.

It already feels like there's a basketball sitting on top of my bladder, ugh!

Amber_Waves

1. Tell us about yourself (if you're first participating): 
I'm 39, DH is 35.  This is our second pregnancy.  **TW** 1st pregnancy ended in October 2016, at 21 weeks due to full Trisomy 18 (detected at the 20 week US). **/TW**  We conceived first time through IUI, naturally this time.  So, I'm PGAL, PGAI, and AMA.  Zoinks!

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms): 

I'm okay.  Some nausea, some fatigue, a little soreness in my left boob.

3. EDD? How far along are you? 
12/16, 5w+6.  That's based on my last period.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise): 

I'm doing pretty well.  I know I just have to hang in there and stay calm and see what happens. I have a song I sing to myself when I get tense.  

5. When is your next appointment? 
Our first doctor's appointment isn't until May 16th.  This is so different from last time around, when I had blood tests and ultrasounds throughout the 1st trimester at the infertility clinic.  But, I also think it's helpful to me, anxiety wise, because last time the constant checking of this and that made me think about all the things that could be wrong. 

6. Rants/raves/whatever:
My MIL is desperate for a new grandbaby and was very dramatic about our loss; I know it hit her hard, but it also felt like she was making things about her and making me take care of her when I needed to care for myself and my husband. A couple of months after our loss,  MIL was diagnosed with stage 3 ovarian cancer, she has had radical surgery, and is in the middle of 18 weeks of chemo.  Because of this, we see her at least once a week (twice if I/we take her to chemo).  Previously, we'd see her about once a month.  I'm happy to see her and be a help, as she's a super lady and she's family, BUT I HATE that she watches what I eat and drink like a hawk.  I need her to mind her own business, we'll tell her if and when we're ready. "No cocktails tonight?"  "I thought the sushi here was your favorite?"  Ugh. Back. Off.

7. GTKY: Guilty Pleasure?
A computer game called Stardew Valley.  Buy it on Steam.  Start your farm.  Date some villagers.  Go fishing.  Mine for ore.  Learn to cook.  Befriend a wizard.  Endlessly fun and distracting.

pandawares

My beta came back as 18,967.4!

rainbowwishes5

Great @pandawares! But, can you remind us- how far along are you?

rainbowwishes5

Got to see my bean today at 5+3. No heartbeat. Just a yolk sac.

They didn't want me to come back until May 2 and I'm like no way! I need at least a fifth beta before then!!!

pandawares

@rainbowwishes5 5+4 by O, 7+1 by LMP

rainbowwishes5

Wow @pandawares!!! You have triplet numbers!

pandawares

@rainbowwishes5 You know, I asked DS (who is two) if he thought Mama was going to have one baby or two babies. He whispered "three babies ... three babies ... three babies ..."

pandawares

@rainbowwishes5 I've been trying to find a reputable source for standard HCG ranges. What do you use?

rainbowwishes5

@pandawares beta base!

pandawares

Thanks! @rainbowwishes5

justsuzie

@rainbowwishes5 I wouldn't worry.  If they didn't seem concerned, you shouldn't either!  

justsuzie

@Amber_Waves Sorry about MIL.  Sometimes people think everything is about them!  

justsuzie

Just wanted to thank you ladies for be interactive and supportive.  It seems like on the other threads there is no back and forth conversation so I've been pretty absent in most of them.  Don't get me wrong, there are a bunch of ladies that respond to others but soooo many that just post about themselves and don't respond to anyone.  Just thankful to have you all. 

pandawares

@justsuzie We're thankful to have you, too!

Tennis11785

We're thankful to have you too @justsuzie!!  

wabash15

@justsuzie fx for your check up this week and that your little bean keeps progressing. 

flowerpower5838

How's everyone doing after the weekend? Is time making it easier or harder for you guys?

rainbowwishes5

@justsuzie yes!!! @flowerpower5838 so much harder!

justsuzie

So much harder

lavashiner

@flowerpower5838 I think it's slightly easier for me... Also I was so busy this weekend or was impossible to obsess and linger in my PGAL brain. 

How about you?

NME44

Easier for me, as I finally feel like I'm an actual amount pregnant (6 weeks today...found out at 27 days, SO EARLY.)

I was also right that the weekend with my family helped those days to go more quickly.

rainbowwishes5

@NME44 I feel like I need to permanently travel until 6 months. PGAL brain is brutal. I feel anxious at all times. And this makes it more likely I'll lose it so that just feels the feeling.  

pandawares

The PGAL brain is strong today. I wish I could just read all day.

flowerpower5838

@pandawares Hugs. I know it's not a cure all or a guarantee but I wish I could just close my eyes and wish the first tri away. 

@rainbowwishes5 @justsuzie hugs to you ladies, too. I've found that like @lavashiner the busier I keep myself the easier it is to control my thoughts.

AFM, I had my first u/s today and there was a heartbeat. Just barely there but we saw it. The tech didn't really have much to say except that she expects I'm a day or two earlier than my guess of EDD (based on conception date since I haven't had much sex or a period since MC last month) so I must have implanted a day or two late. I'll know more when my OB calls me tomorrow about the results.

It's early and I know that anything could happen but I feel good in this moment so I'm just going to bask in that for a bit before PGAL brain inevitably takes over until my last loss milestone (8 weeks) hits. 

justsuzie

@flowerpower5838 Keep feeling good! Congrats on a great US.

rainbowwishes5

That's great @flowerpower5838!