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Introduction **TW: Children Mentioned**

Vagarcia16Vagarcia16 member
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edited February 3 in Adoption

Hi Everyone,

I've been lurking on this board for a while, and as it seems to be getting more active I thought I would introduce myself and share my story.  My DH and I struggled with infertility for about 4 years (and still do.)  We really wanted a family and decided that if we could not have a baby that is biologically ours, we would both be happy adopting a baby.  Around June of 2015 we decided to pursue adoption through foster care while simultaneously continuing with our fertility treatment.  In our state, (California) families have to first become a licensed foster home before being matched with a  potential child for adoption.  While we were in our last few weeks of classes needed to become a licensed foster home, we found out that we were pregnant (through IUI) with our miracle baby. 

Fast forward....When I was eight months pregnant (by this time we had received our foster license) we received a call from a social worker needing a home for a 3 day old infant who was still in the hospital (who is healthy and beautiful!).   We asked a lot of questions about whether or not this would be a temporary placement, or a more permanent (adoption) placement.  We were told that this would likely lead to a permanent placement, though there were no guarantees.  We decided to take in this sweet girl, who we call our angel baby.  Thus, DH and I are in the throws of "twin" parenting an angel baby and a miracle baby (they are 6 weeks apart.)

When we started fostering our angel baby, it seemed like the father was unknown, however, they have since identified her biological father.  Our girl is almost 7 months old, and we are FAR from finalizing her adoption.  There have been some bumps along the way related to the possibility of a family member wanting to take her in.  Thus far, this has not happened, but the threat will remain hanging over us until the adoption is final, which could take anywhere from 6 months to a year or longer.  The fear we have of losing our little girl is indescribable.  We are the only family that she has ever known, I am the only mother that she knows. 

We take everyday with both of our girls as a gift and cherish every moment we have with them.  Adopting through foster care is a long and intense process that is full of heartache, as is infertility.  At the end of the day we love both of our girls, and we love them hard.  We love our angel baby just as much as we love our miracle baby, even though there is the possibility of losing her, which is a difficult thing to do when you don't know if it will be forever.  We attend a support group that one of the foster to adopt moms started in our county.  It's been so invaluable to us.  Connecting with other parents going through the same fears/struggles, and also connecting with parents that have made it through to the adoption side has been the best support.   

Good luck to all starting this journey (I'm happy to answer questions anyone might have), and please send some prayers or positive thoughts our way as DH and I continue to navigate this difficult process!  We are hopeful that things will work out in the best interest of our sweet girl!

One more side note...If things don't turn out the way we hope... we will do it all again.  The love we have for these babies is such a blessing.  All of the heartache along the way is worth every second of being their mother. 

-XOXO    


**Edited to add TW 

Me: 35, DH: 35

Married and TTC Since 2/2012

Me: Mild PCOS, DH: Low Sperm Count and Motility

IUI #1 w/Clomid + Trigger - BFP 10/15/15, MC (CP) 10/19/15

IUI #2 w/Clomid + Trigger - BFP 12/14/15  EDD 8/23/16

**Foster to Adopt Placement! DD#1 Born 7/2016**

DD#2 Born 9/2016

britters314BusinessWifeali_gator11

Re: Introduction **TW: Children Mentioned**

  • Thank you so much for sharing this.  Sending you positive thoughts.
    Laura, mom of:
    James (13)
    William (12)
    Elise (10)
    Zachary (4)
    George (2)

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    BusinessWife
  • Welcome!  I, too, am a foster-adopt parent to a child who we've had since basically birth.

    It is a long, hard, trying process.  Your case sounds eerily parallel to ours.  We've had her for 14 months, and have had two instances where kin stepped forward just to back out months later.  Recently, we just did a paternity test and ID'd bio dad.  Though her goal is adoption, we have not moved on anything in that direction thus far.

    Sending lots of hugs and good vibes your way.  I know how hard this is and yet, we just opened our home to be able to accept another newborn with a possible adoptive status.

    Feel free to reach out with questions or just to talk to vent :smile:

    BusinessWife
  • @mill1020 Thank you for the positive thoughts!

    @ali_gator11 Thank you for your reply!  Yes, it is so, so hard.  Our little one is now 9 months old, and the court just last month offered reunification services to bio Dad.  They usually offer 6 months of services, but they only offered him 3 months under the assumption that he will not do what he needs to do.  So now we are in that 3 month wait.  Family has still not come forward, but the fear of that happening still remains.  Our social worker is constantly reminding us of that possibility.  Sending you lots of positive thoughts for your LO. 

    Me: 35, DH: 35

    Married and TTC Since 2/2012

    Me: Mild PCOS, DH: Low Sperm Count and Motility

    IUI #1 w/Clomid + Trigger - BFP 10/15/15, MC (CP) 10/19/15

    IUI #2 w/Clomid + Trigger - BFP 12/14/15  EDD 8/23/16

    **Foster to Adopt Placement! DD#1 Born 7/2016**

    DD#2 Born 9/2016

    ali_gator11BusinessWife
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