I lost my daughter a few months ago and since then...I continued to keep track of my "pregnancy" even though Melanie was no longer here. Today would've been my due date and wow....what a gut wrenching feeling. The feeling where my your stomach drops as if you heard a bad news. Everytime the I think of her, my stomach drops. I can't even cry right now, because I feel numb at the fact that after today...I've got to stop counting....because its going to be just regular days after today. Everything that has happened is replaying in my head. The pain, emptiness, what was naturally happening to my body...I will never forget that. Thank you those who have left me kind messages and that always commented on my posts.
Can't even begin to describe how I feel. wish this feeling would go away. wish i could have a baby, wish i could have THAT (my) baby, Melanie. wish wish wish wish wish wish. i wish.