Hello everyone - I've had a rough couple of weeks and a lot on my mind. I've decided to write an anonymous open letter to share our story via social media and blogs. There is no identifying information. I just really felt it necessary to get our story out there, so that others can have just a glimpse into what carriers of a genetic disease go through. I'm really disappointed that The Bump has no place for women to talk about this ( Baby Center does). Medical termination is a real thing that pregnant women go through. Maybe if I can reach the admins somehow they can create a board on here. Please, feel free to share this story as a story of someone you know if you feel comfortable sharing. I am urging women to speak out. I am also open to your comments. https://www.opnlttr.com/letter/carrying-weight-second-trimester-termination-medical-reasons-open-letter-your-so-called-pro
Me:35, DH 37 ~ Married July 2014 ttc July 2015 ~ bfp Nov 2015 (cp) bfp Dec 2015 ~ (tfmr 17wk, March 2016, genetic disease) ttcal May 2016
@KarenBeth714 This letter was beautiful and eloquent and heartfelt, I'm so glad you wrote it and that it will be shared. I truly hope it changes the mind of very short sighted and ignorant people. as always, so many hugs for you and I think you're amazing for writing this
TW*** Child and loss mentioned Married 10/12 DS 11/14 Ectopic 2/16 PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16 IUI x 3- BFN Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos FET- 6/17- BFP! Due Feb 15, 2017
@KarenBeth714 thank you for writing this and bringing light to this topic. I hate that reproductive rights, issues, and abortion still to this day play such prominent role in politics and so many people feel that they can judge someone's choice as if that choice is taken so lightly. I'm sorry you and your husband went through this. Hugs to you and thank you again for sharing your story.
****TW: Pregnancy,
loss and children mentioned****
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
******************
TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w
2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger=
BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our
own** 12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!! Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
Hi @KarenBeth714, Thank you for writing such a thoughtful, emotional, and powerful letter. I hope The Bump is able to create a space for you and other women who are struggling with the same choice to come together. I recently read an article written by another mom who made the choice to medically terminate and it was devastating. I am a lifelong believer in choice. As you say so well not a one of us know what we would chose until we were made to. It is so critical to have safe, accessible, non-judgmental, and affordable care and women's health and reproductive care. I'll share! Largely with the choir but hopefully with a few who haven't thought about this as in depth. Many thanks, again, for sharing. I am deeply sorry for your loss.
Thank you for sharing this story. You are brave and strong. Your story deserves to be heard. Your decision and all of the heartbreak of your story deserves to be respected. I cannot imagine how difficult the last few weeks have been for you. It has been deeply painful for me, as well. I admire your courage of sharing your story.
@karenbeth714 Thank you for sharing your story!! I can't even begin to imagine making that decision. This is why we need choice because you never know what life if going to come at you with. The words incompatable with life are what most people don't understand. I Hearing those words must be the worst or one of the worst phases you can hear. I can't wait to hear a beautiful update of your rainbow baby!!
@KarenBeth714 Your story brought tears to my eyes. I cannot imagine the hell you and DH have been through and with all my heart I am so sorry you both have had to endure that. I have no words to console you, I am just so sorry.
**TW - Loss & Child mentioned** Me: 40 DH: 47 Married: 10/2015 DSD: 17 BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15 BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15 BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19 BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018 Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.
That's very brave and I commend you. I'm so sorry and I wish you peace on the rest of your journey.
Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 TTC 09/15 *TW Loss mentioned* BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16 MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3 TTCAL 3/2016 Acupuncture 11/16 Dx December 2016: unexplained January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI = BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby! EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 Ambrose born on his due date!
@karenbeth714 - thank you for sharing this moving letter. I was bothered by what some of my so called "friends" posted on facebook during the debate as well. Some more compassion and understanding in the world would go a long way. I'm so sorry you had to go through this but thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you everyone. It feels good to get it out there, and I'm hoping to reach many and am looking for more places to publish this. If you feel moved to do so, feel free to share on social media to take a stand for reproductive rights for all. Now is the time.
Me:35, DH 37 ~ Married July 2014 ttc July 2015 ~ bfp Nov 2015 (cp) bfp Dec 2015 ~ (tfmr 17wk, March 2016, genetic disease) ttcal May 2016
Karen, thank you for sharing. I think it's important that people see the real stories like yours, painful as they are. I'm glad this was cathartic for you. Hugs to you.
I am So Very Sorry! When the issue of pro life/choice comes up I baffle people by telling them that I am Pro-Voice. The decisions people face are so Very personal & Not pollitical fodder. I believe deeply in supporting Everyone through the difficult decisions Regardless of ones Personal views. Thank You for using your voice, sharing your story & hopefully softening a heart that could otherwise be closed to the debth of a familys grief.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
Re: I've decided to share my story via social media in an open letter
Married 10/12
DS 11/14
Ectopic 2/16
PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16
IUI x 3- BFN
Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage
IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos
FET- 6/17- BFP!
Due Feb 15, 2017
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
******************
TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
@karenbeth714 Thank you for sharing your story!! I can't even begin to imagine making that decision. This is why we need choice because you never know what life if going to come at you with. The words incompatable with life are what most people don't understand. I Hearing those words must be the worst or one of the worst phases you can hear. I can't wait to hear a beautiful update of your rainbow baby!!
Me: 40 DH: 47
Married: 10/2015
DSD: 17
BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15
BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15
BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19
BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018
Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
ttc July 2015 ~ bfp Nov 2015 (cp)
bfp Dec 2015 ~ (tfmr 17wk, March 2016, genetic disease)
ttcal May 2016
BFP: 10.3.16 | CP: 10.11.16
BFP: 12.14.16 | CP: 12.14.16
BFP: 1.23.17 | EDD 10.6.17 -- DS born 10.7.17
BFP: 9.9.18 | EDD 5.23.19 -- DD born 5.24.19
BFP: 9.1.21 | MC 10.1.21
from Seattle(ish)
5 years married
FTM and PGAL
EDD is 12/23/17
-- It's a BOY! ---
When the issue of pro life/choice comes up I baffle people by telling them that I am Pro-Voice.
The decisions people face are so Very personal & Not pollitical fodder. I believe deeply in supporting Everyone through the difficult decisions Regardless of ones Personal views.
Thank You for using your voice, sharing your story & hopefully softening a heart that could otherwise be closed to the debth of a familys grief.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1