History: Multiple months of Clomid/Femara End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks Multiple more months of Femara IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled. April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
@fivetimesnoluck thank you for that! That did make me chuckle, but it is very true! Hopefully all of our miracle babies are smarty pants and get lots of scholarships!
@LizzieJ13 Thank you! I admire your plans moving forward. We will achieve parenthood somehow too, I truly believe that!
@fivetimesnoluck LOL. That meme gave me quite a chuckle. I don't know if this is sad or not but so far my college education still beats the cost of IVF (by like 3 times, ugh!)
@mjacks16 I know I already told you this on the FET thread but I'm so sorry
***BFP & Child Warning***
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014 IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17 FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
History: Multiple months of Clomid/Femara End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks Multiple more months of Femara IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled. April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
@radmom27 Thank you for sharing that article! This was my favorite part: But telling someone who’s trying to get pregnant that it was super-duper easy for you to get pregnant is like walking around a cancer ward saying, “Wow, that’s weird, it’s been SO EASY for me NOT to get cancer! I just eat lots of fucking kale, guys! Have you tried eating kale, you sick dummies?”
I think I might actually say this the next time someone says that to me!
***BFP & Child Warning***
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014 IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17 FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
With all the negatives rolling in, I did want to share our tracker because we DO have a BFP! (Although it was shared in another thread ) So yay for that! I'm hoping we see more of those soon!
@radmom27 Good luck with your beta today!! Thinking of you!
@radmom27 good luck today! That was an awesome article! I loved her response!
Happy Friday everyone! I woke up at 3:30am to pee and couldn't fall back asleep so today might be a loooong day for me. Thankfully we are moving offices across the hall next week so I can spend most of the day packing up my stuff and organizing and not have to concentrate too much. Just the weekend to get through and then Monday is the big day! Still not feeling very positive, any symptoms I *thought* I was having have basically disappeared, so who knows what's going on.
@mtpbadger Yeah my "symptoms" (aside from an occasional twinge that my mind thinks is in my uterus) have pretty much disappeared too. No matter what I do I can't seem to stop picturing what the phone call will be like. This is my first beta ever so I don't even know what time on Monday to expect the call. I'm pretty much going to be a huge ball of anxiety the whole day.
***BFP & Child Warning***
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014 IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17 FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
@wifeinraleigh28 during my first FET I didn't get the call until about 5pm, it was torture. That was the first time I hadn't tested before the beta either so it was awful. DH wants to be there for the phone call so I told him I would let it go to voicemail so we can listen together. Hopefully they don't call super early in the day and make me wait to listen to it! Thankfully I get off of work fairly early (3:30pm) and DH will be picking me up that day. If it does end up being a positive, they better call before the pharmacy closes b/c I only have enough meds to get me through Tuesday night!
@mtpbadger Wow 5pm is brutal!!! DH and I are both taking Monday off work so we can be together when we get the call. I would be a hot mess at work anyway! Here's hoping we both get good news Monday afternoon!
***BFP & Child Warning***
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014 IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17 FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
Yeah, it was awful! Usually they don't call that late! Actually, my DH actually called my nurse and had to ask! I think it was Bc my RE was the one that wanted to call and discuss it. Which to me is just cruel. You get bad news and then expect someone to have a logical conversation? In the end it helped me focus on moving forward so it was all good. I think I would be worse if I stayed home! At least at work I can usually stay distracted. This time only one person knows we are getting the results that day (my coworker who went through IVF) so she helps keep me distracted.
Official but expected BFN for me. My plan is to transfer my remaining frozen embryos likely in November. Thanks to everyone for all of your support. Crossing my fingers for big news from many of you on Monday!
TTC since August 2014
Me: 41, Him: 43
DX: Unexplained secondary infertility
History: Multiple months of Clomid/Femara End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks Multiple more months of Femara IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled. April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
@radmom27 sorry for the negative but it sounds like you have a good plan moving forward. Fx that November is your month! Hope you can do something you enjoy this weekend
How are you Monday Beta testers doing? SO close!!!! @wifeinraleigh28 you think you'll be able to hold off on testing before? uggghhh...I want to now, so hang in there if you haven't!!!
@jsmorrissey not good!! I am starting to get anxious although trying to keep myself distracted. Had a mini meltdown this morning thinking what if this cycle didn't work. My DH is very supportive and positive but it's also not him that's having to do two painful injections every night and possibly for nothing. I feel like any symptoms I thought I had earlier this week are completely gone so I'm terrified that means it might have been another chemical pregnancy. Had alternating dreams last night that beta was positive and woke up crying and then one that beta was negative and woke up crying.
Going to stay busy today by putting away summer clothes, getting my sweaters out of storage, organize, watch some college football (Go Wisconsin!) and tomorrow we are going on a little day trip.
edited @radmom27, I just now had time to read the article in its entirety...So true! I had a friend, who knows what I am going through, tell me that 2 of her other friends our age got pregnant pretty easily. I sat on the phone silent (dumb founded) and she was like "helloooo" I was like "that's great for them" and she proceeded to tell me that she was only telling me to let me know so I didn't give up hope, that other women our age are able to get pregnant. I simply explained, I am obviously not like her other friends and my situation is clearly different. I wanted to reach through the phone!!! Why would she think that would make me feel better??? Maybe, if she said they went through IVF as well or had IF issues, but to just say they are our age and it is possible. DUH!?!?!? I know lots of women our age can get pregnant without issue. I see it everyday on FB or in my personal life. OK, there is my rant!!!!!
@mtpbadger Hang in there. Definitely stay busy. I did the whole closet thing last weekend! I just want to go spend money on our house. DH may be ok with it hahaha. He has been awesome! But I do feel you on losing it a bit. It hit me hard yesterday that I didn't think it worked. I think it will devastate me to know that I won't have a baby. it's so scary to me that my life will be forever changed (good or bad) on Wednesday. I already told my boss I may be taking off early and not coming back for a couple days. HA! I am not trying to be pessimistic, but I need to remain realistic. so if/when I get the BFP it will be all the more exciting.
@Jsmorrissey I would have been LIVID with that friend of yours too! Ugh, I guess her intentions were good but how STUPID to think that would be helpful in the first place. Sorry girl I feel you on how scary beta day is. We have so much riding on it after we try so hard to get pregnant and then spend all this money on IVF.
@mtpbadger I keep going back and forth too. Yesterday was actually a more hopeful day for me, but today, I'm just in the middle. Especially because I know that if I were to take a HPT today it would most likely be accurate. I could just POAS and know. But then I remind myself that I still wouldn't really *know* anything.
So I haven't tested yet. I actually did try to convince DH that it's a good idea for me to POAS today but he refused to let me. So I'm back to distracting myself. Earlier today I thought, "What if I could be at complete peace with myself on Monday, regardless of what the result is? Can't I just choose to accept either answer and be okay with it?" I'm trying to get to that point, because there is nothing I can do about it either way. I have literally done everything I can possibly do.
***BFP & Child Warning***
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014 IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17 FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
Thank you to everyone for your support. A BFN never gets easier but having a plan in place helps. @wifeinraleigh28 Hold out until Monday and don't POAS. Take it from a POAS addict, it only makes you obsess more and if it's a positive (which I fully believe and hope it will be), enjoy that moment with your husband without doubting that it's actually true.
@Jsmorrissey Sometimes I can't believe the things that friends say to us through this journey. One of my friends (who is my age) has had two kids in the span of time that I've been trying, knows what I've been going through and still jokes that her husband looks at her and she gets pregnant...she has even joked that maybe she should lend him to me (which is both bizarre and stupid because we don't have any MFI issues). I think "maybe" she's trying to be supportive but has no idea how hurtful it is when she says things like that or flaunts it in my face that other people don't have a problem getting pregnant.
@mtpbadger Hang in there...you're almost there. I do think it's different for our significant others and although maybe not easier, but also not constantly in their faces. My DH often tells me that I think about it all too much but then I try to explain that it's just impossible not to....every twinge, cramp...every time you go to the bathroom, the thoughts are always there.
Good luck to you Monday ladies. We NEED more positives in this thread and 9/27 sounds like a good day for that to happen!!!! Can't wait to hear all of your news.
TTC since August 2014
Me: 41, Him: 43
DX: Unexplained secondary infertility
History: Multiple months of Clomid/Femara End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks Multiple more months of Femara IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled. April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
Ok, so I haven't been on this thread in awhile.....
1) I'm so sorry about the BFNs lately. I hope you're taking care of yourselves and thinking positively on your next step in this sh*thole that is called Infertility.
2) I thought I was the only one who called it a big f*cking negative/plus. I didn't even know it was 'fat' for the longest time.
3) *tw* I'm the one with the positive (albeit low) beta. I'm officially declaring that from here on out, everyone is getting a BF*ckigP! Straight up Oprah - BFP for you! And you! BFP to the lady in the back! Look under your seat - BFP!!!!!
All you ladies that have your beta tomorrow, I am sending out good thoughts for you!!!! Am looking forward to the positive updates tomorrow!!!! FX for you ladies!!!!
Me: 32, Hubs: 36 Married: September 2013 TTC since April 2014, Dx: MFI DH started Clomid Oct 2015 April-June 2016- 3 IUIs: All BFN July 2016- IVF #1: 16 eggs ->1 PGS-normal embryo Sept 2016- single FET #1: BFN Nov 2016- IVF #2 16 eggs -> 3 PGS-normal embryos Jan 2017- single FET #2: BFN Feb 2017- endometrial scratch March 2017- FET #3 (double transfer): BFP! Beta #1: 386 (9dp5dt), Beta #2: 1,960 (12dp5dt) Pregnant with: TripletsTwins Singleton It's a GIRL! EDD: November 16, 2017 Dx w/ preeclampsia: Updated delivery date: 10/4/17 Hazel Summerlyn Find me on the IG
@wifeinraleigh28 Hurray!!!!! I am so happy for you! You have always been so encouraging for me, and I'm going to be sad to see you move on (but more happy than sad!!!) Yay!!
Me 34 DH 36 Married since July 2010 MFI (High DNA Fragmentation) & Mild endometriosis
TTC #1 since June 2015 Aug 2016 - May 2017 6 IUI's with letrozole - BFN April 2017 - laparoscopy to remove mild endo June 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU - Cancelled early ovulation, no eggs retrieved. Aug/Sept 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU, cetrotide - 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature 5 eggs ICSI'd 6 eggs frozen - 1 day 5 blast transfered, 2 expanded blast frozen - BFP! May 2018 - Baby girl born - Our Joy
TTC #2 since July 2019 July 2019 - FET - BFN Jan 2020 - FET - canceled due to family health issues Mar 2020 - FET - low beta - chemical pregnancy July 2020 - ICSI'd remaining 6 eggs - 3 fertilized - 2 survived to early blast stage, transfered both - Chemical Pregnancy
@LeFemmeViolette I'm so very sorry, we're here for you if you need to vent or cry or whatever you need. I'm sorry
Me 34 DH 36 Married since July 2010 MFI (High DNA Fragmentation) & Mild endometriosis
TTC #1 since June 2015 Aug 2016 - May 2017 6 IUI's with letrozole - BFN April 2017 - laparoscopy to remove mild endo June 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU - Cancelled early ovulation, no eggs retrieved. Aug/Sept 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU, cetrotide - 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature 5 eggs ICSI'd 6 eggs frozen - 1 day 5 blast transfered, 2 expanded blast frozen - BFP! May 2018 - Baby girl born - Our Joy
TTC #2 since July 2019 July 2019 - FET - BFN Jan 2020 - FET - canceled due to family health issues Mar 2020 - FET - low beta - chemical pregnancy July 2020 - ICSI'd remaining 6 eggs - 3 fertilized - 2 survived to early blast stage, transfered both - Chemical Pregnancy
@wifeinraleigh28 I have lurked this board for a long time before I did my intro this past month and your name has stuck out to me the entire time I've been here as someone who is so supportive of others. I know we have not 'interacted' on here, but I wanted to say Congratulations!!! I'm so happy for you!
About me: TTC#1: October 2015 dx: PCOS & MFI IUI #1 w/Femara + Ovidrel June 2016 ~ BFP July 2016: Blighted Ovum IUI #2 w/Femara + Ovidrel September 2016 ~BFN IUI #3 w/Femara + Ovidrel October 2016 ~BFN IUI #4 w/Femara + Ovidrel November 2016 ~BFN IVF with ICSI January 2017 ~BFN FET February 2017 ~BFN IVF with ICSI March 2017 ~BFP--Twins Due 12/8/17 Team Blue X 2!
@wifeinraleigh - YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!! I am so ecstatic for you! I would be crying happy tears as well! Congrats!!!! I can't wait to hear the what the next BETA is!!!!!
AFM-I could not sleep last night...I started to cry because I don't feel that it worked and I'm not sure if I am ready to deal with the fact that I won't be able have any kids. Anyone I have expressed this to, says " you can just do it again" um...no, we can't and we won't. I have no idea how people who are OOP can afford to do this more than once. We would never take out a loan and my DH is not willing to use anymore of our savings. Which I am not either. Without any frozen, we will be out and it is stressing me out to the max. I can't even concentrate at work, which I am always able to put my personal life aside at work... There's my vent. Thank you!!!
Re: September TWW/Beta Testers!
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
@mjacks16 - I am sooooo sorry! I am so sad to see all the BFN's.
You have to treat yourself to much love this weekend!
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN
Hopefully, we will all get the chance to say this to one of our own some day! xo
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
Multiple months of Clomid/Femara
End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks
Multiple more months of Femara
IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN
IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN
Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN
January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN
March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN
April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN
September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled.
April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN
June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN
Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
@fivetimesnoluck LOL. That meme gave me quite a chuckle. I don't know if this is sad or not but so far my college education still beats the cost of IVF (by like 3 times, ugh!)
@mjacks16 I know I already told you this on the FET thread but I'm so sorry
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
https://nymag.com/thecut/2016/09/ask-polly-why-do-women-obsess-about-babies-and-fertility.html
Multiple months of Clomid/Femara
End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks
Multiple more months of Femara
IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN
IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN
Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN
January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN
March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN
April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN
September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled.
April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN
June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN
Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
I think I might actually say this the next time someone says that to me!
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
With all the negatives rolling in, I did want to share our tracker because we DO have a BFP! (Although it was shared in another thread
@radmom27 Good luck with your beta today!! Thinking of you!
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
@radmom27 good luck today! That was an awesome article! I loved her response!
Happy Friday everyone! I woke up at 3:30am to pee and couldn't fall back asleep so today might be a loooong day for me. Thankfully we are moving offices across the hall next week so I can spend most of the day packing up my stuff and organizing and not have to concentrate too much. Just the weekend to get through and then Monday is the big day! Still not feeling very positive, any symptoms I *thought* I was having have basically disappeared, so who knows what's going on.
IVF: ER 7/16 40 follies, 23 eggs, 19 mature,
12 fert w/icsi, 6 blasts, 3 PGS norm, 1 unknown.
FET: 9/1/16 transferred 1 CP beta 5.9
FET 2: 11/15/16 transferred 1 CP again!
FET 3: TBD
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
Multiple months of Clomid/Femara
End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks
Multiple more months of Femara
IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN
IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN
Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN
January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN
March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN
April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN
September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled.
April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN
June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN
Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
IVF: ER 7/16 40 follies, 23 eggs, 19 mature,
12 fert w/icsi, 6 blasts, 3 PGS norm, 1 unknown.
FET: 9/1/16 transferred 1 CP beta 5.9
FET 2: 11/15/16 transferred 1 CP again!
FET 3: TBD
NOOOOO @radmom27. I am sorry for the BFN! Glad you have a game plan in place!
how is everyone doing? some of you only have a few more days! FX we get some more BFP's.
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN
I'm finding that my anxiety is getting worse and worse the closer I get to beta day...
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
How are you Monday Beta testers doing? SO close!!!! @wifeinraleigh28 you think you'll be able to hold off on testing before? uggghhh...I want to now, so hang in there if you haven't!!!
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN
Going to stay busy today by putting away summer clothes, getting my sweaters out of storage, organize, watch some college football (Go Wisconsin!) and tomorrow we are going on a little day trip.
edited @radmom27, I just now had time to read the article in its entirety...So true! I had a friend, who knows what I am going through, tell me that 2 of her other friends our age got pregnant pretty easily. I sat on the phone silent (dumb founded) and she was like "helloooo" I was like "that's great for them" and she proceeded to tell me that she was only telling me to let me know so I didn't give up hope, that other women our age are able to get pregnant. I simply explained, I am obviously not like her other friends and my situation is clearly different. I wanted to reach through the phone!!! Why would she think that would make me feel better??? Maybe, if she said they went through IVF as well or had IF issues, but to just say they are our age and it is possible. DUH!?!?!? I know lots of women our age can get pregnant without issue. I see it everyday on FB or in my personal life. OK, there is my rant!!!!!
@mtpbadger Hang in there. Definitely stay busy. I did the whole closet thing last weekend! I just want to go spend money on our house. DH may be ok with it
hahaha. He has been awesome! But I do feel you on losing it a bit. It hit me hard yesterday that I didn't think it worked. I think it will devastate me to know that I won't have a baby. it's so scary to me that my life will be forever changed (good or bad) on Wednesday. I already told my boss I may be taking off early and not coming back for a couple days. HA! I am not trying to be pessimistic, but I need to remain realistic. so if/when I get the BFP it will be all the more exciting.
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN
@mtpbadger I keep going back and forth too. Yesterday was actually a more hopeful day for me, but today, I'm just in the middle. Especially because I know that if I were to take a HPT today it would most likely be accurate. I could just POAS and know. But then I remind myself that I still wouldn't really *know* anything.
So I haven't tested yet. I actually did try to convince DH that it's a good idea for me to POAS today but he refused to let me. So I'm back to distracting myself. Earlier today I thought, "What if I could be at complete peace with myself on Monday, regardless of what the result is? Can't I just choose to accept either answer and be okay with it?" I'm trying to get to that point, because there is nothing I can do about it either way. I have literally done everything I can possibly do.
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
@wifeinraleigh28 Hold out until Monday and don't POAS. Take it from a POAS addict, it only makes you obsess more and if it's a positive (which I fully believe and hope it will be), enjoy that moment with your husband without doubting that it's actually true.
@Jsmorrissey Sometimes I can't believe the things that friends say to us through this journey. One of my friends (who is my age) has had two kids in the span of time that I've been trying, knows what I've been going through and still jokes that her husband looks at her and she gets pregnant...she has even joked that maybe she should lend him to me (which is both bizarre and stupid because we don't have any MFI issues). I think "maybe" she's trying to be supportive but has no idea how hurtful it is when she says things like that or flaunts it in my face that other people don't have a problem getting pregnant.
@mtpbadger Hang in there...you're almost there. I do think it's different for our significant others and although maybe not easier, but also not constantly in their faces. My DH often tells me that I think about it all too much but then I try to explain that it's just impossible not to....every twinge, cramp...every time you go to the bathroom, the thoughts are always there.
Good luck to you Monday ladies. We NEED more positives in this thread and 9/27 sounds like a good day for that to happen!!!! Can't wait to hear all of your news.
Multiple months of Clomid/Femara
End of March 2015: BFP with Femara! Saw heartbeat at 5.5 weeks. M/C at 11 weeks
Multiple more months of Femara
IUI #1 with Femara and Follistem 75 units: BFN
IUI #2 with Follistem 150 units: BFN
Dec 2015: 1st IVF. 10 eggs retrieved with 8 eggs fertilized. 5 day transfer of two embryos with 2 frozen embies. BFN
January 2016: FET #1 2 embryos: BFN
March 2016: 2nd IVF cycle. 4 eggs retrieved with 2 fertilized. Quick two day transfer of both embryos: BFN
April/May 2016 IVF #3. 11 eggs retrieved. 10 mature. 7 fertilized. 2 5AA blasts transferred 5/11/2016 BFN
September 2016 IVF #4: 17 follicles growing, premature ovulation through Cetrotide. Retrieval cancelled.
April 2017 IVF #5: 9 follicles growing, 6 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of three blasts. BFN
June 2017: IVF #6: 2 follicles growing, 5 eggs retrieved with 5 fertilized. Transfer of 5 3-day embryos. Chemical pregnancy. BFN
Nov/Dec 2017: Donor egg cycle. 33 eggs retrieved, 26 mature. 26 fertilized.
1) I'm so sorry about the BFNs lately. I hope you're taking care of yourselves and thinking positively on your next step in this sh*thole that is called Infertility.
2) I thought I was the only one who called it a big f*cking negative/plus. I didn't even know it was 'fat' for the longest time.
3) *tw* I'm the one with the positive (albeit low) beta. I'm officially declaring that from here on out, everyone is getting a BF*ckigP! Straight up Oprah - BFP for you! And you! BFP to the lady in the back! Look under your seat - BFP!!!!!
I feel as though I may cave and POAS. My DH is not helping my cause at all, in fact, he is encouraging it!! HA!!!!
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN
@Jsmorrissey FX for you if you do POAS!
@radmom27 I still haven't POAS and at this point, I will just be waiting until beta tomorrow. Thank you for the well wishes and I hope you are right!
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
All you ladies that have your beta tomorrow, I am sending out good thoughts for you!!!! Am looking forward to the positive updates tomorrow!!!! FX for you ladies!!!!
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN
DH: 36, No known issues
TTC since 11/2014
1000mg Metformin daily
Oct-Dec 2015: Letrozole 5mg, Ovidrel, TI = BFN x 2
Feb-May 2016: Letrozole 5mg, Ovidrel, TI, Prometrium = BFN x 3
August 2016: Clomid 100mg no response, Letrozole 5mg, Ovidrel, TI, Prometrium = BFN
Married: September 2013
TTC since April 2014, Dx: MFI
DH started Clomid Oct 2015
April-June 2016- 3 IUIs: All BFN
July 2016- IVF #1: 16 eggs ->1 PGS-normal embryo
Sept 2016- single FET #1: BFN
Nov 2016- IVF #2 16 eggs -> 3 PGS-normal embryos
Jan 2017- single FET #2: BFN
Feb 2017- endometrial scratch
March 2017- FET #3 (double transfer): BFP!
Beta #1: 386 (9dp5dt), Beta #2: 1,960 (12dp5dt)
Pregnant with: Triplets Twins Singleton
It's a GIRL!
EDD: November 16, 2017
Dx w/ preeclampsia: Updated delivery date: 10/4/17
Find me on the IG
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
I got the call and my beta is 179.3!!! I can't believe I'm pregnant! I'm crying happy tears!
Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
MFI (High DNA Fragmentation) & Mild endometriosis
Aug 2016 - May 2017 6 IUI's with letrozole - BFN
April 2017 - laparoscopy to remove mild endo
June 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU - Cancelled early ovulation, no eggs retrieved.
Aug/Sept 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU, cetrotide - 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature
5 eggs ICSI'd 6 eggs frozen - 1 day 5 blast transfered, 2 expanded blast frozen - BFP!
May 2018 - Baby girl born - Our Joy
TTC #2 since July 2019
July 2019 - FET - BFN
Jan 2020 - FET - canceled due to family health issues
Mar 2020 - FET - low beta - chemical pregnancy
July 2020 - ICSI'd remaining 6 eggs - 3 fertilized - 2 survived to early blast stage, transfered both - Chemical Pregnancy
MFI (High DNA Fragmentation) & Mild endometriosis
Aug 2016 - May 2017 6 IUI's with letrozole - BFN
April 2017 - laparoscopy to remove mild endo
June 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU - Cancelled early ovulation, no eggs retrieved.
Aug/Sept 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU, cetrotide - 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature
5 eggs ICSI'd 6 eggs frozen - 1 day 5 blast transfered, 2 expanded blast frozen - BFP!
May 2018 - Baby girl born - Our Joy
TTC #2 since July 2019
July 2019 - FET - BFN
Jan 2020 - FET - canceled due to family health issues
Mar 2020 - FET - low beta - chemical pregnancy
July 2020 - ICSI'd remaining 6 eggs - 3 fertilized - 2 survived to early blast stage, transfered both - Chemical Pregnancy
TTC#1: October 2015
dx: PCOS & MFI
IUI #1 w/Femara + Ovidrel June 2016 ~ BFP
July 2016: Blighted Ovum
IUI #2 w/Femara + Ovidrel September 2016 ~BFN
IUI #3 w/Femara + Ovidrel October 2016 ~BFN
IUI #4 w/Femara + Ovidrel November 2016 ~BFN
IVF with ICSI January 2017 ~BFN
FET February 2017 ~BFN
IVF with ICSI March 2017 ~BFP--Twins Due 12/8/17
Team Blue X 2!
@Lefemmeviolette - I am so sorry!
It's just so lame!
@wifeinraleigh - YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!! I am so ecstatic for you! I would be crying happy tears as well! Congrats!!!! I can't wait to hear the what the next BETA is!!!!!
AFM-I could not sleep last night...I started to cry because I don't feel that it worked and I'm not sure if I am ready to deal with the fact that I won't be able have any kids. Anyone I have expressed this to, says " you can just do it again" um...no, we can't and we won't. I have no idea how people who are OOP can afford to do this more than once. We would never take out a loan and my DH is not willing to use anymore of our savings. Which I am not either. Without any frozen, we will be out and it is stressing me out to the max. I can't even concentrate at work, which I am always able to put my personal life aside at work... There's my vent. Thank you!!!
***TW***
Married: May 2012
Me: 38 DH: 38
TTC since August 2014
BFP: March 2015
MC: April 2015 (9 weeks)
Diagnosis: DOR/Low AMH
Dec. 2015-50mg Clomid - BFN
Feb. 2016-IUI #1 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
April 2016 - IUI #2 100mg Clomid + Ovidrel = BFN
May 2016 - IUI #3 = BFN
September 2016 - IVF round #1 = BFN