This morning I'm lying my way out of seriously the 8th toddler birthday party in the last 3 months. My excuses are getting lamer and lamer since nobody believes I'm "out of town" this late in my pregnancy.
@LadyStardust179 I understand that completely! I'm down to a handful of things that still fit and most of them are pajamas.
Confession: I might call into work today. Chasing a class full of two year olds with little one squishing herself into my pelvis, like she is right now, just doesn't sound like a good combination today.
Now that I have a newborn at home, I feel like I am in no way qualified to be a mom and keep a tiny human alive. My baby terrifies me and completes me all at once.
This morning I'm lying my way out of seriously the 8th toddler birthday party in the last 3 months. My excuses are getting lamer and lamer since nobody believes I'm "out of town" this late in my pregnancy.
This is probably an UO, but I don't get why people throw huge birthday parties for babies/toddlers.
Now that I have a newborn at home, I feel like I am in no way qualified to be a mom and keep a tiny human alive. My baby terrifies me and completes me all at once.
I kept feeling this way with my son. I actually asked out loud "Who authorized me to be a mom?!" I had so many moments of wondering how I could be expected to keep him alive and not screw up. But then I would remember that he is MINE. I made him from scratch, every inch of him, and he is a piece of me. I made so many mistakes, but I learned from them. That is not to say I won't make those exact same mistakes with Luna, but I tried so hard not to let the parenting fails take me down. No one but you will remember the time you went out without diapers and had to wrap your scarf around your kid's butt or the time you didn't screw the nipple on the bottle tight enough and spilled 4 oz of breast milk all over your screaming, starving baby. As long as you love that LO with every part of you, you will be a great mom! Let your instincts guide you and trust yourself to act in the best interest of your child and you will be more than fine. It is scary to have a tiny person relying on you for EVERYTHING, but you got this!
We didn't attend our breastfeeding class last night because I was too tired. I'm done acting like I have any f's to give anymore. Good thing, we got our money back.
I mean, cave women didn't take breastfeeding classes...
I love, love, LOVED the American Idol finale last night. I've watched since the beginning and only missed a couple of seasons toward the end, but it was so much fun watching all the old contestants come back and perform. It made me so nostalgic. And I love Kelly Clarkson SO much. Fun fact: my husband bought Kelly Clarkson tickets for my birthday present last August. We had amazing sushi, split a bottle of wine, went to see Kelly who was AMAZING, and then we had after concert cocktails overlooking the Las Vegas Strip. 9 months later, Baby is almost here - a baby fueled by sushi, rose, Kelly Clarkson, and moscow mules. That's how the magic happened for us, so thanks American Idol and Kelly Clarkson.
1. I ate two dinners on Tuesday. I took off work early to go home and take care of some things, but instead I popped to the local health food store, got sushi, and ate it all before DH came home, when I made him/us dinner.
2. I have been playing candy crush like my life depended on on it. Even though I have more on my to-do list (baby and otherwise) than I could possibly ever get done.
3. Baby keeps pushing on my belly in new and interesting ways, so I think he's almost ready to come out. And I am plotting sneaky ways to keep him in. Been avoiding pineapples and spicy food and the sex and everything....
I love my dog less now that I'm a mom than I did when I only had him. (Hear me out!) This has a lot to do with his attitude, which wasn't a problem when it was just DH and me. He's a relatively shy dog, but can be very sweet, and he's a food mooch. We had him trained to not beg, but it all went out the window when he realized that he could manipulate our loves-to-share-food toddler. DS is very gentle with him and good about giving him space, and pup still gets stand-offish, and he'll literally bark at my son sometimes for food, even if we have him gated in the kitchen or outside while we eat and he has his own food. DS then gets so worried about the dog, that he doesn't eat well. (But if the two are in the same room, the dog will either snatch the food or just bark in his face). It's so frustrating. He's not as easy to retrain as he was to train either because he has a past traumatic brain injury after being hit by a car a few years ago (beagle/terrier mixes are crafty at getting through fences-- a physical fence and an electric one) so there are awesome days and "who the hell is this dog?" days. After having so many of the latter pile up...the end result is that I feel less connected to him, especially since his behavior negatively impacts my son. I still love on him, cuddle him, and play with pupper-face when he lets me, but it's just not the same. This coming from the mama who forced herself to drive earlier than was probably a good choice after a csection to visit said pup at the animal hospital after he was hit. I cried for weeks when I had thought he may die, though post-partum hormones may have made those emotions even more pronounced.
Our 1 year wedding anniversary is tomorrow. I plan on squeezing myself into a dress that doesn't fit, and have half a glass of wine as a treat. Don't judge...
@kbrands7 I can see how that would be annoying and frustrating. We're wondering the same thing as our dog never gets human food but once babies start eating solid food, we all know a lot ends up on the floor and that is hard for even well-trained dogs to resist.
I don't know if this will work for your dog with the traumatic brain injury, but a soda can filled with something hard (my trainer gave me one with BBs although I suppose you could use pennies or rocks, too) can work wonders in stopping that kind of behavior. My dog is shy--at least when it comes to sounds (she hides under the dining room table when I cook because I'm banging too many things around), so she is sensitive to sound. Anyways, she used to bark at me when she wanted attention and, boy, that soda can trick worked like a charm. I shook it once immediately after the behavior and she learned real quickly that barking = scary sound.
So on Wednesday I ordered 4 large containers of frozen yogurt from that place I discovered that delivers late night. I got super yummy flavors like chocolate/cocount/walnut, vanilla with caramel swirl and cheesecake pieces, mocha brownie, and malted chocolate with toffee. Guess how many are left?
We didn't attend our breastfeeding class last night because I was too tired. I'm done acting like I have any f's to give anymore. Good thing, we got our money back.
I mean, cave women didn't take breastfeeding classes...
The midwife practice I go to requires you take a breastfeeding class. When I realized they don't ask for any proof, I totally lied and said I took one.
My FFFC is I LOVE 2 GIF! I wish we had more GIFs around here. They are funny and amusing and make the board more entertaining. (This I suppose is a combo of FFFC and UO).
If we had more GIFs, I think the May BMB would be the No. 1 BMB on TB, imho!
@kbrands7I am really afraid of how my relationship and feelings for my dogs will change after the baby comes. I am totally obsessed with them now and can't imagine feeling differently towards them but I know it is possible. I feel really bad for them that they have no idea how much their lives are about to change.
DH almost never has to travel for work, but he has to go out of town on business next week. He'll be on the other side of the country for a week and a half, and I am absolutely terrified that I might go into labor while he's gone! My fears are not well-founded because we're still a little over 6 weeks away from our EDD with no complications or signs of early labor, but it's of course a remote possibility. I'm trying not to freak out about him going because i) it's a huge career opportunity for him, and he's really excited about it; and ii) I'm normally such an independent person that I don't want to freak him out by freaking out! It also means he's going to miss our next ultrasound (he hasn't missed one yet) and the meeting with our pediatrician. While neither are a huge deal, I am bummed about not having him there for those appointments.
I HATE feeling this needy! I'm trying not to stress out about it, but this is a situation where a lot of wine would normally help! Maybe sparkling grape juice will do the trick?
My FFFC is I LOVE 2 GIF! I wish we had more GIFs around here. They are funny and amusing and make the board more entertaining. (This I suppose is a combo of FFFC and UO).
If we had more GIFs, I think the May BMB would be the No. 1 BMB on TB, imho!
I took today off so we could drive up to NY for my friend's wedding (I'm a bridesmaid and am in the rehearsal). The rehearsal got pushed to 6:00 and my husband got called into work for a meeting so I totally could have gone to work today but thought, screw it, I'll use the day to be productive - exercise, wash baby clothes and sheets, clean the house, run errands, etc. I've done literally nothing but eat breakfast and just got back in bed.
@kbrands7 we have a beagle too and have had the same problems. He was my baby before DS was born, but now I find myself being so frustrated by his food thievery and begging that some days I feel like life would be easier without a pet. It seems like he's only interested in DS as soon as he starts eating and the poor kid loves his dog so much that he's happy to share. I don't mind the sharing (I don't love it, but what else can I do), the part that drives me insane is the food snatching.
Also, currently sitting at my desk with an ice pack against my tatas because of severe heat rash. I really hope this goes away post birth. I already feel like heat rash on boobs would be a better form of torture than waterboarding, and throw in trying to breastfeed, I may just chop my boobs off.
My FFFC is that there are a few May dates that I really want LO to avoid for a birthday! I started realizing that several of my most annoying cousins/aunts/SIL birthdays are in May! The main one is SIL's birthday which is right around 39 weeks... I know it would become all about her. I also know this is really dumb of me, and I am beyond happy and thankful that this baby is healthy and will be so thrilled any day it arrives. Just hoping it picks a day that no close family members share.
The funny thing is, I would have loved for it to share a birthday with my DH or any of the grandparents! They are all wonderful. DH and his dad actually do share a birthday, which is neat.
Because nothing but my man XL sized flip flops from the drug store fit right now, I had to take off my boots immediately when I got to my desk this morning. It was a horrendous experience trying to squeeze my sausages into these boots, I was sweating and groaning then miserable driving to work. Praying the rain goes away and sunshine comes back soon so I can wear said flip flops again. OH how things have changed, I used to pray it would be cold and rainy so I could wear all my fabulous boots...siiiiigggghhhh
@kbrands7 still unable to quote. Damnit! But I totally get the dog thing... and this is coming from someone who is the BIGGEST animal lover that existed. But since I am so pregnant my patience for my dogs (I have 3) is non existent. Everything they do annoys the hell out of me and to be fair... they are not trained well and don't listen worth a darn. When I swear they never used to misbehave the way they do now. If I only had my male I know it would be so much easier but my two females are just terrible and hyper. I don't think I can rehome them because it would break my heart but at the same time I have to be fair. I'm waiting to see how they act when LO arrives... if they act up or my one is in any way not good with the baby then she is GONE. I'll wait to see what happens but you're not alone.
We had 2 dogs when we brought DD home last year. They did fine with her but it was sometimes overwhelming to take care of her and then. Our lives revolved around making sure they were able to be let out to potty and they had to be locked in our dining room/kitchen because one of them would destroy our house.
The older one (my sweet baby) got cancer in January. As soon as she got sick the other one started acting out. She actually started clawing her way out of the dining room through the plywood barrier we had built. She was so smart that once she figured it out she did it every day. We knew that we were going to have to put the older one to sleep and we couldn't handle getting another dog to help the younger one deal with her separation anxiety. She'd never been alone since we'd gotten her so we had to rehome her.
This was a harder decision that putting the older one to sleep. We found her a good loving home but it was still hard. We spent the next month taking care of the older dog with cancer until it was time to let her go. As much as I loved having dogs I do realize how much easier it is without them. We can have our house open and without barricades. We don't have to sweep daily because of the dog hair, or worry about getting dog hair in our food. We will get another dog eventually but having a 11 month old and a newborn will be enough for a while.
I'm not too worried about my dog and the baby. He's a 10 year old pug, so while I think there may be some confusion and some slight jealousy issues at first, that may be the one benefit of me going back to work. I'll take her to daycare and come back home, so my dog will have the house and me all to himself for 40 hours a week. He sleeps most of the time anyway. That said, I think it's cautious optimism.
But the kids feeding dogs thing - I never thought about this, and this is where I worry. Our dog has extremely bad food allergies that causes ear infections and wrinkle infections, so we have to feed him a special prescription dog food. He can't even have raw hides or dog biscuits. Anytime we host a BBQ or invite friends over, it never fails that our dog will find some scraps on the ground, and it leads to a $300 vet visit for medication the following week. That's definitely something we're going to have to be super careful about once LO is older and thinks giving the dog food is fun. That's going to be expensive. Yikes.
My friend was due May 13th and had her baby yesterday and of course I'm thrilled for her that baby is doing great. But it's gotten me all anxious and fretting about an early delivery (I'm due May 26) and making me feel like these last several weeks are going so fast! Don't get me wrong, most days I'm like "am I seriously still pregnant?" but knowing she went 5 weeks early weirdly has me feeling like I'm not ready!
It'll all be okay. LO will come when it's time. But ugh... dumb emotions.
I went to the Dr yesterday and scheduled my c section for May 2nd. I was slightly bummed as I always thought I'd have this baby the last week of April. I know it's a couple of days and have to do what's best for the baby, but damn I had this month in my head. Then at the dr's office I had slightly high blood pressure. They sent me to L&D where I had protein in my urine. I'm doing a 24 hr urine catch and if I have urine in my protein, they'll monitor me. The nurse said "Maybe you'll get your April baby." Now I don't like the unknown. I don't want to have to get monitored then one day they say "let's deliver that baby." Went from a scheduled c section to who knows what will happen. There's no pleasing me. At least baby is healthy and that's all that matters.
Re: FFFC 4/8
Confession: I might call into work today. Chasing a class full of two year olds with little one squishing herself into my pelvis, like she is right now, just doesn't sound like a good combination today.
I mean, cave women didn't take breastfeeding classes...
1. I ate two dinners on Tuesday. I took off work early to go home and take care of some things, but instead I popped to the local health food store, got sushi, and ate it all before DH came home, when I made him/us dinner.
2. I have been playing candy crush like my life depended on on it. Even though I have more on my to-do list (baby and otherwise) than I could possibly ever get done.
3. Baby keeps pushing on my belly in new and interesting ways, so I think he's almost ready to come out. And I am plotting sneaky ways to keep him in. Been avoiding pineapples and spicy food and the sex and everything....
I love my dog less now that I'm a mom than I did when I only had him. (Hear me out!) This has a lot to do with his attitude, which wasn't a problem when it was just DH and me. He's a relatively shy dog, but can be very sweet, and he's a food mooch. We had him trained to not beg, but it all went out the window when he realized that he could manipulate our loves-to-share-food toddler. DS is very gentle with him and good about giving him space, and pup still gets stand-offish, and he'll literally bark at my son sometimes for food, even if we have him gated in the kitchen or outside while we eat and he has his own food. DS then gets so worried about the dog, that he doesn't eat well. (But if the two are in the same room, the dog will either snatch the food or just bark in his face). It's so frustrating. He's not as easy to retrain as he was to train either because he has a past traumatic brain injury after being hit by a car a few years ago (beagle/terrier mixes are crafty at getting through fences-- a physical fence and an electric one) so there are awesome days and "who the hell is this dog?" days. After having so many of the latter pile up...the end result is that I feel less connected to him, especially since his behavior negatively impacts my son. I still love on him, cuddle him, and play with pupper-face when he lets me, but it's just not the same. This coming from the mama who forced herself to drive earlier than was probably a good choice after a csection to visit said pup at the animal hospital after he was hit. I cried for weeks when I had thought he may die, though post-partum hormones may have made those emotions even more pronounced.
ME: 35 DH: 39
Married July 2011
DD Born 8/12
TTC #2 since 11/13
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July 15-Check to see if Ute is all healed
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I don't know if this will work for your dog with the traumatic brain injury, but a soda can filled with something hard (my trainer gave me one with BBs although I suppose you could use pennies or rocks, too) can work wonders in stopping that kind of behavior. My dog is shy--at least when it comes to sounds (she hides under the dining room table when I cook because I'm banging too many things around), so she is sensitive to sound. Anyways, she used to bark at me when she wanted attention and, boy, that soda can trick worked like a charm. I shook it once immediately after the behavior and she learned real quickly that barking = scary sound.
DS: Born 5-17-16
I'm eating two McDonald's breakfast sandwiches this morning. I had plain oatmeal for breakfast yesterday, so it all evens out, right? ....Right?
If we had more GIFs, I think the May BMB would be the No. 1 BMB on TB, imho!
DS: Born 5-17-16
I HATE feeling this needy! I'm trying not to stress out about it, but this is a situation where a lot of wine would normally help! Maybe sparkling grape juice will do the trick?
DS: Born 5-17-16
The funny thing is, I would have loved for it to share a birthday with my DH or any of the grandparents! They are all wonderful. DH and his dad actually do share a birthday, which is neat.
The older one (my sweet baby) got cancer in January. As soon as she got sick the other one started acting out. She actually started clawing her way out of the dining room through the plywood barrier we had built. She was so smart that once she figured it out she did it every day. We knew that we were going to have to put the older one to sleep and we couldn't handle getting another dog to help the younger one deal with her separation anxiety. She'd never been alone since we'd gotten her so we had to rehome her.
This was a harder decision that putting the older one to sleep. We found her a good loving home but it was still hard. We spent the next month taking care of the older dog with cancer until it was time to let her go. As much as I loved having dogs I do realize how much easier it is without them. We can have our house open and without barricades. We don't have to sweep daily because of the dog hair, or worry about getting dog hair in our food. We will get another dog eventually but having a 11 month old and a newborn will be enough for a while.
But the kids feeding dogs thing - I never thought about this, and this is where I worry. Our dog has extremely bad food allergies that causes ear infections and wrinkle infections, so we have to feed him a special prescription dog food. He can't even have raw hides or dog biscuits. Anytime we host a BBQ or invite friends over, it never fails that our dog will find some scraps on the ground, and it leads to a $300 vet visit for medication the following week. That's definitely something we're going to have to be super careful about once LO is older and thinks giving the dog food is fun. That's going to be expensive. Yikes.
It'll all be okay.