Having bad feelings about everything today

MandyMost

Just looking for some support. :-(

After finding out my husband had a chromosome abnormality that often causes miscarriages, and having had 2 miscarriages, we found out I was pregnant pretty much the day after we got the abnormal test results. I had an u/s at 7w5d where everything looks great. I'm at 9w exactly as of today, and I just don't feel good about things. I had been EXHAUSTED for weeks, and then all of a sudden yesterday and today I'm not feeling so exhausted anymore. A had been having pretty bad cramping all along, and it started to go away for a few days, and now it's back and pretty sharp/different. I'm also concerned that maybe I'm spotting a bit, but need to wait and see.

I know there's nothing to do, but I feel like all this added together just points to a miscarriage. Although, the few days before my first u/s (where I dated 7w5d, right on target) I was SURE I was having a miscarriage, so I realize I don't actually know anything! It's just such a terrible feeling to have. 

bntfroggie

I think everyone of us has been there.  I would be lying to you if I told you I didn't convince myself that they wouldn't find a heartbeat before every single appointment.  I personally try not to symptom spot because honestly no matter what symptoms I have or don't doesn't have any bearing on what is going on inside my body.  We also unfortunately have to realize that we are completely powerless in this aspect of our lives.  I know this doesn't give hope, but I just wanted to let you know we are all thinking it and we know too well how precious and fragile life is.

I really hope for the best for you, when is your next appointment?

MandyMost

Thanks! That helps to hear.

Next appointment is a week from Monday; I should be 10w3d at that time.

spatter1

Ditto @bntfroggie. I think we all have good days and bad. Or maybe more like a good day here and there and a stretch of bad days, unfortunately. I know exactly how you're feeling and think probably most if not all of the ladies on this board do too. I have read that as you start to get to the end of your first tri and into the second your symptoms usually start becoming milder. Maybe that's what's happening? And the sharp pains could be round ligament pain? I have no idea of course, but these are things I tell myself when I think my symptoms are going away or any time I feel a twinge in my abdomen! Of course, you can always call your doctor. The minute I mentioned the word "cramping" to my doctor and expressed my fear she ordered an u/s. Maybe yours would too, for peace of mind? Thinking of you and hope you have fun plans this weekend to distract you from these thoughts! 

Katieelliott0501

Sending you lots of positive vibes. I have definitely been there. Called my doctor freaking out about the same stuff and they got me in that day to just give me a sanity check ultrasound. Maybe you could try that if you don't think you can wait? Hope all is well! Keep us posted.

sswartout

You are definitely not alone. I'm in a similar situation where my husband has a chromosome issue and I have had 3 miscarriages. The night before I found out that I was pregnant again, we found out that we are both carriers of a rare genetic disease. There is hope though! After a 1st trimester of almost no symptoms I am now 34 weeks along. Can you get in to see your doctor sooner? I found that my doctor was good about getting me in for an ultrasound or heartbeat check whenever I was feeling nervous. Best wishes!

nekedfeet

What a difficult situation.  Listen to your body and call your doctor whenever- I'm sure they'll be sympathetic.
Sending you loads of hope and luck.

MandyMost

Thanks for the support everyone. I know my doc would see me, but I haven't called. I feel like I just don't even want to know until my appointment if anything is wrong.

But, only 5 more days until that appointment! Wish me luck! I've had no bleeding, but have quite a bit of cramps, and am tired and nauseaus, so I hope those are all good signs!

PlainJane8350

If it makes you feel any better, I had no cramps with my miscarriage and tons of aches and pains with my next pregnancy...and I had her, a healthy baby girl last month. I worried all of the way until I was in the car, headed to the hospital. It's just something that we do after a loss. Sending you positive thoughts, prayers and sticky baby dust!

bntfroggie

MandyMost said:

Thanks for the support everyone. I know my doc would see me, but I haven't called. I feel like I just don't even want to know until my appointment if anything is wrong.

I totally understand this statement.  The nurse told me I would have tons of questions and if I wanted to call 100 times a day I could.  Honestly, unless I was bleeding I'm not going to call, I'm in the whatever will be will be mentality.  Good Luck!!

MandyMost

There was a strong heartbeat on the 10week doppler today! I am finally starting to feel a bit optimistic. I'm so worried I'm going to "jinx myself" though for feeling this way.