Hello, everyone. I didn't see an introduction thread so I hope its ok I'm starting this new one to introduce myself and my story, (TW's all over the place) and sorry this is long. I'm part of the March 2017 board, I don't post much there and feel like I belong here more I am lucky enough to have my 2.5 year old daughter, but since her birth I've had two missed miscarriages. The first was discovered at the 8 week scan and the second was discovered at my 12 week scan, there had been a heart beat at the 8 week scan. I recently went through all the regular fertility testing with a specialist and they found out I have a chromosome issue that can cause early miscarriage and also a very small uterine septum. The doctor didn't think it was necessary to remove it.
My husband and I had just started to really come to terms that we might not have another baby and had given ourselves to October 2016 to get pregnant. This would give us a baby before I turned 40. Since the two losses I've really gone downhill and I needed to give myself a timeframe, I needed to know when I could move forward with my life. Anyway, here I am now 6w2d pregnant. It came as a big shock and at first I was doing really well, just going with the flow, but now I'm not doing so great. The past few days I started to have my usual morning sickness, so I thought ok well things are going along fine. Then today I started spotting, just that brown discharge that I know is so common and in fact I had it with all my pregnancies, including my daughter. But for some reason, it's got me spooked to the core. I just know this baby is going to end in another MC. And while before I thought I was handling this pregnancy all so well, cool calm and collected, I'm starting to feel panicky now and attached when I thought I was doing a good job at keeping it all at a distance. I'm even sitting here thinking "I think my sickness symptoms are gone", I feel like I can't trust my own judgement or instincts. My first US isn't until 8/19, two weeks away. I just don't even have the emotional energy to call the OBGYN and ask for an earlier scan or betas done.
Ugh, I'm a mess and I just needed to unload all that someplace where I know people would understand. Sorry if it was a little all over the place, it's like how do you fit almost two years of fertility issues in a short-ish post and cover all the important points, I tired
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Are you going to get the doppler? I saw on the March board that everyone is suggesting the Sonoline B (or something like that). I'm curious about them too, but I could just imagine me not being able to find it and sending myself into a panic. I did read someone said it worked for them around 9.5 weeks and others said 10 weeks. Your appointment is on the 12th? Good luck! I hope everything goes well and will be keeping an eye out for good news from you
I have a sonoline B Doppler and was able to hear in the middle of my 9th week (now almost 11). I know the fear of not being able to find them but I've found Bean every time, though the first go took a while and practice. It's NOT a great thing to do often but it has helped me in this anxious time where my last pregnancy was lost (lost probably around 9w, MC at 12w) until my next appt at 13w.
Creepy internet hugs! May we all have sticky babies!
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2010: son born 9/1
2013: 2 miscarriages + d&cs, both at 10 weeks: April & July
2014: son #2 born 6/29
2016: Baby girl stillborn at 21w6d 4/29 and baby boy stillborn at 20w 3d 11/16
Regarding baby dopplers- I bought the most popular one on Amazon yesterday actually!! It's called womb music heart beat monitor. Over 900 reviews, 4.5 stars. I'm going to use it sparingly (if I get that far) to ease my nerves! Praying like crazy it goes ok Friday. Will keep you updated on what happens! Thanks @Bok Bagok