My husband's bff/father figure sent us a box full of baby clothes today. Included were a bunch of Minnie Mouse clothes, pink socks, a pink winter coat, and some blue "boy" clothes (which is fine, I am not a stickler for sex-specific clothes)... but he also sent a onesie that says "Mr. Handsome" on it. He knows we have a baby girl.
Thanks everyone. Ethan has been admitted to the Pediatric ICU due to his oxygen levels and drops in heart rate. I'm so f-ing close to my breaking point it's scary. I feel like the next thing that goes wrong I could just lose it. I came home with Oli when H got to the hospital this afternoon and picked DS1 up from school. I needed a few hours out of the hospital. Heading back here soon to spend the night. Quite sure this means that we'all have a baby in the PICU for Christmas.
MOTN update for anyone who cares. I had to run home around 1:30 because Oliver wasn't doing well. We didn't want H to drag DS1 to the ER in the middle of the night since he's been sick already and has lung concerns without catching RSV. We're waiting on a bed in PICU for Oliver. They don't think he NEEDS ICU but they try to keep siblings together and right now I appreciate that. Babies could use thoughts and prayers. Mama could use drinks.
@DiFazette obviously I don't know you, but you and your boys have been in my thoughts almost constantly since you posted. Best wishes going your way, lady.
4 days after Ben was born my husband's best friend texts us his wife (who is one of my best friends) mom passed away after a long battle with cancer. She was such a sweet lady and I was hoping she'd stick around long enough to meet Ben. The service was yesterday. DH debated going and in the end we decided to go show our support. My MIL, who arrived in state the other day, came up to watch Ben for us, since there was no way I was taking a 1 week old not knowing if anyone there was sick. Someone else brought their older baby, and every time he cried I just prayed my milk would stay where it was.
Married 4/12/13 TTC since 6/13 Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016 SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
Im having a really hard time. My birth story with DD1 was traumatic for me. There were so many variables that reared their heads and it took me about a year to fully process and heal on top of the crazy PPA I was also experiencing. Having a 2.5 year old has kept my mind pretty distracted, but today I couldn't hold it together. It was suppose to be a nice holiday at home as a family of 3 doting on DD1 and resting... instead she's terribly sick and only got worse as the day progressed. She just wanted momma snugs and my heart has been breaking watching her in such discomfort. The whole thing sent me into a downward thought spiral. What if she's not well by the time I have the baby? What if she needs me and I can't be there? Why am I bringing another little life into this home when I can barely keep it together when the one I already have has a sore throat and sniffles?? What if the RCS goes horribly wrong and something happens... or if H ends up getting sick and can't go in with me? And on and on and on it goes. I know this is the beginning of PPA starting up again... it happened similarly before DD1 was born but I didn't know enough to recognize it for what it is. H is trying to be supportive... he's doing well for the most part but I just feel like I'm unraveling a bit. I don't want to say DD1s birth left me with PTSD, but there is definitely some significant anxiety leading up to Wednesday.
If you read all of that you deserve all the Christmas cookies. H and I just had a nice long talk about it and I'm super transparent with him, I just needed another sounding board where someone *might* hopefully understand more fully.
Thanks everyone. Oli and Ethan are still in pediatric ICU. They now have pneumonia on top of the RSV. Good news is that they can give antibiotics for that! This has been so incredibly hard, and the most draining, trying, uniting, frustrating experience of my life. Having a 3 year old at home really adds to the stress of 2 babies in the PICU. Hell, having two babies in the PICU is hard enough. We're taking shifts here at the hospital but that kind of ends tonight since hubby goes back to work tomorrow. Good news is that every other night I get to sleep. My sleep here is 30-45 minutes at a time. Thank God for a wonderful husband who shoulders an equal load - we really are a wonderful team. And blessed for my (big) baby at home who gives me a reprieve from the chaos by creating his own kind... but it's the kind I love. And he knows I'm hurting... he feels it. He gives me the best hugs, the kind that he doesn't let me go. It gives me a few moments of peace and comfort. For those of you with outside babies...Hug them tonight for me.
@DiFazette thank you for the update - I've been thinking about you and your family. It sounds like you are doing about as well as you can given the circumstances. You're all still in my prayers - I hope those sweet boys start feeling better soon. Hugs to you - I'm sure it feels like you're just doing what you have to do, but I think you are doing amazing with everything
@DiFazette I am so so sorry you're going through yet another serious complication and stressful situation since Ethan and Oli were born. Know that we are all thinking of and praying for you and your family. You and your DH are doing awesome mama keep your chin up!
I thought I would care a lot more about my postpartum weight, but so far I truly don't care at all as long as Maximus is getting nutrients and well-fed. It feels so good to care about him so much that for once in my life the weight doesn't matter.
This baby feels like it's going to drop out of me it's so low! My midwife said she think I need to take a huge nap and be prepared for tonight. So we're sticking up on groceries and heading home.
My mom is here now, so this baby can officially come. She says he is starting to drop, so...fingers crossed? I still feel like we're pretty far away from d-day though.
Me: 31 | DH: 31
Together since 2003 | Married 2010 TTC #1 January 2016 BFP April 18 2016 | EDD December 29, 2016 Welcome baby A! January 9, 2017
TTC#2 March 2018 BFP March 30, 2018 | EDD December 12, 2018
Re: More December Randoms
My husband's bff/father figure sent us a box full of baby clothes today. Included were a bunch of Minnie Mouse clothes, pink socks, a pink winter coat, and some blue "boy" clothes (which is fine, I am not a stickler for sex-specific clothes)... but he also sent a onesie that says "Mr. Handsome" on it. He knows we have a baby girl.
@ea301 Maybe he's being very gender inclusive??? People do funny things.
Due December 27th with baby #7
TTC #1 January 2016
BFP April 18 2016 | EDD December 29, 2016
Welcome baby A! January 9, 2017
TTC#2 March 2018
BFP March 30, 2018 | EDD December 12, 2018
Due December 27th with baby #7
Due December 27th with baby #7
@DiFazette I hope Ethan and Oli are ok!!!
@DiFazette I'm praying for Oli and Ethan.
4 days after Ben was born my husband's best friend texts us his wife (who is one of my best friends) mom passed away after a long battle with cancer. She was such a sweet lady and I was hoping she'd stick around long enough to meet Ben. The service was yesterday. DH debated going and in the end we decided to go show our support. My MIL, who arrived in state the other day, came up to watch Ben for us, since there was no way I was taking a 1 week old not knowing if anyone there was sick. Someone else brought their older baby, and every time he cried I just prayed my milk would stay where it was.
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
Im having a really hard time. My birth story with DD1 was traumatic for me. There were so many variables that reared their heads and it took me about a year to fully process and heal on top of the crazy PPA I was also experiencing. Having a 2.5 year old has kept my mind pretty distracted, but today I couldn't hold it together. It was suppose to be a nice holiday at home as a family of 3 doting on DD1 and resting... instead she's terribly sick and only got worse as the day progressed. She just wanted momma snugs and my heart has been breaking watching her in such discomfort. The whole thing sent me into a downward thought spiral. What if she's not well by the time I have the baby? What if she needs me and I can't be there? Why am I bringing another little life into this home when I can barely keep it together when the one I already have has a sore throat and sniffles?? What if the RCS goes horribly wrong and something happens... or if H ends up getting sick and can't go in with me? And on and on and on it goes.
I know this is the beginning of PPA starting up again... it happened similarly before DD1 was born but I didn't know enough to recognize it for what it is.
H is trying to be supportive... he's doing well for the most part but I just feel like I'm unraveling a bit. I don't want to say DD1s birth left me with PTSD, but there is definitely some significant anxiety leading up to Wednesday.
If you read all of that you deserve all the Christmas cookies. H and I just had a nice long talk about it and I'm super transparent with him, I just needed another sounding board where someone *might* hopefully understand more fully.
DS: 12/20/16
EDD: 11/29/18
DS: 12/20/16
EDD: 11/29/18
My midwife said she think I need to take a huge nap and be prepared for tonight. So we're sticking up on groceries and heading home.
@DiFazette still thinking of you lady!
Due December 27th with baby #7
Dammit 2016. What the hell is wrong with you.
i do t have the heart to tell my SW loving kids!!!
Due December 27th with baby #7
My mom is here now, so this baby can officially come. She says he is starting to drop, so...fingers crossed? I still feel like we're pretty far away from d-day though.
TTC #1 January 2016
BFP April 18 2016 | EDD December 29, 2016
Welcome baby A! January 9, 2017
TTC#2 March 2018
BFP March 30, 2018 | EDD December 12, 2018
TTC #1 January 2016
BFP April 18 2016 | EDD December 29, 2016
Welcome baby A! January 9, 2017
TTC#2 March 2018
BFP March 30, 2018 | EDD December 12, 2018