Update on a really odd situation.... someone with more experience, HELP?

tamarattc

I have posted this before

https://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12568628/those-wise-ladies-before-me-and-the-2-weeks-wait-of-opks-trigger-shots-and-clomid-please-help#latest

I was triggered after clomid with two healthy follicles were spotted. We used the fertility window very efficiently. I tested with HPTs and OPKs for It to disappear. After a week of smiley faces thee HPTs became fainter and fainter and then completely disappeared only to appear again very faintly two days later or so. At 9 days DPO I was wiping and got some blood but very light and lasted a few hours. Nothing since. Toilet going like crazy now, starting to feel slightly bloated and slightly more hungry but no cravings or any odd shit...very faint back pain and not at all near bad cramping. My period isn't due for a while. HPTs now show very faint lines at 9/10DPO. Is there a good chance I am pregnant? I can feel I but I am STILL afraid it is residual trigger though by now doc said it should be out of my system. I say OBGYN Next Monday but the wait is killing me. I've never felt this positive about before and we have been trying for a while

I have been temping and since O, my temperature has been around 39.6 and nowadays 37 to 37.2

WaitingMay14

As I said in previous post there is NO way to know for sure if you are preg until your tww is over. The residual effects of the shot can linger. Tested on first day of missed period or get closer to 12-13 dpo to be sure. Fx for you.

tamarattc

I was more concerned with the implantation bleeding.... or possible implantation bleeding

WaitingMay14

From what studies show implantation is very rare. It would also be very soon at 9 dpo if you just had implantation bleeding for it to come up on a hpt test.

When did you completely test out. Usually 48 hrs from IB to get a positive. Hopefully this is you bfp give it a few more days. Fx!!!!!

tamarattc

I would have thought so.... still lines as faint as ever today. It has been about 2 days since implantation. Right now, my nipples are about to explode (lol TMI). I had a miscarriage months ago and in that pregnancy although we were trying just as hard, other than IB, I did not have the urination and swollen nipples. Got blood test with a GP on Thursday... hopefully will know by Friday. One more appointment on Saturday with a fertility specialist (though that would be really awkward if I am pregnant) and regular OBG on Monday but I need to find out before Monday in case I need to schedule an emergency appointment with my other doctor who is dealing with some serious meds and needs to taper them off in case of pregnancy >.< that is what is worrying me more than the wait. He only works Mondays. It's 11 DPO now.... will try digital test maybe on 14DPO. Meanwhile, I will just keep testing and BBTing and hope that a dark BFP comes sooner than later so I can have time to schedule the appointment with the specialist and cancel the fertility doc. 

GoldenKeys

@tamarattc - You have a PM...

PhoenixRyuu

I do not suggest you cancel the fertility doc because you got a positive HPT. I'm not sure what your diagnosis is, but I do know that in many cases there are medications that you need to continue even after you get a BFP, like progesterone to prevent mc. I know it's hard, but the best advice I can offer you from experience, and you may not like it and will probably ignore me, is to relax and put down the HPTs and OPKs. You've done everything you can this cycle. At the point you're at now, it's already finished. Even though you can't tell yet, it is or it isn't, and whether you dip a stick never or every time you pee it's not going to change. You're driving yourself crazy. Do everything you can, I would never tell someone not to do that, but once you're past the point where you can do things that will actually impact the result, you've got to learn to let it go. I know you had things that you enjoyed before you were TTC and now you spend so much time on your efforts that they're falling to the wayside. Most people do this, and it's not healthy. Once you've ovulated and your effort has been made, get back to those things that you love - pick a hobby back up, go out with friends you may not have seen in a minute, spend some non-TTC time with your partner. Hopefully this is not a long journey for you, but it could be and you need to pace yourself physically and emotionally so you don't burn out and let it consume your life to the point where you feel like there's nothing else and it's a looming presence over you 24/7.

If you're wondering just how much experience this is coming from, I started TTC in 2007 and after 5 years, 6 losses, countless tests and doctors, I actually gave up in 2012 and ended up getting the shock of my life this March when I found I was 9 weeks pregnant by accident and doubled down on that shock when I actually made it to the second trimester for the first time in my life. I'm just over 16 weeks now. Believe me when I say I've been there. I understand when you've been trying for so long that you want some hope, even false hope, just to break the monotony of charting and trying and AF, rinse, repeat, but really it's not healthy. You're needlessly putting yourself on an emotional roller coaster. I'm not telling you this to be mean or negative, but it took me 5 early miscarriages, several of them very early chemicals that I didn't even need to suffer through if I hadn't been testing every day insanely early in my cycle, to let go and put down the constant tests. I had the OPKs, went to the CBEFM, still charted every single day, like if I just did SOMETHING that day, ANYTHING it would help. Like maybe if I just peed on enough sticks or plugged enough points on a chart it would magically give me the sticky BFP I waited so long for. Sorry, but it doesn't work like that. All it did was soak up more and more of my life until TTC was practically who I was and aside from dragging through the work day I had nothing else left, and the irony of it all is that 3 years after I decided I was done, grieved, healed and moved on with my life, here I am. It's really hard to say this because we all wish it weren't so, but you have no control. I had no control. All you can do is try to stay sane and happy while you wait.

tamarattc

Thanks Phoenix for taking the time to write this. I haven't dropped my hobbies thankfully =P I woke up with the biggest nausea in the world =.= The reason I am fussed about it is not because I want it to happen so badly (I do, but I am also okay trying next cycle with the fertility doc. I have only tried with an OBG) but because I REALLY need to get off some of the prescription medication I am on (for a pre-existing condition that has nothing to do with TTC and that general area) pronto as the doc said to call him ASAP if I ever get a positive HPT. 

On a side note, I was hoping for more obvious symptoms to surface early but holy c! I am trying to chalk this up to mild food poisoning because I am so not ready for morning sickness or any type of nausea.I am still undecided about the fertility doc. Do you really think it is a good idea? I am gearing up for a long weird weekend and he is in another city (though only about an hour commute, me  being in Kyoto and him in Osaka) but would still keep my OBG appointment... would that doc not be capable of letting me know what to do etc? Or would a fertility specialist have more insight in that area, especially if I have to deal with this while I am coming off or tapering of medication, if this is actually "this".