DS Born Happy and Healthy via C-section: 10/04/2013
Natural M/C: 07/08/2014
DD Born Happy and Healthy via Emergency C-section: 06/30/2015
BFP #4: 11/15/2016
Possibly unpopular, but people piss me off more than normal anymore, so here we go. People on facebook who post happy sappy, omg he is my soul mate (ok I guess specifically women, I haven't seen men do this) nonsense on their page when they've been dating the person for approximately 3 weeks, and then two months later they break up, and they have to post super I am a strong woman, he was just a jerk and didn't deserve me, when will I ever find a good man whine fests, and then two weeks later have a new "beau" and start it all over again. Grow up, figure out what love is, and stop acting like you and your extreme fantasies about men and what they should be in a relationship has NOTHING to do with the fact that your relationships don't last. Especially because you're in your twenties. It's one thing for a teenager in high school who is still figuring out what a relationship is to do it, it's another thing entirely for a 25 year old who is going for a masters to do it.
My WTF Wednesday goes to my emotions. its kinda heavy so I apologize.I snuggled my 15 month old all night just holding him, and realizing my own mortality and the fact that life is going so, so fast. I just cried for hours, sobbed really, about the fact that someday this won't be my life. I won't have adorable babies around who love me and think I'm amazing. Gosh, how ridiculous! Just the uncertainty of the future has me borderline terrified. I'm a Christian, and try to be a good person but all the sudden I'm wondering if it's enough. We don't go to church mainly because I can't find one I enjoy. I'm not scared to die because of my beliefs but I'm terrified of this amazing phase of our life to end. I have elderly, sick grandparents....and watching them decline is awful. I don't ever want that to happen to my DH or myself. I just need these emotions to CHILL.
I could totally understand some people may be less emotionally mature than others, but I personally married at 23, had first baby at 26, and now pregnant with #2 at 28, and I am absolutely certain of my choice and honestly believe there's no other guy out there for me except for my annoying husband.
WTF to the never ending illnesses plaguing my 3 children. In the past 10 days we have been to the pediatrician 3x and this am was spent in the ER. I am done and now getting sick myself. Seriously between croup, bronchitis and ear infections I feel like my children will never be heathy again. Not to mention between my husband and kids someone has been sick ever since we found out I was pregnant, making it hard to stay excited, or get any rest. So ready for 2017
I love having the week off... but I have a bit of work I need to clear out before the new year and my work security fob thing broke! I COULD go into the office... but ugh.