TTCAL check-in July 11th

KyCade3013

Hey, I agree with all for day 20. My surges last 3 days (across 3) and I text twice a day and usually catch it in the afternoon. You can technically ovulate the same day as a positive OPK too. Anyways, your temps look like CD 20. 

Hopefulmommy1980

@reneeannemm I am sorry for everything you are going through

lilylover27

Hey everyone, sorry for the drive by post here but I just wanted to apologize for not being as active on the board the past week or so. I am just dealing with a lot of anxiety over TTCAL and I think about flying at the end of the month for a wedding I don't even want to go to anymore. I just want to let you all know that even though I may not be posting I still have my FX for everyone on here!

brooklyngirl18

@lilylover27 no need to apologize! we've all been there and totally get it. hugs, we are here when you're ready.

rainbowturtles

 Thinking of you, too @lilylover27 !

okay, I'm convinced that TTCAL-brain is a thing. Guess who just made chocolate chip cookies (gf) and forgot to put in the chocolate chips???!!!

AliciaGoose

@lilylover27 Thinking of you. Bump breaks are good sometimes to help with TTC anxiety in general.

@rainbowturtles Nooo! How could you ruin a perfectly good chocolate chip cookie like that? I think thats blasphemous. But who am I kidding, I would eat them anyway.

rainbowturtles

@AliciaGoose RIGHT?! Omg. THANKFULLY I noticed shortly after I put the first batch in the oven so managed to throw some chocolate chips on TOP of the cookies while they were cooking, and the second batch had both white and dark chocolate chips mixed in lol They're for DH and I know he won't care but still felt like a doofus lol

AliciaGoose

I am having a super rough TTCAL day today  I woke up on the verge of tears and knew it was going to go downhill from there. I hate how unpredictable the bad days are. I feel like things I think will trigger me usually don't (maybe because I have adequately prepared myself for them ahead of time?) but then random things or even nothing at all turn me into a mess. Today it was nothing at all. I even went down the rabbit hole of opening the bag of things I bought LO before the miscarriage in my closet. I think for whatever reason, I just needed to grieve today.

roxgibbons

@lilylover27 breaks are good and you need to take care of yourself. I hope you feel better soon- hugs 

ETA: @AliciaGoose I'm sorry. TTCAL is rough and some days are definitely worse than others. If grieving is what you need to do then that's ok. It's good to allow yourself to feel these things. I do hope you feel better soon and know that brighter days are ahead. 

HLD3194

@aliciagoose it's like you're in my mind. I totally was like that this week. 1 day fine then next a complete mess. I couldn't stop thinking that I should be 32 weeks today and that it seems like a bazillion girls have announced/given birth since my MC. I also have some items I was holding onto and hid after MC, well guess who found them when cleaning out my closet? Yep, utter mess and total ugly crying. Even though my MC was in Feb some days it still feels like yesterday. Also I have a friend who works at an OBGYN so when she talks about work its mostly about PG ladies. I want to shake her sometimes and be like WTF do you think I want to hear about someone's amazing PG. I would do anything to have my baby back or to be KU again. Also doesn't help that we have 1 more month to be KU by when I was due. I don't know why I have this pressure on myself to be KU by then but I just do.

brooklyngirl18

@AliciaGoose big hugs, i'm sorry you're having a rough day. i totally hear you that some days, the sadness hits out of the blue. take care of yourself

chloe97

Guys can I ask what is probably a stupid question, but I can't find the answer online and the nurse did not explain to me.

I went in for my CD 61 ultrasound and bloodwork today. The nurse said the lining was not too thick and and that I had a collapsing follicle on my left ovary. Based on my temping (which I started really late, so Im not 100% if it's accurate) but I think I'm 9Dpo. Would that make sense? What exactly is a collapsing follicle? A follicle after an egg was released or a cyst? And if it's after an egg was released, would you still be able to see it on DPO 9?  I'm a bit concerned that we are benched at had unprotected sex on dpo 4 bc I figured I had already ovulated.

Thanks so much!!

Hopefulmommy1980

@aliciagoose sorry you are having a rough time. Hug

@chloe97 I have no clue. I hope someone has the answer

brooklyngirl18

@chloe97 i had never heard of a collapsed follicle before but I just googled and it seems to be the term used after the egg is released for ovulation.

"The follicle or sac which houses the egg will enlarge and grow while the egg undergoes its maturing process. This “follicle growth” can be followed with ultrasound. When the egg is released (ovulation), the follicle will collapse giving us evidence by ultrasound that ovulation has taken place. Problems that may result from a malfunction in the ovulation process can usually be identified so that proper therapy can be instituted as early as the next cycle."

https://fertilitycenterofdallas.com/fertility-services/diagnostic-tests/follicle-growth-series/

chloe97

Thanks @brooklyngirl18! That's what I was thinking, I just hope that doesn't mean I ovulated later than I thought. I just heard back from the RE that bloodwork indicated ovulation and to call them in 2 weeks if no AF. AF SHOULD show up Wednesday or Thursday.

cmmiller531

@AliciaGoose I'm struggling hard this week too it just flat out sucks. 

@crazypt2285 it's not just you. I desperately want to be pregnant again before my EDD in October Thursday all I could think about was how close October is. Then it'll be Christmas and all of our cousins will be at Christmas with their babies and I won't have mine. I balled my eyes out at the thought. 

rainbowturtles

cmmiller531 said:

@AliciaGoose I'm struggling hard this week too it just flat out sucks. 

@crazypt2285 it's not just you. I desperately want to be pregnant again before my EDD in October Thursday all I could think about was how close October is. Then it'll be Christmas and all of our cousins will be at Christmas with their babies and I won't have mine. I balled my eyes out at the thought. 

This.  My EDD is (late) October, too. In fact, it was basically Halloween, which I worry about ruining one of my favorite days But two SILs will have fresh bambinos by Christmas

hugs.

AliciaGoose

@cmmiller531 @rainbowturtles Hugs 

cmmiller531

Thank you @rainbowturtles @AliciaGoose today
marks CD1... Fresh start new cycle... Right? Hugs back at you both. Big bear type ones!