@laurabwalker I'm sorry to hear you are struggling. I have a high needs baby too, so I can empathize with you. It's so much work. I agree with previous posters that getting out of the house is key to feeling better. Luckily, my DD takes a bottle so I often leave her with DH while I run errands. I joined a local parenting support group, which has been great. I also went back to work two days per week and my mood instantly got better. I miss my DD so much, but getting a break has saved my sanity. If you are hesitant about medication, therapy can be just as effective. You are not alone.
Yes I'm hoping that therapy is going to help, I unfortunately am on a wait list and my appointment is the end of April, I'm also on a wait list for a support group with other moms going through it
I struggled with anxiety when I was a teenager, but because my parents never took it seriously, I managed myself until I was able to get by and eventually overcome it for the most part. Still, I knew that once Odie was born my control over myself was something I needed people around me to help keep an eye on. Once my aunt moved in and my husband went back to work, I started getting irrationally angry. I felt as though I was alone, but also being smothered by my support system.
I am now taking medication and the peace that I am able to feel is just... there is no reason to suffer in silence or because you can come up with so many reasons not to medicate.
@laurabwalkeri think you & I have connected on high needs kids & not taking a bottle, etc. it sucks. I feel trapped too. On Monday I just started crying bc she was born on a Monday & it's like "11 weeks today means 11 weeks of..." Being "it" 24/7 - I'm an anxious person anyway & have been considering talking to my dr to figure out if its ppa or just normal adjustment. I have no answers only empathy. I do try to get out bc otherwise I'd totally lose it.
@blended10 I know if they took a bottle at least we would have that. yes feeling trapped a lot, I think I have to get over the anxiety of her crying in public and just go out once a day. I knew since it has persisted it's something else, I've never had an issue really with depression and I have always worried a lot but never in a crippling sense. I think also I may not enjoy the baby period, a friend said that a lot of women think they will and then don't, and I think im one of those women! I found comfort in talking to my doctor, and my midwife, both have been great
I was diagnosed with PPD a few weeks ago. I found myself weeping out of the blue about this being my last child. I feel like I am completely connecting with DD, but miss the pregnancy tremendously that I feel great sadness about it. It's weird. Anyways, I'm on meds for it and it's working.
I've always had depression and anxiety from as young as I could remember. I've been on a few anti depression medications a few years ago and I hate taking them because I feel like they wouldn't work and I don't want to be on something for the rest of my life. I try so hard to control my depression/anxiety but sometimes it gets the best of me. I think we all have off days. I wish it could get better. I'm such a worry wart and think the worst possible scenarios in my head before they even happen. And adding kids into the mix makes me even more stressed out which triggers an episode of anxiety or bouts of depression. My children are my life and idk what I'd do without them but sometimes I feel sad. Like I'm doing this whole motherhood thing all wrong!
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I am now taking medication and the peace that I am able to feel is just... there is no reason to suffer in silence or because you can come up with so many reasons not to medicate.
one of those women! I found comfort in talking to my doctor, and my midwife, both have been great
DS#1 born 02/19/2013