Last night we went to a baseball major league baseball game. I was super nervous because the temp has been in the high 90s. We got their early to see the celebrity softball game, and fortunately DH's coworkers (his boss gave out free tickets) go us a seat at a bar with a/c where you could still see the field. We stayed their until our seats were in the shade and finally made the long hot walk over to our seats. I started to realize why they were free... they were the highest, steepest seats possible and in the middle of the row, far away from any aisle or exit. Pretty much as soon as we sat down, I was overwhelmed with a major anxiety attack and I did not handle it well. I'm not normally afraid of heights but I think it was a combo of the crowd, feeling hot/swollen/exhausted/short of breath, the location of the seat, etc. I think I'm messed up from passing out at work at 14 weeks and in the back of my mind I always fear it happening again.
Anyways, DH noticed something was wrong and when I tried to tell him I just couldn't help crying. A bunch of his coworkers and his boss's wife were right there. We just left without explaining. I feel like shit that I ruined the game and while he was super supportive, I know he's kind of worried that everyone he works with thinks he made me cry or something.
I think I need to just need to recognize the limitations of my pregnant self, I feel like my mind and body are so much less resilient right now. I also think I might need some therapy. This is the worst incident, but similar things have happened since I passed out. Anyways, that's my long confession, I just had to get it out!
@Blonde1817 ... Don't beat yourself up over it. I'm sure he'll be able to talk to his coworkers on Momday and explain a little.
I don't think therapy is a bad idea of your feeling super stressed or overwhelmed. A psychologist could help you with methods to cope when you're having a tough moment. Hang in there!
@Blonde1817 I'm so sorry that happened It sounds like a stressful situation for someone who is not pregnant! Seems like your DH has your back and I'm sure his colleagues will understand when he explains. If anything, they're just worried you're ok. Feel better and have a relaxing Sunday!
@annabenanna That's awesome! My friend canceled on my and now I want sushi so bad! WAH! I'll try to get some tonight after we watch a movie. DH and I want to have a day date and we might watch Finding Dori because the Conjuring 2 is not something I can do right now lol
@AllyTheKid That's awesome! I'm loving that age difference. Mine will be 18 months apart and it'll be absolute beautiful chaos. Here's hoping that everyone turns out to be best friends!
@Blonde1817 I'm so sorry you went through that and like the people above said I'm sure once hubby explains it they'll all feel concern for you as well so don't beat yourself up. I'm sure we're all struggling trying to figure out how much these pregnant bodies can take and what the limitations are.
As someone that suffers from mild anxiety but has friends that are more severe, I think it's a great idea to see someone. Therapy works, but so does a life coach, someone to help you figure out the root of the attacks and how to move through them.
@Michi1382 This will definitely be an adventure! I have hope though My twin sister and I were/are close with my brother who is 15 months older than us, and FI and his 13 month older brother fought like crazy but were best friends.
@Blonde1817 It's crazy because I had an eerily similar experience last night. On a whim, we decided to go to the Orioles game. I'm a huge fan and have been to hundreds of games so it's not like it's an unfamiliar place. Right before we left, H got in a fight with his mom (side note, she's an addict and fell off the wagon for the umpteenth time, but that's another story for another day). Anyway, I was already on edge when we left for the game because of the confrontation between H and MIL and because I'm worried I'll have to be the bad guy when the baby comes and H goes all soft allows his mother to come back around. We parked in our usual garage, about 10 blocks from the stadium, walked over, got sandwiches, found our seats and sat down. I was becoming increasingly agitated as the game went on. I couldnt find a comfortable position to sit in, I felt like couldn't breathe, It was only about 75 degrees but I was hot and swollen and couldn't sit still. We decided to get up and walk a bit to catch a breeze and then my feet were killing me. We NEVER leave games early but I just couldn't hang. I was so anxious and uncomfortable and exhausted. It was awful. Now I feel bad because we spent like $30 each on the tickets plus $20 for parking and whatever else on food and beer for H. I feel like we wasted $100+. I hope it's not like that everytime we try to do something this summer!
Me: 32 & DH: 37
Married: November 2014
TTC #1 Since: October 2015
BFP #1: 11/18/15 - CP BFP #2: 2/8/16 - EDD 10/20/16 IT'S A BOY!!!! DS Born 10/16/16
@MRSCORKER... I feel like, among other things, it's a space issue at games. You're typically just so packed in, it's warm. I can't blame you for feeling overwhelmed
Baby's already making it hard for me to breathe. Combined with heat, I think that would be enough to do me in. I'm excited for her to drop - DS was low almost my whole pregnancy last time (maybe I will avoid the PP kangaroo pouch this time? unlikely)...
@MRSCORKER probably didn't help your agitation that my Jays were spanking your Orioles last night - today's game is closer (with you guys winning)
It was pretty pathetic! I'm just so grateful to have had a contending team these past few years. I stuck with them through a decade + of losing seasons. Can't win them all but it's nice to come close
Me: 32 & DH: 37
Married: November 2014
TTC #1 Since: October 2015
BFP #1: 11/18/15 - CP BFP #2: 2/8/16 - EDD 10/20/16 IT'S A BOY!!!! DS Born 10/16/16
@MRSCORKER probably didn't help your agitation that my Jays were spanking your Orioles last night - today's game is closer (with you guys winning)
It was pretty pathetic! I'm just so grateful to have had a contending team these past few years. I stuck with them through a decade + of losing seasons. Can't win them all but it's nice to come close
Ya I only became a real fan about 4-5 years ago (I like our tv announcer, I find him calming). Last year it was funny to watch all the bandwagoners when the Jays were on the way to the championships and where are they all now??
@ibabyloveb87 which app do you recommend? I do like the Glow pregnancy app so I thought I'd download the baby version. I have to see if Ovia has a baby one because I like their pregnancy app too. Those are the 2 I use.
@LGW2015 Ovia Pregnancy is my favorite and I used the fertility app before I got pregnant too...I'm not sure if there's another one or not. I maybe just haven't spent enough time with the Glow app??
Me:33 DH: 34 Married: May 2011 TTC #1: May 2015 DS: 10/20/2016 TTC #2: June 2019 #2 EDD: 2/20/2020
The steak I had last night was no where near well done.
I eat steak that's not well done too. We rarely ever eat steak, but when we do I have it medium.
Uh oh, is medium considered flammable? Because my nod to this rule is eating steaks medium rare instead of rare
I don't think so... Trust where your meat is coming from and you and baby will be fine!
There was some blood on the plate, I call it medium, maybe some would call it medium rare, it was hot through out though blue rare is too much for me. I was at a restaurant so honestly how reliable the source is could be questionable if you watch documentaries about the food industry. *hanging head in shame*
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Last night we went to a baseball major league baseball game. I was super nervous because the temp has been in the high 90s. We got their early to see the celebrity softball game, and fortunately DH's coworkers (his boss gave out free tickets) go us a seat at a bar with a/c where you could still see the field. We stayed their until our seats were in the shade and finally made the long hot walk over to our seats. I started to realize why they were free... they were the highest, steepest seats possible and in the middle of the row, far away from any aisle or exit.
Pretty much as soon as we sat down, I was overwhelmed with a major anxiety attack and I did not handle it well. I'm not normally afraid of heights but I think it was a combo of the crowd, feeling hot/swollen/exhausted/short of breath, the location of the seat, etc. I think I'm messed up from passing out at work at 14 weeks and in the back of my mind I always fear it happening again.
Anyways, DH noticed something was wrong and when I tried to tell him I just couldn't help crying. A bunch of his coworkers and his boss's wife were right there. We just left without explaining. I feel like shit that I ruined the game and while he was super supportive, I know he's kind of worried that everyone he works with thinks he made me cry or something.
I think I need to just need to recognize the limitations of my pregnant self, I feel like my mind and body are so much less resilient right now. I also think I might need some therapy. This is the worst incident, but similar things have happened since I passed out. Anyways, that's my long confession, I just had to get it out!
It's a boy!
I don't think therapy is a bad idea of your feeling super stressed or overwhelmed. A psychologist could help you with methods to cope when you're having a tough moment. Hang in there!
It sounds like a stressful situation for someone who is not pregnant! Seems like your DH has your back and I'm sure his colleagues will understand when he explains. If anything, they're just worried you're ok. Feel better and have a relaxing Sunday!
DS#2 due 25 April 2019
@AllyTheKid That's awesome! I'm loving that age difference. Mine will be 18 months apart and it'll be absolute beautiful chaos. Here's hoping that everyone turns out to be best friends!
As someone that suffers from mild anxiety but has friends that are more severe, I think it's a great idea to see someone. Therapy works, but so does a life coach, someone to help you figure out the root of the attacks and how to move through them.
Me: 32 & DH: 37
BFP #2: 2/8/16 - EDD 10/20/16
IT'S A BOY!!!!
DS Born 10/16/16
DH: 34
Married: May 2011
TTC #1: May 2015
DS: 10/20/2016
TTC #2: June 2019
#2 EDD: 2/20/2020
Me: 32 & DH: 37
BFP #2: 2/8/16 - EDD 10/20/16
IT'S A BOY!!!!
DS Born 10/16/16
DH: 34
Married: May 2011
TTC #1: May 2015
DS: 10/20/2016
TTC #2: June 2019
#2 EDD: 2/20/2020
*hanging head in shame*