I don't remember ever feeling THIS exhausted in my entire life. Just thinking of walking to the bathroom a million times makes me tired. On a scale of 1 - 10 of how well I'm functioning today, I would probably be a -5.
I'm so over working. And the worst part of it is that I'm getting a new boss, and my old boss (who I really like and admire) totally called me on it! Being called out on my lack of motivation and enthusiasm has made me feel so guilty and embarrassed. I keep thinking to myself, "Just a few more weeks..." Then I can just have a clean slate with a new boss and start over.
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I know his has been said a lot recently, but seriously - All these aches and pains!!! I feel like this kid spends all night/early morning practicing for some sort of MMA tournament. And I wake up every morning feeling defeated. I really could not imagine still being at work. I'm pretty sure they'd be asking me to leave if I were still showing up because my attitude and desire to do anything would be so terrible!!
I feel like this could go in symptoms but I'm feeling really b*tchy about it today so I'll post it here instead. Overall total discomfort today. My feet are swollen, my back & shoulders are stiff, my fingers/hands are tingly/numb. The chair at my desk is completely uncomfortable and I'm slouching in it for comfort on my back putting baby up to my ribs and making it hurt there. I'm exhausted and have a meeting this afternoon that will probably last until after 6pm... I have a whole new reason to hate Monday.
We're required to do a time study at work today and tomorrow so I'm 100% accountable for the work I do (or don't do) for the next 2 days. It's a slow week anyways and with my lack of motivation I'm stressed about it since I can't just be physically present at my desk, I need to actually do crap.
Work for me, too. I'm a bartender and I just don't know if I can do it anymore. I talked to SO last night and today might be my last day working until after the baby. I wanted to work through the end of the month - and I'm already down to 2 or 3 days a week - but I'm still exhausted from being on my feet all day yesterday. My legs hurt, I feel bulky and enormous.. And then the girl who was supposed to work with me today called out. I'm over it and haven't even made it to work yet.
My cousin has lived with us since she moved up here from California last year. This morning I see on Facebook that her cousin from the other side of the family that I have met once in my life BOUGHT A PLANE TICKET TO COME VISIT HER HERE IN ONE MONTH. I am due in three weeks. DID ANYONE THINK TO CHECK IF I WANTED A FUCKING HOUSEGUEST WITH A NEWBORN? NOPE.
DD and I both have horrible allergies (she's 6 but ended up taking 2 naps on her own yesterday) - I didn't sleep at all last night. And DH, who has no allergies, is home sick today, ended up getting up at 2am puking with some random stomach bug. I've been cleaning the house today to hopefully rid this place of whatever germs and allergens are floating around.
Contractions!!! I am 35 weeks today, but for the past 4-5 days I've started getting contractions more frequently. I got monitored, and they aren't pre-term labor, just annoying and painful. Last night I had 3-4 of them that were so painful I worried it might be the start of labor (but luckily they stopped). I just need to make it at least a few more weeks until closer to my due date, and I hope these contractions aren't going to be a regular thing for the rest of my pregnancy.
My cousin has lived with us since she moved up here from California last year. This morning I see on Facebook that her cousin from the other side of the family that I have met once in my life BOUGHT A PLANE TICKET TO COME VISIT HER HERE IN ONE MONTH. I am due in three weeks. DID ANYONE THINK TO CHECK IF I WANTED A FUCKING HOUSEGUEST WITH A NEWBORN? NOPE.
I don't feel like working today. My nausea isn't horrible but the more active I am the worse it gets. I also don't want to deal with the HR lady that's been a total ass about my FMLA. I have 8 minutes before I have to actually get up and go. I hate Monday's. Sick day??
@stellaluna14 oh heck no! Worst time to have guests, especially if they're strangers!!!
my bitch is I am sick of people telling me I'm going to have a huuuuuuge baby. All of my aunts say this baby is going to be soooooooo big. They say it every single time I see them/talk to them it makes me so f'ing uncomfortable. Just shut up!!!!
I'm so over working. And the worst part of it is that I'm getting a new boss, and my old boss (who I really like and admire) totally called me on it! Being called out on my lack of motivation and enthusiasm has made me feel so guilty and embarrassed. I keep thinking to myself, "Just a few more weeks..." Then I can just have a clean slate with a new boss and start over.
I'm with ya! Although my boss hasn't called me out on it, yet. I'm patiently waiting for her to write me up due to poor performance. Come on July 15th!
So. Tired. Working 1-9 tonight and then going to a doctors appointment tomorrow then working 2-10. Turning around and working 9-5 Wednesday. I'm so sick of work. My last day is July 14th and it couldn't come any faster. I'm wondering if the baby will come before I make it that far. Work is too stressful and being on my feet all day is killing my back.
I have never been one to complain about nurses because I know they do so much work and it's kind of a thankless job. But I am so done with this one nurse at my clinic. She's done maybe two or three of my NSTs and every single time makes some hurtful comment about how I'm only 23 and am having issues with high blood pressure. It makes me think she's somehow implying it's my fault and it makes me feel crappy. She also accused me today of messing with the NST machine-volume, cords, paper, etc. Only 3 more of these tests, but I'm really hoping I don't have to see her again!
My cousin has lived with us since she moved up here from California last year. This morning I see on Facebook that her cousin from the other side of the family that I have met once in my life BOUGHT A PLANE TICKET TO COME VISIT HER HERE IN ONE MONTH. I am due in three weeks. DID ANYONE THINK TO CHECK IF I WANTED A FUCKING HOUSEGUEST WITH A NEWBORN? NOPE.
Even if you weren't about to have a baby, that's totally unacceptable to not ask first. I'd say sorry not sorry, she'll have to find another place to stay or cancel the trip bc newborn. People are so fucking stupid and inconsiderate.
My continuous bitch is sleep, if I don't get some soon, I am going to lose it.
My second bitch is my FIL, who has always been a quiet man, until my last trimester, where he has to make rude comments/ask uncomfortable questions. I have seen him the last 4 weekends, and each time he has something to the effect of, "Whoa you are huge, you are getting bigger every time I see you", "How much weight have you gained, are you going to lose it when the baby is born", "Are you really eating again", and my favorite "Has your milk come in yet". WTF! He never says any of this in front of DH, but damn, keep your comments to yourself!
@stellaluna14 oh heck no! Worst time to have guests, especially if they're strangers!!!
my bitch is I am sick of people telling me I'm going to have a huuuuuuge baby. All of my aunts say this baby is going to be soooooooo big. They say it every single time I see them/talk to them it makes me so f'ing uncomfortable. Just shut up!!!!
Oh, god, I feel you on that one! Everyone keeps going on and on about how big the baby is going to be even though I have asked them to stop. To add insult to injury, since I found out I likely have to have a C-section due to baby being breech, people keep saying "Well you should be thankful for that, he will probably be so big!" Yeah, the prospect of being cut open while I am still awake isn't horrifying or my worst nightmare or anything. Thanks for deciding it's better for me anyway.
Our upstairs toilet broke today. I spend most of my bed rest in our bedroom where it's nice and cool, which is upstairs. Now I have to go downstairs every single time I need to pee, which as you know is very very often. I'm exhausted and I've only made the up and down three times so far today.
@stellaluna14 OHHHH HELLLLLLL NO! I would shut that sh!t down SO fast! You should definitely feel no obligation whatsoever to have uninvited house guests tracking in travel germs and disrupting your first few days/weeks home with a newborn. That's a hell of a lotta nerve from your cousin inviting her regardless...
My b!tch is also work. Though my manager keeps telling me I'm doing a great job and assigning me little to no work. I feel like they're going to fuss at me eventually for doing 2-3 hours of legit work daily. My day is snacking, bathroom breaks, breathing through BH, rolling my hips around on my yoga ball, and bumping at this point... No one is giving me flack, but I'd KILL for a nap and it's a serious struggle to remain upright and wearing pants all day long. Working until I pop was an insane idea- WTF was I thinking? The OWTs are not helping me pop any faster either! Ugh. So done.
@stellaluna14 - The guest would definitely have to get a hotel room or cancel altogether. I'd also have a chat with your cousin about whose house it is and let her know that if she wants to invite people to randomly stay with her, she has two choices - check with those who actually own the house first and abide by whatever answer she's given, or find herself somewhere else to stay and then she can invite whoever whenever.
So there's this boy. He kinda stole my heart. He calls me "Mom"
@schaze WTF? She accused you of messing with the machine? What a freak!!!! Infuriating.
@adough27 I would punch your FIL in the face, especially since he only says it when your DH isn't around! Next time he makes a comment just lay into him: "Yep, I'm pregnant. What's YOUR excuse?"
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@schaze - I think I'd be mentioning that nurse to the doctor or the office manager... whichever would be more likely do something about it. I'm thinking if she's being that way toward you, then it's highly likely that she's being that way toward other patients as well. Her behavior is absolutely not okay.
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@Kellyj103 my MIL keeps telling me that too! It doesn't help any that I have gd, so I'm already worried about that! I keep having dreams I birth a 14lb baby because she says it so damn much!
UPDATE: I flipped my shit this morning and told her how incredibly pissed I was and that it was incredibly inappropriate to have a houseguest without asking, especially anytime around my due date. Luckily there's a separate kitchen and bathroom upstairs so I'm making them stay away unless invited into the rest of the house and told her that if she doesn't get a tdap booster than she can GTFO. Seemed like a fair compromise.
Still angry, but blasting my anger outwards feels good.
The weight gain is getting to me. My daily meals always look like this; a bran cereal for breakfast, a snack plate of fruits and veggies late morning. A quesadilla with another piece of fruit mid afternoon, and a sensible dinner (lean meat, half plate veggies, a palm-sized portion of sauteed red potatoes, or a light homemade chili). It's how I've always eaten, with the exception of my first trimester where only carbs stayed down. Having my doctor chastise me for gaining 30 lbs in 36 ish weeks doesn't help. My history with anorexia doesn't help.
I want to yell at my doctor that my premie husband weighed as much as I did at birth, I was born at 43 1/2 weeks and was a healthy 8+ lbs! His mother smoked like a chimney and did drugs while pregnant, and he still came out huge at just before 36 weeks. I probably have a huge baby, or a huge placenta, or a whole lot of amniotic fluid because I drink nearly 100 oz. of water a day. I am within acceptable limits that he set, he's been on me about my weight gain since 16 or so weeks, and I remind him everytime we talk about it that I'm a recovering anorexic. Know your audience, doc!
@Nerdchild Your doctor is an asshole. You are doing a fantastic job and need to not pay attention to the numbers on the scale (I know easier said then done)
@Nerdchild fuck that guy. You are doing a great job! It isn't like you are eating pizza and cake every meal, and even if you were, so what? Your body is going to out on whatever weight it needs to.
@Nerdchild screw your doctor! That sounds like an extremely sensible diet and an average amount of weight gain! I've gained 40 lbs and my doc isn't worried at all as I am very healthy, no GD and have awesome low blood pressure. I had that shitty doctor before who always put me down about weight back in 2nd tri and I switched. I know how my body reacts to changes like this and I also know that to maintain healthy weight I have to work on several times a week and be on a strict diet (which I will get back to after cleared by the doc). Only you know how your body works and what feels ok which I'm sure is why you have developed this healthy routine with meals. Try to focus these last few weeks on you and your beautiful baby you are building!
Thanks @Weville and @blissylissy86. The female o.b. I see never says a word about my weight, my male o.b. brings it up at EVERY appt I have with him. I hope he doesn't treat all of his patients this way.
@Nerdchild can you tell them you don't want to see him anymore? Explain what he's doing to you stress wise which to me would be more traumatic on your baby than the healthy amount of weight you've gained.
@nerdchild, I agree with everyone else, you are eating healthy and working hard at growing a little one and you are doing a great job. I have gained 43 lbs. and I am almost 36 weeks and my doctor has said nothing to me about it.
@thepen15ismighty I should only need to see him 2 more times, tops, until they would induce me, less if she comes before that. I'm secretly hoping that I have a monster-sized baby and that he is the one to deliver her. I would love to have that 'I told you so!' moment.
@Nerdchild just wanna echo everyone else's sentiments that your doctor is a d-bag. No way do you need to be stressing about 30 lbs at 36 weeks, that's healthy and normal weight gain for ANY pregnant woman. Kudos to you for sticking to your meals like that, I know especially at this stage, that can be hard to stick to! Wonder how much weight he'll gain when he's pregnant... Oh wait!
@nerdchild i have a history of ED too and if my doctor said anything about my (40+ lb and mostly due to pizza and ice cream) weight gain, it would be traumatizing. your meal plan and 30 lbs sound completely healthy and normal! I can't believe your doc persists in commenting on the gain despite your reminders--it seems not only insensitive but also incredibly irresponsible. throat punch to him!
@Nerdchild 30lbs in 36 weeks is absolutely amazing, and you should be proud of yourself for eating so healthy!! No way I'm eating that well, and I'm not worried at all. Baby is getting fed like royalty. Forget what he says, and request the woman if you can. Go you!
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I feel like this could go in symptoms but I'm feeling really b*tchy about it today so I'll post it here instead. Overall total discomfort today. My feet are swollen, my back & shoulders are stiff, my fingers/hands are tingly/numb. The chair at my desk is completely uncomfortable and I'm slouching in it for comfort on my back putting baby up to my ribs and making it hurt there. I'm exhausted and have a meeting this afternoon that will probably last until after 6pm... I have a whole new reason to hate Monday.
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I just need to make it at least a few more weeks until closer to my due date, and I hope these contractions aren't going to be a regular thing for the rest of my pregnancy.
eta: work is slowly killing me.
my bitch is I am sick of people telling me I'm going to have a huuuuuuge baby. All of my aunts say this baby is going to be soooooooo big. They say it every single time I see them/talk to them it makes me so f'ing uncomfortable. Just shut up!!!!
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my bitch is sleep. I'd really prefer to fall asleep before 3am on a daily basis.
My second bitch is my FIL, who has always been a quiet man, until my last trimester, where he has to make rude comments/ask uncomfortable questions. I have seen him the last 4 weekends, and each time he has something to the effect of, "Whoa you are huge, you are getting bigger every time I see you", "How much weight have you gained, are you going to lose it when the baby is born", "Are you really eating again", and my favorite "Has your milk come in yet". WTF! He never says any of this in front of DH, but damn, keep your comments to yourself!
My b!tch is also work. Though my manager keeps telling me I'm doing a great job and assigning me little to no work. I feel like they're going to fuss at me eventually for doing 2-3 hours of legit work daily. My day is snacking, bathroom breaks, breathing through BH, rolling my hips around on my yoga ball, and bumping at this point... No one is giving me flack, but I'd KILL for a nap and it's a serious struggle to remain upright and wearing pants all day long. Working until I pop was an insane idea- WTF was I thinking? The OWTs are not helping me pop any faster either! Ugh. So done.
So there's this boy. He kinda stole my heart. He calls me "Mom"
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@adough27 I would punch your FIL in the face, especially since he only says it when your DH isn't around! Next time he makes a comment just lay into him: "Yep, I'm pregnant. What's YOUR excuse?"
So there's this boy. He kinda stole my heart. He calls me "Mom"
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Still angry, but blasting my anger outwards feels good.
I want to yell at my doctor that my premie husband weighed as much as I did at birth, I was born at 43 1/2 weeks and was a healthy 8+ lbs! His mother smoked like a chimney and did drugs while pregnant, and he still came out huge at just before 36 weeks. I probably have a huge baby, or a huge placenta, or a whole lot of amniotic fluid because I drink nearly 100 oz. of water a day. I am within acceptable limits that he set, he's been on me about my weight gain since 16 or so weeks, and I remind him everytime we talk about it that I'm a recovering anorexic. Know your audience, doc!
Eta: thanks as well to @AAAG13
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