I found out yesterday that I am GBS+. This is my fourth pregnancy and I have never had it before. My doctor literally said "oh by the way your GBS+" smiled and that was it. No info, nothing. So I got online and did some research (everyone knows that's a bad idea). After reading article after article I am angry, scared, and disappointed. I am angry because my entire birth plan is being changed and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. My plan was to labor at home then go to the hospital. I am angry that I will be stuck in there for lord only knows how long. I just feel like this will be the worst birth experience. I don't like being out of my comfort zone and at the hospital not only am I out of that zone but I have to deal with people I don't know, I get pushed around and told what I can or can't do, how things have to go, and they always want to be hands on and interfere when it's not necessary. On top of that I will be alone for the majority of it. I have 3 other kids that need to be looked after and the people who will be doing that are the only two people I have as a support group. Needless to say I feel like this experience is going to be filled with anger, bitterness, and dread. I didn't want to bring my baby into the world that way. I'm scared because of all the things that could potentially happen should everything not go exactly a certain way. Their way. And then there is disappointment. I'm disappointed that there was no way to prevent this. That nothing I could have done would have changed it. That there is nothing that can be done to prevent the inevitable. It's all wrong. Everything has been messed up because of a stupid bacteria. Time is running out and I am dreading having this baby. I just need some words of encouragement. Anything.