Intro and issue

mcodea88

Hi everyone!  I have been on the Bump for a while, but was in the TTC over 35 board for a few months.  So, now I'm pregnant... 8w4d now.  It has been a really emotional 5 weeks (BFP 11/11).  I thought it would take longer, (tried 4 months), and since the BFP, I've found it hard to feel safe thinking everything was going to be ok.  I'm 100% over the moon that I'm pregnant, but scared to death.  I actually just posted this morning in the 1st trimester board, but I feel like maybe it would be better posted here?  

I started spotting 2 days ago, and had heavy cramping.  I called the Dr, went in Tuesday night and he was like "can't know what's going on without an ultrasound, so get one tomorrow".  Thanks you could have spared me the pointless visit.  Anyway, had an US Wednesday at 2pm.  Lady said I measured 8w3d, 180BPM.  That's ok?  She says yeah that's ok - high but good.  I leave, she assumes it's a subchorionic Hemorrhage but the radiologist will confirm and call me.  So my nurse from my OB called me last night and confirmed the SCH, and then mentions that there are inconsistencies with my measurements.  Said the Dr would call me today.  This morning the nurse calls me back, says i need another scan in 10 days b/c of the measurements.  I ask what that's all about, and she says baby is measuring 8w4d, and sac is measuring 6w2d.  So... what the hell does that mean??  No room for baby?  is that Ok?  No idea.  

I have an appt this afternoon (actually in a little over an hour).  it was supposed to be my OB work-up.  But yet aother nurse called me this morning to cancel it due to the issue with the measurements.  She said, and I quote, "there is no point in having this visit today until we know which way things go".  So I say "which way WHAT goes?".   She softened the point by just saying that they want to work with proper measurements so let's see what the U/S says.  

Anyway - I guess that's it.  Hardly an intro sorry, more of a vent.  I cried all morning.  This is my first pregnancy ever.  All the lingo they use, the matter of fact talking they do, it's not helpful for me.  I need more hand holding, I guess.  And so far, not so much of that.  So I sit scared, waiting to go to the Dr where I'll vent to him about this too...

I'm happy to be here, gals. I'm scared because I want to stay here, read and comment on your posts, learn and make friends.  I'm sidelined with the SCH but I can accept that - whatever I need to do to stop the spotting. 

So there.  That's me.    In a really emotional little shell!  

tlc35

I'm sorry for the limbo.  That is really stressful and I'm sorry your providers aren't being very sensitive.
I totally understand the fear.  I am currently terrified.

mcodea88

I think I recognize you from the TTC board @tlc35?  

tlc35

mcodea88 said:

I think I recognize you from the TTC board @tlc35?  

Yes, I've been posting there since April/May.  I am only 5w5d so it is still really early.

mcodea88

Well FX for you then girl!  Nice to see a familiar face here.  I loved the TTC over 35 board - you all were amazing.  Congratulations on your BFP!  

NeonNoon

Welcome mcodea88

Sorry about the uncertainty you are facing.  Hang in there while you navigate this challenging period.  FX for better news soon!

mandyreads

Welcome. Will be keeping my FX for you. I will say when I went in for my first visit I was supposed to be 8wks and u/s measured 7wks.

Samuelismomma

Welcome and congrats..sorry it's been rough:(

Lm92599

welcome, so sorry your in all this uncertainty. Try and be good to yourself and not stress. Congrats!

lcwed

Welcome and congrats. I am sorry you are going through this. I worry too. I hate that everyone is being so vague at your doctors office. Hearing the heartbeat is suppose to ease your fear not increase it. FX they get your dates figured out and you get out of limbo.

niknak1208

I can certainly understand the stress!! I had an SCH with my daughter. It never made me spot but they always warned me that it could. Mine just resolved and I hope yours does too! Keep us posted. FX that things get better!

mcodea88

Thanks everyone. I'm not sure what the outcome will be, but since yesterday afternoon I have been bleeding heavily (red with clots). Spoke with the dr today. Of course there is nothing I can do, but rest and wait it out. If I'm still bleeding Monday they can get me in for another ultrasound to see if baby is still alive. This is heartbreaking. This is my first pregnancy, and waiting is torture.

carrieoz_76

I have been there & it is absolutely scary. I was bleeding a couple weeks ago & at work waiting for HCG results, and I thought, "I could be losing this baby right now."

But we had a u/s and the baby was healthy! My bleeding dropped off to just spotting.

I just wanted to pop in to encourage you not to jump to the worst case scenario just yet!

Best wishes at your u/s. Keep us posted!

marijaa333

Hi there and welcome. I really hope the bleeding stops and you get good news soon.

mcodea88

Thank you @carrieoz_76‌ ! I am so open to encouragement. Today I haven't moved outside of bathroom breaks. Latino bleeding but slightly better than yesterday. I feel the same... Like I could be losing baby now, or baby could already be gone. But since I do t know I'm treating myself like baby is still there. Lots of fluids, bedrest, and hope.

MySallyGirl

Welcome to the board.  Your feelings are totally understandable and I think we are all super nervous until we get through the first trimester even without extra stress!  I hope you get answers soon!  T & P!

samantha716

I'm sorry for what you are going through. I've been having a similar situation where the doc is being truly negative. I had sonogram Monday and expected to hear it was a loss. But instead I was told there is a heartbeat and things look good - but the sonographer said that...I still haven't heard a peep from doc.

In any event, I hope you get answers soon. Limbo is absolutely terrible because you don't k ow how to feel. That coupled with insensitive medical staff is really hard. Hugs.

niknak1208

Wish I could say I haven't been there but I have. Several times. No fun at all. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this. Hopefully it just stops and all is fine. I was at work once with an early miscarriage. At work when my water broke at almost 20 weeks and had to drive myself to triage alone. It was awful.

Good luck to you!! Keep us posted!