I found out Saturday that I've been diagnosed with a blighted ovum. I've read other discussions where women have been diagnosed with this and everything turned out ok, but I have several factors that point to a blighted ovum. First, my progesterone was low, so I've been taking a prescription to get it up. Second, my hcg hasn't been doubling. It has been increasing, and I've read that it only doubles for about 85% of women, so that factor alone doesn't necessarily mean anything. And lastly, my US report says "without visible embryo or yolk sac."
I debated even writing this because it's not good news and I'm not trying to bring anyone down. But I also know reading others' stories, whether good or bad, has helped me, so I'm writing this for anyone who may find it useful. When I experienced my first MC in Dec 2016, I had found out 5 days before Christmas and was surprised at how little MC is talked about, among friends, social media, etc. So I thought then that it's important to talk about because it happens to so many women. Now here I am, with a gestational sac, waiting for it to miscarry. I had started spotting 1 week ago, but very lightly, which can be normal anyway. To put it in chronological order, here's my history of events/labs:
Dec 20-found out I had a MC after I had started spotting and a transvaginal US confirmed MC. Started AF that day.
Jan 8-12-conceived sometime during this time. We didn't mean to bc the OBGYN that confirmed the MC advised us to wait 2 cycles bc chances of MC are slightly higher if you conceive right after a MC
Jan 23-negative pregnancy test, but still hadn't started AF
Jan 28-BFP
Feb 6-progesterone was 9.8, so I started to supplement with 100 mg; HCG was 2977.5
Feb 8- HCG was 3379
Feb 10-HCG was 4487
Feb 13-started spotting, but barely anything
Feb 14-still very, very light spotting, more pink mixed with clear, not really red, sorry if TMI, just trying to be informational
Feb 15- US at an US clinic-they didn't have a radiologist on site to read it officially, but I was expecting a heartbeat. The US tech said everything looked fine and the gestational sac was measuring at 6w 3d. But I could see on the US that there was nothing in there, no yolk sac, no fetal pole, just blurry, but really looked empty
Feb 16- spotting a little bit of brownish/pink
Feb 17- more spotting, a bit more now; still hadn't gotten official results from having the US, so my midwife took a look with the US machine they have. She's not an ultrasonographer, so isn't as skilled as using the US machine, but she's been doing this for a long time, and we were just looking. It was looking pretty small and pretty empty.
Feb 18-got back the official report: gestational sac: 1.45 cm, EDD by LMP: 9/25/17, EDD by AUA: 10/8/2017, GA by LMP: 8w 2d, GA by AUA: 6w 3d "Early IUP, 6w 3d EGA by mean gestational sac diameter without visible embryo or yolk sac.
After speaking with my midwife, she determined that all of the signs were pointing to a blighted ovum. I can still get an US in a couple of weeks if AF hasn't come by then, but the chances are extremely low for any good news.
Emotionally, this is quite some ride, to say the least. When I got the BFP, I was happy, but I also didn't want to get my hopes up. So I kept my emotions pretty neutral, or at least tried to anyway. I wasn't trying to get too excited, but also didn't want to freak out either. I definitely had my moments though. Some really good highs and some really bad lows....but for the most part, pretty level. But here towards the end, I had gotten excited, especially after that US tech said everything looked fine. But I knew she was wrong. I was supposed to be further along, but was measuring smaller, there was nothing in the sac....just I knew....
But I still got my hopes up. The weird thing is, I haven't really felt pregnant this whole time. I mean, I've had some nausea, but emotionally I didn't start feeling attached until about a week or so ago. Totally different from my first pregnancy. So I guess my body knew.
Anyway, idk if this helps anyone. I didn't mean to write so much, but oh well. It's hard to describe just how this feels, waiting for a miscarriage and I haven't come across anyone talking about this. I can't say I've gone out of my way to look, but I just haven't heard anyone talk about waiting for a miscarriage....it sucks....you still feel like there's some hope, but everything points to no....your heart doesn't know where to go, so you're stuck waiting.
Re: PGAL and waiting for a miscarriage
@marymoore711 thank you. I'm sorry you've gone through this 3x. It is hard. I pray for a smooth pregnancy for you!
@bluejeanbabi05 thank you for the hugs. They are appreciated!
Pregnancy #2-Due 8/24/17 MMC-01/09/17
DD-Due 10/24/17
I feel your pain. Breathe and try to find peace through all of this.
BFP#1: 9/9/2014 DS born 4/7/15
BFP#2: 6/16/2016 MC/D&C: 7/29/2016
BFP#3: 10/14/2016 (fingers crossed for a sticky bean)
@flowerintherain yes, it was my biggest fear. And you definitely understand where I'm coming from! I pray the best for you and your rainbow baby
@Dobrovolskaya I'm so sorry for your 2 MCs. Blighted ovum is really hard because there's something there, just nothing inside, but you hope....and wait....I also was completely ignorant of how often MC happens, so with the first one I was devastated. I didn't think it would happen to me. But it's kind of a comforting thought knowing how often it happens because you're not alone. You have a better chance that you will have a healthy pregnancy than not, so try and think of all the good. Don't let fear rob you of your joy. I pray your US goes perfectly well! And thank you
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mmc . mar 2016
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
mmc x2 . sep 2018 & may 2019
RE workup, dx MTHFR mutation, ultimately unexplained . summer 2019
surprise BFP . aug 2019
DS . may 2020
dx Hashimoto's 2023
ttc #3 . feb 2023
mmc . apr 2023
mmc x3 . mar/jul/aug 2024
dx elevated nk cells
tx ovasitol, levothyroxine, baby aspirin, LP progesterone, lovenox, prednisone, femara + ti . jan 2025
BFP . mar 2025
I had a BO last fall, it was my first ever pregnancy and after 2.5 years TTC we were so excited. Miscarriage wasn't even on my H's radar. Our first scan showed only a fuzzy gestational sac, measuring behind. They wanted me to wait a week, come back to be rescanned which of course was the worst week of my life. The following week, the sac was gone and I was instructed to stop meds and wait. I eventually had to take meds to get it started.
I'm sending you all my love and hugs, I hope that you can start to heal eventually.
3 failed IUI cycles
Oct '15 - IVF 1 - 10R, 3M, 0F
Sept '16 - IVF - 12R, 11M, 5F and 3 perfect day 5 blasts - MMC 7w5d
Jan '17 - FET 1 - BFP, EDD 10/14
BFP #2 3/18/19 * EDD 11/25/19* DS born 11/30/19
Someone told me once (after yet another MC) that no one in this world will love your future children as much as you do. No one will have more hope for them. So don't lose hope. You will get your rainbow.
@Cythe I might be going back for another US. If AF comes soon, then I probably won't, but if I don't start in a week or 2 I'll go back just for confirmation. All signs point to no, but for sure I'll go back if AF doesn't come. So sorry you've had to go through this too. It really sucks and it happening on your first pregnancy doesn't help either. I had a MC my first pregnancy, but didn't get this far along last time
@crazypuglady thank you for the T & P and hugs!
@Hiddenlake thank you. I definitely have hope. trials>perseverance>character>hope and yes, I agree, waiting for the miscarriage is horrible...I had to tell my boss today that idk if I'll be able to help her with extra work next week or not because I'm waiting for a MC...ugh...never thought I'd be in this position. The thought never occurred to me.
@futuremrsspriggs thank you for the love and hugs!
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LO#2 EDD October 18th
Me.30 DH.31
BFP 2/3/17...edd 10/13/17