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TTCAL Check-In July 4th

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Re: TTCAL Check-In July 4th

  • I've been lurking @chloe97...wow that is crazy!! So sorry for all the stress that must of caused you! Hope you feel better today. 
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  • @chloe97, that is the weirdest thing I've heard. I would've had no idea! Thanks for the educational tip but I'm really sorry you had to find out that way
    DH - 34, Me - 32
    Married 7/13
    TTC #1 since 10/13
    BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
    IUI #1 2/25/16

  • @RiverSong15 Sorry you’re feeling so down this week.  I hope things start looking up soon.  The waiting is awful, I hate it too.  Constantly thinking that I should be holding a newborn right now, and if not that at least I was a month+ PG.  This situation sucks, and feeling like we're not getting any younger doesn't help!

    @chloe97 Wow!  Good to know… but crazy!

    MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
    MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
    MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
    RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
    MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
    RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
    MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)

    RE #3: More testing 2023. 
    Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
    Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
    Lupron Depo March 2024.  Benched 3 months.

    FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)

    Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.

    FET #2: September 2024 (failed)

    FET #3: December 2024 (failed)

    #BitterHagPartyOf1

  • @chloe97 That is totally bananas! I'm really relieved it turned out to be something so silly and you can go ahead as planned with the next steps in your ttc journey.
    Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 <3
    TTC  09/15
    *TW Loss mentioned*
    BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
    MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
    TTCAL 3/2016
    Acupuncture 11/16
    Dx December 2016: unexplained 
    January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
    BFP #2 01/30/17  Please be a sticky baby!
    EDD: 10/15/17  Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 
    Ambrose born on his due date!

  • 1. Introduce yourself : I'm Laura

    2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): not sure what all the abbreviations mean, but I just had a MC on 7/6, and am trying to get out of my funk.  We were at 9 weeks and were shocked.  We got pregnant fairly easily, so we are just hoping that happens again when we try again (just not sure when I can, this is all new to me).

    3. Rants/raves: Don't really have one, other then the fact that Im mad that my doctors office couldn't get me in until 10 weeks, so there was no notice that something was wrong, and I was blind sided.  On top of it all when i went to get checked out yesterday, the first doctor didn't believe me that I was pregnant at all because I hadn't been checked out before and I MC'ed before I got there, and was all cleared out.  It was a rather rough day.

    4. GTKY: What's a life skill you wish you had? On the flip side of that, do you have any what might be called hidden talents?  I wish I knew how to sew.  I have very specific ideas of the types of curtains and pillows I want in my house and I cant find them anywhere, so I wish I could just sew them.
    **TW Loss/pregnancy mentioned**
    Married: 7/21/12
    BFP: 5/30/16 and MC on 7/6/16
    BFP: 12/4/16 Due 8/8/17 -- Its a boy! Born 8/14/17
    BFP: 5/19/19 and MC on 5/27/19
    BFP: 6/24/19, MC on 7/24/19
    BFP: 10/24, no heartbeat on 11/27, D&C 12/2
    Officially diagnosed with Secondary infertility and recurrent miscarriage
    IVF started Feb 2020
    retrieval and PGT testing: 18 retrieved, 17 mature, 16 fertilized, 9 to blast, 8 PGT normal.
    Transfer #1: June 14, 2020
    Mommy to a super cute havanesse puppy and baby boy! 
  • @littlebug2010 I am so sorry that not only you are going through this, but that doctors are not believing you. I hope we can help you here 
    Me: 30     DH: 31
    Married: 11.12.11
    TTC: Nov 2015
    BFP #1: 1.22.16                 MMC: 2.29.16 ( tetrasomy 11, partial deletion 1, XXX)
    D&C: 3.2.16
    BFP #2: 4.14.16                 CP: 4.17.16
    BFP #3: 6.10.2016             CP: 6.17.2016
    RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
    Chromosome karyotype- Normal both me and DH
    Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
    Clomid + TI Cycle #1: pending  8.15.16
    Fur mom to 2 sled masters: an Alaskan malamute and a malamute wolf hybrid 
    half marathon running, surgery loving trauma hand and reconstructive plastic surgery PA-C
    PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006

  • @chloe97 - That is nuts!! Im so sorry for all the added stress you must have been under.

    @ littlebug2010- Im sorry for your loss and for your experience at the drs office. I found out at an ultrasound at my drs office at 10 weeks so I can sympathize.
  • Thanks guys, when I finally figured this out last night and then confirmed via experiment, I felt a huge sense of relief. It feels blasphemous to say on this board, but I'm definitely NOT ready to be pregnant again yet. I need another 2 months of chill before I set down this path again.

    The good news is that I think my OPK is almost positive, so hopefully I get a temp spike in the next day or 2 and then I can count on AF arriving in 10-14 days. I was really set on 3 cycles before TTCAL, but I guess I'm going to have to go by the months. 
  • Thanks everyone!  The office was bad, but this is better :smile: I am just trying to stay positive, and look forward to the time when we can try again! 
    **TW Loss/pregnancy mentioned**
    Married: 7/21/12
    BFP: 5/30/16 and MC on 7/6/16
    BFP: 12/4/16 Due 8/8/17 -- Its a boy! Born 8/14/17
    BFP: 5/19/19 and MC on 5/27/19
    BFP: 6/24/19, MC on 7/24/19
    BFP: 10/24, no heartbeat on 11/27, D&C 12/2
    Officially diagnosed with Secondary infertility and recurrent miscarriage
    IVF started Feb 2020
    retrieval and PGT testing: 18 retrieved, 17 mature, 16 fertilized, 9 to blast, 8 PGT normal.
    Transfer #1: June 14, 2020
    Mommy to a super cute havanesse puppy and baby boy! 
  • @chloe97 that might be one of the weirdest things I've ever heard! i'm glad it worked out and you have time to heal emotionally. jeez that would have been quite a rollercoaster indeed.
    TW*** Child and loss mentioned
    Married 10/12
    DS 11/14
    Ectopic 2/16
    PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16
    IUI x 3- BFN
    Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage
    IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos
    FET- 6/17- BFP!
    Due Feb 15, 2017
  • @littlebug2010 Hello, welcome. I'm very sorry for your loss. You'll get the hang of the acronyms! Here's a list to help out, though I'm not sure if it's complete. 
    Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 <3
    TTC  09/15
    *TW Loss mentioned*
    BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
    MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
    TTCAL 3/2016
    Acupuncture 11/16
    Dx December 2016: unexplained 
    January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
    BFP #2 01/30/17  Please be a sticky baby!
    EDD: 10/15/17  Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 
    Ambrose born on his due date!

  • kmkremp7kmkremp7 member
    edited July 2016
    @RiverSong15 I have the same feelings this week! We went to a festival for 4th of July and literally every single person there was pregnant. I came home and got so flipping sad I'm not 32 weeks pregnant. I have so much anxiety about outlet due date next month. We have a wedding that day but not sure if we're going to go or not! 
    Married to my DH 7/18/15
    BFP 12/17/15
    MMC @ 18 weeks 4/7/16
  • @littlebug2010 I'm so sorry for your loss. My doctor won't see anyone until 8-10 weeks! It's so friggin ridiculous!  We were blindsided as well at our 20 week ultrasound to find out we lost our baby at 18 weeks. My Doctor said for the next pregnancy I'll be in there earlier and every two weeks. I'm also going to request they give me blood tests every couple days to determine my HcG is going up!! A friend didn't that after her loss. She went until her 2nd trimester because she was so paranoid look. Maybe your doctor would do the same thing if you request it??
    Married to my DH 7/18/15
    BFP 12/17/15
    MMC @ 18 weeks 4/7/16
  • @littlebug2010 I can't believe a Dr would do that. The things I hear about how some Dr's handle miscarriage are horrible. So sorry for your loss. Glad to hear you are trying to stay positive! Moving on to a cycle where I could try again (which just happened for me 3 days ago!) has honestly made me feel a lot happier.

    @chloe97 I still can not believe that is a thing! I am glad it worked out to be something so silly. But I honestly can't say I ever would have even thought of that! Sorry it gave you a scare but I'm glad it turned out well.
    **Formerly @aliciabhen**
    Me: 26 DH: 24
    Married: November 2015  <3
    TTC#1: January 2016
    BFP: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
    Computer Hope
  • @chloe97 what a rush of emotions!!!!!! I'm glad you're doing okay! 
  • mjolkmjolk member
    2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): Benched/TWW. Today was my first negative pregnancy test. I think the last few days of cramps and bleeding got rid of the rest.. I now have discharge that reminds me of fertile cm. maybe I'm about to ovulate?

    3. Rants/raves: still couldn't get myself to take a prenatal last night. the bottle has a big pregnant belly on it and the idea of that ever happening to me somehow seems like a fairytale, like I should feel stupid for even anticipating it by taking the vitamin, although I know there is no realistic reason to feel that way. The doctor never called me back on my bloodtest result but now that I'm not passing HPTs it isn't really a big deal. I like my new doctor but doctors offices are always such a mess. I like the idea of a midwife but I don't know how they work with insurance and how to even find one.

    4. GTKY: does athleticism count? I would love to be fit but I'm just an awkward clumsy mess!
    -----
    TW: Loss
    EDD: 1/14/2017 : Blighted Ovum : D&C @ 10w6d


  • RiverSong15RiverSong15 member
    edited July 2016
    @mjolk I understand your feelings about the PNVs. I stopped taking mine for a month after both losses. I just couldn't handle doing something that was associated with pregnancy in any way. I felt silly too, but you need to balance what's best for your mental health as well as your physical health. Would it maybe help to set a deadline, like "next CD1 is when I'll re-set everything for TTC?"

    ETA:

    @chloe97 I'm glad you figured out what was going on and (although it feels blasphemous to say) I'm glad you aren't PG this cycle before you're ready to be.

    @kmkremp7 Are we the same person? DH and I also have an OOT wedding next month exactly on my due date. I can't decide if the distraction will be good or if I'll be thinking that I shouldn't even be there the entire time. Hugs. Due dates are hard.
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