This is terrible, but I am having the worst cravings.... for a cigarette. Back in my "wild youth" (aka college and grad school) I was a social smoker, never more than 4-5 cigarettes (not packs, individual cigarettes) a week, but I haven't had one in years. And now I see people smoking and my mouth starts watering. WTF pregnancy. Here I thought I would be craving booze and had the opposite happen-- the idea of a drink makes me feel sick-- but CIGARETTES? You crazy, body.
@zetega I had a dram about smoking the other day, and in the dream I loved smoking so much, and I woke up with a craving...I've smoked maaaaybe 8 cigarettes my whole life. Maybe. Also, I smelled DHs beer at dinner the other day, and my mouth started watering. I hate beer.
My confession: I don't really like Amy Schemer or Lena Dunham. I don't think Amy is funny, she's tacky and annoying. Her Old Navy commercials make me want to pull out my eyelashes. I used to like Lena, because Girls can be good show, but then I read her book. The tone deaf privilege just oozed out of it's pages, and now I see it in almost everything she does.
It bugs me when people say, "St. Patty's Day". That's actually saying Patricia, not Patrick. The Irish nickname for Patrick is Paddy so really it should be, "St. Paddy's Day." Please don't flame me for being the nickname police!
@becky012016 omg I never knew patty was only short for Patricia and paddy was the proper irish short term for Patrick! My whole life I've been burning in rage whenever I've seen paddy because I think paTrick, not paddywhack!
says the gaelic version of Patrick is actually spelled with a d anyways.
TTGP history (*TW*):
Started TTC Oct 2015 BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016 Re-started TTC Aug 2016 Started IF testing Nov 2016 Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017 BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
FFFC: our plus size check in makes me a little sad every week, so much so that I haven't been able to participate. I want to build relationships and commiserate, but I can't let my obesity to be the main focus of my pregnancy. It feels like there's such a strong focus on scale/food shame. And I already struggle to be body-positive.
FFFC: our plus size check in makes me a little sad every week, so much so that I haven't been able to participate. I want to build relationships and commiserate, but I can't let my obesity to be the main focus of my pregnancy. It feels like there's such a strong focus on scale/food shame. And I already struggle to be body-positive.
If it makes you sad or discouraged instead of uplifted and encouraged, then why not skip it for a few weeks. Just hang out with everyone else on the rest of the threads, get to know the ladies a little bit better, and if you start feeling better about it, then go back to the thread. Just focus on this incredible journey of creating life that we are all going through together!
TW::: that's one of the reasons I stopped posting in pgal. I just want to forget that and checking in with pgal makes me feel like I'm thinking about it. I had extreme depression after it. So no flame from me.
I reached out to a few plus size mom friends, and got mixed reactions from them. A couple said unfortunately food and weight and body shame was a huge focus for them, so much so that it over shadowed much of their joy. Another said her plus size check in on her DD's month board was a huge help because it "normalized" her struggle. So I've just been kind of staying quiet, because I don't want to rain on something that is helping someone else. But hey, FFFC
Edited because the interwebz stole some of my words: the pgal thread doesn't make me feel like I'm focusing on my loss, but I can definitely see where someone else would feel that way. Just solidifies that I should stick with what works for me, and give other people the space to do what works for them.
I asked my dad to pick up DS because I had to stay late at work. Now I don't have to stay late but I'm going to let him pick him up anyway and get some errands done on my way home. Not that flameworthy but it's all I got today
@jena333 I think you need to do you, if it is healthier to avoid it, there are plenty of other threads we can all bond in :-)
My FFFC? One guest room is full of junk and the other our house sitter and then DH slept in. I'm too damn tired to find or wash clean sheets and put them on. I'm just making the bed picking the room up. Not ideal, but eh, too tired to care.
I haven't found the PGAL thread to be a downer for me but after my MMC I checked in on the TTCAL board a lot and I found it was dragging me down and making me sad when life in general wasn't. You have to gauge your own reactions to things and see what's being a positive influence and what isn't. Nobody can throw shade at you for how something affects you. What's good for one isn't always good for another!
I asked my dad to pick up DS because I had to stay late at work. Now I don't have to stay late but I'm going to let him pick him up anyway and get some errands done on my way home. Not that flameworthy but it's all I got today
Piggy backing off this: I had a bleeding scare this morning, left work, doctor got me right in, babe is fine, bleeding might be the placement of the placenta?? Even though he's fine, I still opted to come home. I can get through my work so much faster tomorrow without 63 people calling me "can you read my plates early?!?!?!?!" It's going to be so nice and quiet.
@jena333 I'm also picking and choosing what works best for me. I actually feel really good and confident in my body right now, so even though I am overweight, I don't feel like that's a support system I need at the moment. (I haven't noticed any shaming in that thread, but I don't read it much.) But the PGAL group, on the other hand, has been invaluable to me, and I feel bonded to those women now. Even if the rest of this pregnancy were to be free of PGAL brain, I would still check in there regularly. I don't flame you at all for sharing what you did, but I also think that's the beauty of these boards- there's nothing you HAVE to participate in.
I thought of another one. Sometimes when I'm bored I go to the Etiquette board on the Knot. There are some unbelievable people out there! It also makes me so glad my wedding is over.
There's definitely NO shaming each other, it's the self shaming that makes me sad. I can't let myself regret or feel bad for the chocolate glazed donut I finally let myself have yesterday.
I pretty much decided if I had a specific question I would just make a thread, otherwise I will "let" (not like allow, but you know what I mean) that group share the support they need.
I just figured, if I feel that way, maybe someone else does too? I feel like this is a great group of women. I'm happy to be here.
@jena333 I agree there's a lot of selt shame there and yes i am technically "obese" but i feel good in my body right now and i dont feel like i fit in that board either.
@jena333 I totally get how you feel about the plus size board. I had to get rid of my scale several years back because it would trigger bad eating habits, and everyone's obsession with how much weight they've gained/lost is kind of hard for me to handle.
We're creating a new life, can't we relax and enjoy ourselves a bit?
@jena333 I agree there's a lot of selt shame there and yes i am technically "obese" but i feel good in my body right now and i dont feel like i fit in that board either.
Little late to the game. My confession is that rather than buy new maternity outfits, I have been wearing DH's shirts from back in college that don't fit him now. They fit me and are super comfy.
@JNR6510 I love wearing DHs shirts too, but I can't get away with that in the third tri lol. What will you do for pants? I couldn't get away with not having maternity jeans, both pregnancies I have exploded out of my regular jeans. This time a little sooner than last
Oh man, I'm definitely going to need to invest in some maternity pants. With DD I wore my regular pants all the way through and got away with just a belly band. I am not going to be so lucky this time around. I'm already expanding in places other than my midsection.
Re: FFFC 3/17
Don't yell at me, I am obviously not giving in!
..*6 months later*....
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
Me: 35 | DH: 38
Met: 2007
Married: 2013
BFP #1: 06/21/16 MMC: 08/04/16
BFP #2: 01/08/17 DD: 09/23/17
BFP #3: 06/10/20 EDD: 02/11/2021
Eta: https://www.google.se/amp/www.ibtimes.com/it-st-paddy-or-patty-5-things-you-should-know-saint-patricks-day-1561891?amp=1
says the gaelic version of Patrick is actually spelled with a d anyways.
BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016
Re-started TTC Aug 2016
Started IF testing Nov 2016
Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017
BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
FFFC: our plus size check in makes me a little sad every week, so much so that I haven't been able to participate. I want to build relationships and commiserate, but I can't let my obesity to be the main focus of my pregnancy. It feels like there's such a strong focus on scale/food shame. And I already struggle to be body-positive.
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TW::: that's one of the reasons I stopped posting in pgal. I just want to forget that and checking in with pgal makes me feel like I'm thinking about it. I had extreme depression after it. So no flame from me.
Edited because the interwebz stole some of my words: the pgal thread doesn't make me feel like I'm focusing on my loss, but I can definitely see where someone else would feel that way. Just solidifies that I should stick with what works for me, and give other people the space to do what works for them.
My FFFC? One guest room is full of junk and the other our house sitter and then DH slept in. I'm too damn tired to find or wash clean sheets and put them on. I'm just making the bed picking the room up. Not ideal, but eh, too tired to care.
I pretty much decided if I had a specific question I would just make a thread, otherwise I will "let" (not like allow, but you know what I mean) that group share the support they need.
I just figured, if I feel that way, maybe someone else does too? I feel like this is a great group of women. I'm happy to be here.
I agree there's a lot of selt shame there and yes i am technically "obese" but i feel good in my body right now and i dont feel like i fit in that board either.
We're creating a new life, can't we relax and enjoy ourselves a bit?