This is tough for me.
Colette was born November 9th, and about a week ago before her two week appointment I got extremely upset with DS over something so stupid. I ended up crying about it for at least an hour feeling like such a monster. Even though DH said I was not very harsh, I felt like I severely overreacted.
That was the first time I realized something wasn't right, but it didn't occur to me that it could be PPD. Over the past week my feelings towards myself have been really bad. Thoughts of suicide and feeling that everyone would be better off without me really filled my head.
Last night DH and I looked up information for PPD, and I have been having textbook symptoms.
Thankfully I've only been dealing with this for a week as I knew something was not right with me. I've never battled depression so this is something completely new to me. It's tough, but DH and our families are helping me to cope after consulting with my OB and PCP.
I know PPD is common, but I want to let you ladies know that we all need to keep an eye out on ourselves. This is something that can hit anyone. Please be sure to get help.
I knew my sister battled PPD, but I didn't know she went many months battling it. She was too embarrassed to get help until her DH was fed up and dragged her to the doctor.
I pray that no one experiences PPD, but know that if you do, please seek help.
My doctor has started me on medicine, but it could take a few weeks for it to take full effect and I will be seeing a psychiatrist.
I'm not embarrassed. I know these feelings are not me, but sometimes it's hard to fight the feelings.
Edited because words are hard.
Married 05.19.07 | Together since 03.11.00 | Dom Born 02.06.12