I was 7 weeks along and started spotting so I went to the E.R on Thursday. After ten hours of tests and scans it was determined that my egg had implanted within the muscle fibers just outside of the tube before entering the uterus. I received my first shot of methotrexate at ER and have to go back every other day for another shot and for my levels to be checked until I get to 0.
Although I only knew I was pregnant for a few weeks I had already formed an attachment to the idea of being pregnant and the future. I cam home today to an Amazon package with a pregnancy book. Talk about a huge bummer. The worst part of all of this is that my levels are still really high and I am still experiencing pregnancy symptoms.
I will have to wait at least 3 cycles before starting to try again bit I don't know if I want to. I read that these types of nonviable pregnancies are not actually miscarriages so your chances of having a miscarriage do not decrease. I don't think I could go through a loss all over again. It's hard even getting through the day without thinking, why me?
The only thing that puts me at ease is the doctors were really comforting and explained everything to me. I will also be screened and monitored very closely when I do get pregnant again to ease my worries.