@catiecatp thanks. I'm so worried if I'll know when the time is right or not. I don't want to put her to sleep too soon, but I don't want her to suffer either.
@Spartanrd4 I'm sorry to hear about your mother's dog. Cancer sucks.
@reneeannemm thanks for your support. Just when I think I'm begining to heal from my loss this happens. I can only hope that happier days are in my future.
Oh no, @MooFish2364. I'm sure you will know when. I have unfortunately been in this position a few times, and the "when" has always presented itself. Sending you and @Spartanrd4 lots of love for your furry babes.
I just need to vent for a minute. I didn't want to open up a new thread just to blow off steam, so I'm going to put it here. *TW others' pregnancies mentioned*
I am sick and tired of my Facebook feed being full of ultrasound photos. No one but you and your closest friends and family wants to see that. One girl even posted her 7wk US!!! How freaking arrogant can you be? Like nothing bad could ever happen to you. Just quit rubbing it in my face (though I know they are just excited and happy). I know it is completely irrational to feel the way I do, but loss brain is making me crazy. On top of all that, I had a +OPK on Sunday (all negative since), and my past two morning bbts have been high temps, 4 days of fertile CM, so I thought I would get crosshairs if my temp stayed high tomorrow. But now my crazy body has decided to completely throw me off by producing copious amounts of EWCM today. I'm exhausted, in a terrible mood (obviously), and the last thing I want to do is HIO right now. Like, seriously body, get it together. Rant over.
Thanks for listening. Just writing it out has been cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this amazing community and all you wonderful ladies. I don't know what I'd do without you all.
@cjs260 Ahh, sorry. People are a bit daft when they're excited. It brings up complicated feelings to experience things like that after loss, like an ache you can't do anything about. I truly hate baby-making sex, so I understand and regularly FREAK out around ovulation - not knowing is a special kind of misery.
Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 TTC 09/15 *TW Loss mentioned* BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16 MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3 TTCAL 3/2016 Acupuncture 11/16 Dx December 2016: unexplained January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI = BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby! EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 Ambrose born on his due date!
@reneeannemmI know I should have a better outlook towards that stuff, and 90% of the time I do. I just can't today. Baby making sex is for sure the worst type of sex. And we keep running into what I have deemed "pressure peen" (the anxious cousin of whiskey d*ck). Which just makes it ~soooooo~ much better *eyeroll*. I'm sorry you feel that way too. I just wish this was as easy as they made it seem in Sex Ed.
@cjs260 Rant away! I understand the kick in the crotch it is to feel inundated by other people's pregnancies. It's what led me to quit FB back in November. I have to say it has been a lovely thing.
I'm sorry you've had a rough week WTO. It can just all be too much sometimes. We are here to listen!
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
@cjs260 haha pressure peen!! I love it! My DH has this too...I can't let him know when I'm at peak fertility per opk or he'll freak himself out! Very frustrating.
I'm so so sorry about your kitty @MooFish2364 That's so unfair. Hoping you get the happier days you are wanting soon.
@reneeannemm I'm pretty close to the border so I think that's why the OLP crept in here. They were my favorite band in HS but of course everything with them went downhill around 2004ish. Helped me through the teen angst. 4am is one of my favorites.
You all are making me nervous about baby making sex lmao And I distinctly recall when I told him it was okay because my period was due in two days and it took him about three times before he actually could because of nerves or whatever, so I can only imagine..... And sorry you're having a tough time @cjs260 Babies and pregnancies are just EVERYWHERE (all over my tv!!!) when we want this so badly
Haha @cjs260 Oh I can imagine! I have chronic pain/fatigue so I know it's going to be a struggle at times for that reason, too! Especially if it's taking a while....lol Oh the things we go through
@cjs260 I decided this week that I'm avoiding fb for that reason. It just wasn't making me happy anymore. I still have my profile up because I have family all over the country that I like to keep in touch with. I have one friend in the ICU and another about to give birth, so I just check their pages and see if I have any notifications. Other than that I avoid it like the plague. I thought that I would really miss it because I used to check it constantly, but I really don't.
Oh, and pressure peen. That is halarious! I have a sneaking suspicion that same things been happening at my house. It's getting better but the first few months TTC it was rampant.
If it makes you feel better @cjs260 I'm a high school teacher and it is a total gut punch when my students get pregnant or I see younger kids pregnant or my high school kids on their second or third child. I just want to scream. It's even worse when they talk about their abortions. I'm sure all of you can sympathize that it's frustrating when we people get pregnant so easy and you can't.
Re: TTCAL Check-In Week of 4/18
@Spartanrd4 I'm sorry to hear about your mother's dog. Cancer sucks.
@reneeannemm thanks for your support. Just when I think I'm begining to heal from my loss this happens. I can only hope that happier days are in my future.
@fivetimesnoluck thank you.
@roper2617 thanks.
*siggy warning*
mmc . mar 2016
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
mmc x2 . sep 2018 & may 2019
RE workup, dx MTHFR mutation, ultimately unexplained . summer 2019
surprise BFP . aug 2019
DS . may 2020
dx Hashimoto's 2023
ttc #3 . feb 2023
mmc . apr 2023
mmc x3 . mar/jul/aug 2024
dx elevated nk cells
tx ovasitol, levothyroxine, baby aspirin, LP progesterone, lovenox, prednisone, femara + ti . jan 2025
BFP . mar 2025
I am sick and tired of my Facebook feed being full of ultrasound photos. No one but you and your closest friends and family wants to see that. One girl even posted her 7wk US!!! How freaking arrogant can you be? Like nothing bad could ever happen to you. Just quit rubbing it in my face (though I know they are just excited and happy). I know it is completely irrational to feel the way I do, but loss brain is making me crazy. On top of all that, I had a +OPK on Sunday (all negative since), and my past two morning bbts have been high temps, 4 days of fertile CM, so I thought I would get crosshairs if my temp stayed high tomorrow. But now my crazy body has decided to completely throw me off by producing copious amounts of EWCM today. I'm exhausted, in a terrible mood (obviously), and the last thing I want to do is HIO right now. Like, seriously body, get it together. Rant over.
Thanks for listening. Just writing it out has been cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this amazing community and all you wonderful ladies. I don't know what I'd do without you all.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
I'm sorry you've had a rough week WTO. It can just all be too much sometimes. We are here to listen!
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
@reneeannemm I'm pretty close to the border so I think that's why the OLP crept in here. They were my favorite band in HS but of course everything with them went downhill around 2004ish. Helped me through the teen angst. 4am is one of my favorites.
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
And thanks, ladies, for listening to my bad mood ravings.
Oh, and pressure peen. That is halarious! I have a sneaking suspicion that same things been happening at my house. It's getting better but the first few months TTC it was rampant.