*TW* My mind is a crazy clusterf*ck

SaphireSweetie88

I don't really know where else to post this so I hope an individual thread is okay....

Also, sorry if this becomes TMI...

I called my doctor's office in tears this morning because there was very red blood on the toilet paper when I wiped after peeing this morning. I wiped twice and blood both times. There was no cramping though.

The nurse asked me to give her a run down of the past couple days which is:
     - Monday = I had 1 bad cramp that felt like it lasted for a minute or 2 but I am sure it really wasn't that long. It didn't happen again so I shrugged it off and assumed it had something to do with the fact I polished off an entire Double Quarter Pounder meal from McDonalds.
     - Tuesday = I had some light brown spotting (that's what I am calling it) mixed in with my discharge. No cramping. I put a pad on and there was 1/2 a dime's worth in the pad at the end of day but otherwise I only noticed it when I wiped after peeing. I did talk to a nurse who said she wouldn't worry about it until the brown stuff was saturating a pad or turned bright red, etc. I spoke with the nurse who told me she would talk to the doctor when the doctor came in and see what the doctor wanted to do.
    
I went to work because it was too late to call in. Fast forward to an hour later. I get a call from the doctor's office and the nurse told me the doctor wanted to do some blood work (hcg test). They wanted me to come in today and then again in 48 hours to get blood drawn again so they can compare the 2 levels / results. I was sent home from work because I am very emotional (understandable) and went straight for the blood test. They said it would be about 24 hours before we get the results of the blood test I took today. 

When I peed before my blood test (about 1 pm) I noticed there was no more red blood. There was a little bit of blood in my pad but not a lot and it was the light brown color again. Same with when I wiped - light brown color. I did tell the receptionist to update the file and let the nurse / doctor know about the change in blood too.

I got home after having my blood taken and fell asleep for about 2 hours. I feel a little better after my nap but I am still nervous / scared. I am trying my best to stay calm because I know stressing is not going to help anything but I keep having both good and bad thoughts. I am keeping my fingers crossed I don't end up having a miscarriage. These next couple days are going to be hard. Sorry for the long post, I had to vent somewhere.

ashaw512

Fingers crossed and t&ps!

SaphireSweetie88

Thanks @ashaw512  I appreciate it

boymomstrong

Praying for you!!! I hopenits all ok!

SaphireSweetie88

@CAdreamin13  @kfdecarie  - Thanks! I appreciate it. I will keep everyone updated

thatcma

@saphiresweetie88 I am so sorry you are dealing with this. My fingers are super crossed

SaphireSweetie88

Thanks @osucma

I am trying really hard to stay positive

Cynth0104

Sending positive thoughts and praying for you! Hope the blood work comes back well!

SaphireSweetie88

Thanks @Cynth0104  

manillabar

Praying for you! 

SaphireSweetie88

Appreciate it @manillabar . It's strange that I feel more relaxed looking at things on TB rather than staying off of it

realgoodthing

Sending you good vibes! Please let us know as soon as you hear anything.

spk112

Good vibes to you, @SaphireSweetie88

dancegurl1118

Sending good thoughts your way, lady. 

jsweet-2

big hugs of the creepy Internet variety. I have everything crossed for you.

MrsPyrowiz

T&ps!  Bleeding can be totally normal.

Eta: that doesn't make it any less nerve wrecking, I know!

Itsnotyourturn

Sending sticky baby thoughts your way.  

MrsN092714

I had some bleeding kind of like your describing with my first pregnant.   I'd had a little bit of off colored discharge and then saw bright red when I wiped and totally freaked.  It leaked a bit but within the hour had stopped.  I have a 1 year old son from that pregnancy.  A bit of bleeding during the first trimester is normal (although f****** terrifying!) It's great they sent you for blood work.  seeing those number rise will help give you a peice of mind.  When I did miscarry, the bleeding didn't stop and the cramps hit hard.  I know your scared but right now it's out of your hands.  Put your feet up, relax.  Nap.  Stay hydrated and just wait for those numbers.  FX for you.  creepy Internet hugs...

caribbeanmama-2

Sending lots of positive vibes your way!

SaphireSweetie88

@leilac  @spk112  @dancegurl1118  @Jsweet  @MrsPyrowiz  @Itsnotyourturn  @caribbeanmama  - Thanks! I will let you and everyone else know as soon as I know anything.

@MrsN092714 - Thanks for sharing your story!

akbride09

@SaphireSweetie88. . . These first weeks are so hard, aren't they?? I had an SCH while pregnant with my daughter. Mine never bled but it was pretty big so I was considered high risk until it reabsorbed third trimester. I did a ton of reading online and saw just how common they are. Some like me with no bleeding, but just as many with red/brown spotting. I can't remember-do you have an u/s coming up? 

KissMeImScottish

@SaphireSweetie88, I encourage you to read my response to CAdreamin13's post. The gist is that I bled (with flow, not to be TMI) on and off from week 4 to week 8 of my last pregnancy with my son. Combine that with round ligament pain, which I seem to feel pretty badly throughout pregnancy but didn't recognize at the time, made me sure I was losing my baby. Come last September, healthy 8 lb 7 oz baby was born and is currently asleep upstairs. Bleeding is scary! But it can mean SO many things, and not all of them are bad. Cysts, minor hormonal imbalances, even cells of the cervix being caught on the outside of the uterus when it closes and then becomes highly vascularised can cause spotting or bleeding. Have faith.

irishrose54

Will be thinking about you. Sending positive vibes. Sorry you're having to go through this but you'll have answers soon and it's so so possible that everything will be ok. Hugs.

kat0607

Thinking of and praying for you today!!

mrs35

Thinking of you today! 

abjm0325

@SaphireSweetie88 Hoping for good news for you, testing buddy! Keep us updated and be good to yourself today.

WorkinWeezel

Sticky vibes heading your way!!  

CallMeMrsChaos

Keeping all the things crossed for you and sending you good juju! T&P

MrsN092714

@saphiresweetie88 Have you had any mor spotting?  Any beta results back?  FX for you

SaphireSweetie88

@Cait32 - Thanks! I have been rubbing my belly. I know it may be silly but it makes me feel better.
@akbride09 - Yes they are! I don't have an ultrasound appointment yet but my appointment with the doctor is on 12/2 and with the nurse on 11/22. I might ask for one earlier though.
@ktewart - Thanks for sharing your story!
@irishrose54 @kat0607 @mrs35 @abjm0325 @WorkinWeezel @CallMeMrsChaos - Thanks!
@MrsN092714 - I had a little brown spotting (only when I wiped) last night. I haven't been up too long yet today but so far nothing. I haven't received any results yet either so I am telling myself that since the doctor hasn't called yet, it must be good news (or the results aren't back yet) right?

tsarina-2

@SaphireSweetie88 FWIW I also had spotting (red and brown) on and off thru the 1st trimester of my first pregnancy, and everything was fine. Please keep us updated! 

LoveLee85

Fingers crossed for a sticky bean!!!!! Hugs!!

rklinge0

Going to say the same. Spotting can be normal. I spotted most of 1st trimester last time and right when 2ND trimester hit it immediately stopped. Glad you are seeking answers. Thinking of you. 

EmeraldNC

Thoughts and prayers!  I have had the symptoms you are talking about as well, as so far so good.  I am sending good vibes your way sweet lady!

SaphireSweetie88

@tsarina @LoveLee85 @rklinge0 @EmeraldNC - thanks!

I got the results of the first blood test. Hopefully we get good results tomorrow

MrsN092714

@saphiresweetie88 What was your levels from the first draw?

SaphireSweetie88

@MrsN092714 - sorry I thought the screenshot loaded.

Sorry it's huge. TB won't let me resize it.

SaphireSweetie88

Today I go to get my 2nd blood test to see what my levels look like (at 1 pm). I am taking all of your T&Ps, crossed fingers, etc with me   Although I have a feeling since it is Friday, I will have to wait until Monday to get the results

thatcma

@saphiresweetie88 we're all here for you!

pepper16-2

Thinking of you @SaphireSweetie88 !! 

SaphireSweetie88

Thanks @osucma and @Pepper16 - I feel pretty calm all things considered