Ok, I have been weepy over the stupidest shit!! I have been listening to Disney tunes at work, and I get tears. Fuck you Circle of Life and Tale as old as time... You got me this time!
I even got the silent ugly cry over a text I wrote to my dad telling him how I am going to miss him over the holidays since we are spending it with my in laws.
Then don't even get my started on Christmas movies...
@Chunkymonkeylvr ugh.. Knee surgeries take forever. I had to sit in on one during a clinical. At least in my case I got to watch the action. I would hate sitting in the waiting room for hours on end.
I recommend Netflix. I just got through American horror story season 3. Not bad!
I haven't been around much but I lurk at 2 am when I can't sleep. I was reading yesterday's randoms about needing cocktail dresses and wanted to chime in. I got this one at Bonton and bought a piece of burgundy ribbon for above the bump. Everyone loved it. The other place I've seen them for reasonable prices is Target!! Good luck!
Married the love of my life June 18, 2011 -- Me (28) DH (29)
I have my 3hr GDD test tomorrow am, but am really craving a bagel for breakfast this morning. And McDonalds for lunch. This may be my last opportunity for either.
My H is already giving me a hard time about food too. He refuses to do research (because I am better at it) but when I tell him what I have read, he accuses me of holding back information from him. I never have before. He is very insecure - he always has been and it's a trait most of his family has. We got into an argument about eating dairy because I said I have to look at the carbs and can't eat it until after noon(medication issue). He said there is no way that's true and keeps trying to give me yogurt for breakfast. He even bought me a big dessert - because, he said, the dr said I should cut back on bagels and juice but didn't say anything about desserts (maybe because I don't usually eat them????) - and then got mad when I said I would have rather had a bagel and didn't eat the dessert. He is not a stupid guy - but when he gets scared all common sense goes out of the door. He is sucking the life out of me right now...
@katydid2014 - my mother dislikes her cousin because of the 's issue. Any time her name comes up my mother says how awful her grammar is and it's so embarrassing. She was probably my mom's favorite cousin until she got married and sent out Christmas cards with an 's.
@almeyer2013 I loved your post because I'm right there with you! I feel like I'm literally crying over everything. I watched fly away home with DS the other day and ugly sobbing was definitely apart of it. DS looked at me like he was concerned haha but when I cry in front of SO I tell him, don't judge me I'm pregnant. Half the time I'm not even sad about anything! Gotta love hormones!
@Chunkymonkeylvr sending happy healing vibes to your mother! @almeyer2013 I'm so with you on the wacky emotions lately. Yesterday at work, someone put "Let It Go" on the jukebox (that Frozen song) and I literally lost it. Full on soap opera cries. @Skrittens good luck with your test tomorrow! Mine is next Monday and I'm worried I'll fail too
Today I get to go shopping for the company Christmas party tomorrow. Buying raffle prizes and decorations. I am dreading the shopping, but it sure is nice that it will be on the company credit card and not mine!
So dang tired. I'm so sick of waking up at 4 A.M. to get ready for work. I also miss a full night's rest.
However, the furniture will be delivered today, and for that I get to leave work early! Also on the upswing, I had a guy notice at work today that I'm in fact pregnant and not fat. That's a nice change.
Good luck to everyone today with tests, surgery, and illness. Take care and try to enjoy the day ladies.
I am on the train to DC right now and this baby is kicking me on my side. It is such a weird feeling to have an arm or foot kicking my stomach, let alone my side.
@jennypm you've got a lot on your shoulders, and I can only imagine how difficult it is when your SO isn't there to support you. Just breathe and know that it will all work itself out somehow. Also, have you considered a tutor for your kid for the class she doesn't like? I *hated* math as a child. My parents found me a great tutor who made math fun. Ended up getting a degree in accounting as an adult. Sometimes it just takes the right educator.
So my random is a story that happend to me yeaterday. The family and i went to Outback to eat. Well we was getting ready to leave aNd setting behind ous was this old man and his wife. But this man looked exactly like Santa. I didnt even think anything about, but then my 2 year old daughter sees him and starts yelling SANTA! SANTA! She trys to run up to him and keeps yelling at him santa..i was Sooo embarrassed. So i told my husband to just take her out to the truck and i would get the other kids. When i get out to the truck, my daughters eyes was glowing and she was sp excited to see santa..(even if itwas him in her eyes). so i told her and my 4 year old that it was santa but he wasnt wearing his clothes and hat because he wanted to eat his steak in peace. that way he could hurry back to the north pole in time to deliver the presents. I hope i dodnt do a bad thing in telling them that. but hey, wats a mom suppost to do?
Ugh, I am entering the "shitty sleep" stage of pregnancy, and it's not pretty.
What is especially bad is that last night DH was out with friends and texted me something about his evil genius plan working because I'd be asleep when he got home. So of course I had a hard time falling and staying asleep because I am dying of curiosity.
If he was just talking out of his butt, I'm going to kills him.
I'm so proud of myself. Last night at school I had the most difficult client, you know one of those older ladies who have a complicated haircut and color their hair to cover grays and they have to show you how to do everything.... Yeah, SHE was giving me lessons on how to section her hair/color her hair/and even cut it... I just smiled and nodded and went about my business. When we were all done she said she had to be able to style it 3 ways, use her product she brought from home, and be able to use her brush in order for it to be right. Not only was she beyond pleased with it, she wants to request me from now on because I'm the only one who actually got the cut right and covered all grays. Lol geez... She hugged me and tipped me and left so happy so that's all that matters. I'm in SO MUCH PAIN though..
H is sick and was snoring all night! I feel like I must have sanitized every door knob, cabinet handle and light switch all while telling him to continuously wash his hands so I dont get sick.
@ RQuinlin- Hope you feel better!
@Katydid2014- You are not the only one!!! I had the doggy daycare owner ask me if I was taking my vitamins and getting plenty of rest. So annoying!!
We're exchanging Hanukkah gifts with my in-laws tonight. I finished the cross stitch for my MIL Sunday afternoon and followed the instructions to hand wash it in Woolite. I'm fairly new to needle arts and I didn't like the way the last cross stitches I made ended up framed, so I thought I would try this. BAD IDEA.... The thread I used for the text BLED, which I discovered Monday morning when it was dry. I thought I would have to give MIL an IOU and start from scratch, but I decided first to see how a bleach pen would work on it. Genius idea! It took three attempts, but all the bleeding went away. Thankfully, none of the other colors I used had any issues at all, even through multiple washings. Of course, the formerly burgundy thread for the words has now faded to bright pink, but it still works with the design so I'm going with it. Hanukkah miracle!
H is sick and was snoring all night! I feel like I must have sanitized every door knob, cabinet handle and light switch all while telling him to continuously wash his hands so I dont get sick.
@ RQuinlin- Hope you feel better!
@Katydid2014- You are not the only one!!! I had the doggy daycare owner ask me if I was taking my vitamins and getting plenty of rest. So annoying!!
My H is sick too and was also snoring all night- louder than usual! Typically he takes me to my dr appts, but since he's sick I told him to stay home for today's appt. Not good for him to be around pregnant ladies.
Now I just have to make sure he doesn't get ME sick.
Today I find out if I'm released to go back to work! If so, then that means I can do other things too! If not, then more time at the house. :P
H is sick and was snoring all night! I feel like I must have sanitized every door knob, cabinet handle and light switch all while telling him to continuously wash his hands so I dont get sick.
@ RQuinlin- Hope you feel better!
@Katydid2014- You are not the only one!!! I had the doggy daycare owner ask me if I was taking my vitamins and getting plenty of rest. So annoying!!
My H is sick too and was also snoring all night- louder than usual! Typically he takes me to my dr appts, but since he's sick I told him to stay home for today's appt. Not good for him to be around pregnant ladies.
Now I just have to make sure he doesn't get ME sick.
Today I find out if I'm released to go back to work! If so, then that means I can do other things too! If not, then more time at the house. :P
Crossing my fingers for you! Hope H feels better:)
After reading through the epidural thread, I am surprised how many people said no epi only because they were afraid of the needle. No judgement - do what you gotta do. I am just surprised that the needle is more frightening to people than pushing out a bowling ball med free.
I would rather trust myself to push out a bowling ball than trust a stranger not to fuck up and paralyze me.
@Peledreamsofrain I too have entered the no sleeping part of pregnancy. Everyone says that it's nature's way of preparing us for a newborn. Knowing this doesn't help at 3 am.
I might be feeling tired, but LO is feeling quite chipper this morning, judging by the kicks and punches I've been getting this morning.
Short rant: In the workplace, there is nothing more maddening than having a task you desperately need to complete depend entirely on a person in another department who doesn't give a shit one way or another.
Maybe this is something that only happens in the vast bureaucracy of a university, I dunno. But I was thisclose to grabbing a torch and pitchfork and storming someone's office yesterday. Thanks to her unfathomable incompetence my marketing campaign's been delayed by 10 days.
AND SHE WILL SUFFER NO CONSEQUENCES. It just makes ME look bad. ARGH!!!!!
Good morning, everyone. Just wanted to say hope everyone has a great day and thanks for all the nice bday wishes yesterday.
@Peledreamsofrain I miss sleep, too. Finally passed out at 1 am last night after binge watching Homeland. Then I had dreams of Homeland and been up since 4. Work is going to blow today!
After reading through the epidural thread, I am surprised how many people said no epi only because they were afraid of the needle. No judgement - do what you gotta do. I am just surprised that the needle is more frightening to people than pushing out a bowling ball med free.
I would rather trust myself to push out a bowling ball than trust a stranger not to fuck up and paralyze me.
I think that is a legit concern/fear to have. I was more thinking the people that just said I hate needles, I won't get one.
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Ah, gotcha. I am phobic of needles, but I can usually be an adult about it (most nurses have no idea when they give me shots). But when they had to give me steroids for a back injury, I almost passed out from legit life or death fear, despite taking two xanex prior. The idea that I could lose the ability to walk in an instant was so horrible and terrifying. Worse that I was passively allowing it.
I think it's best for all involved if I tell the delivery team to not bring up an epi unless I ask. Stroking out or fleeing is probably not conducive to delivery .
My DD has gotten into this horrible habit of waking up in the middle of the night, turning on the hall light upstairs, and yelling for us to come get her. My DH tried to help by going up to get her back into bed, but she wouldn't do it, she wanted to come in bed with us. So, because my DH values his sleep more than setting good expectations, he brought her down to sleep with us the rest of the night. Then at 4:30 she woke up and decided it was time to turn on the Christmas tree and TV. Which, of course, I was having none of, and caused a huge temper tantrum. I'm exhausted. I told my DH that she can no longer do this, that we have to be firm that her bed is her bed, because once the baby comes, and if she's still coming to our bed every night, no one will get ANY sleep.
So before my pregnancy brain kicks in, I just saw a girl named "Alexyz" pronounced Alexis...
I'm not even a name purist and I'm so confused by that. No. It just shouldn't happen.
I just saw a post on another board where a woman was upset because her parents didn't like the name Axl.. MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE Its NOT A REAl NAME'!!!!
It is if you're Scandinavian or a pop star or a rock star. I have a friend who wants to name her kid Axl if it's a boy, Lisel if it's a girl. When she told me my reaction was "Lisel? As in diesel?" Not cool either way. But I do not approve of "weird" names in general. I feel like it does a tremendous disservice to the kid. People don't take naming seriously enough. You're setting someone's first impression for the rest of their lives and they have absolutely no say in it. The least you can do is give them a name that's easy to spell, pronounce, and makes sense within our culture.
Same as @happymamax2 I am scared of needles and I didn't feel the epi cause my pain was so displaced elsewhere.
I will say that they did not check me before they gave me the epidural and I was already at a 9. So it didn't really kick in and work and I was already pushing my son out. I got up and walked right after giving birth so I didn't get to enjoy any of the benefits of the epi and guess what??? I still got a $1500 charge for that epidural in the mail.
This next time, I will have them check me before and go without one if I am that far dilated. That $1500 charge for something that I didn't even get to enjoy the benefits of still makes me mad.
Short rant: In the workplace, there is nothing more maddening than having a task you desperately need to complete depend entirely on a person in another department who doesn't give a shit one way or another.
Maybe this is something that only happens in the vast bureaucracy of a university, I dunno. But I was thisclose to grabbing a torch and pitchfork and storming someone's office yesterday. Thanks to her unfathomable incompetence my marketing campaign's been delayed by 10 days.
AND SHE WILL SUFFER NO CONSEQUENCES. It just makes ME look bad. ARGH!!!!!
This is an everyday occurrence for me in the world of medical software. not just universities!!! It makes me so angry so fast.
@skrittens your H needs to do some of his own research if he is going to act so dense. Sorry you're dealing with that BS.
I've only read the first page and don't even recall everyone to respond to!
I called Friday for my GD test results and were told they were in but the doctor hadn't signed them and I would get a call Monday. No call yesterday and no call yet today, so I'm hoping I'm in the clear...I might call to double check later.
I cant even remember who i need to tag, but about the name Alexis. My babys name is Jovoni Alexiz. I like the wired names or the different spelled names..lol.. i put the Z because to me it looks more boyish. And as for the epidural. I almost died because of it when i was having my first son. Then it didnt even work with my daughter. @-)
@jennypm, I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed but it's with good reason. I'm sorry your DD lied about her homework, but you did the right thing in giving her consequences. If you didn't make a big deal about it, she'd just think it's okay to do it again. You're a great mom. Hang in there.
I'm supposed to go shopping tonight since I couldn't go last night. The upside is I get to go alone and will have time to look for clothes for me, the downside is it's raining and I anticipate the mall will be crazy.
Long.... So i have been MIA for the past few days. Not for any reason just one of those times i just didn't feel like getting on here lol. But anyway so let's see i hit the third trimester on Sunday! Yay that's super exciting...sorta lol oh i did my hospital tour and it was a good tour i suppose but there were some issues. They only offer the tour on Sundays at 430 which for us that time makes it literally impossible for SO and i to both go cuz either he is working or i am. So i decided to go with my mom. Now there were 2 other couples there as well and i guess that the nurse doing the tour just assumed that since i was there with my mom that baby daddy was out of the picture or something cuz she would make these little comments about "dad this" or "dad needs to do that" and then just look at me and say "oh i mean or whoever if dad isn't there for whatever reason" i mean what like does no one else bring their mom? Whatever and then the part that irked me the most was OK when like you walk through the security doors into the L&D unit you either take an immediate left or an immediate right. Left is where pretty much everything is, all the rooms and nurses station and tub room and everything and then to the right is to the NICU. Now nobody is ever thrilled about their child being in the NICU but because of the medication that i am on we are very well aware and have accepted the fact that our daughter will be spending some time there. We are totally fine with it. its just something we have known from the beginning that will have to happen for precautionary reasons. Despite being fine with it i know that when the time comes it will probably be pretty hard cuz she will most likely have to be taken almost immediately which will Def cut into our initial bonding and visiting time and what not but were dealing with it and are just trying to remember that it will only be for a short amount of time and then she can come home. So anyway when we walked through those doors the nurse explained that the NICU was to the right and "hopefully none of you have to have babies in there because it's just the most tragic terrible thing" and then pretty much just continued on for a while about how horrible it would be to have to come in and go to the right and that hopefully everyone can just have to go to the left and on and on. Now being someone who knows that their child will be there, i was really really starting to get upset and just wanted her to stop and move on with the tour. I know she didn't mean any harm by it but i just wished she would have practiced better judgement and realized that there are people out there who already know that their child will be in the NICU. She could have just said "NICU is to the right, now let's go look at everything to the left" and that would have been just as effective considering the NICU was not part of the tour. I think that it upset me so much because most babies who need to be in NICU are there for one reason or another that had nothing to do with the parent. my reason does have to do with me and it made me feel like shit after she talked about how horrible it was for babies to be in there. I'm over it and im just trying to move on. We meet with the neonatologist there in a few weeks which should hopefully answer a lot of questions we have and help put our mind at ease that she will in fact be OK (at least that is what my OB said will happen lol) Anyway sorry about the long post i just had to get that out.
March 15' January Siggy Callenge: Animals Being Jerks
@happymamax2 I am so sorry for your loss. It's always heartbreaking when it's something that could have been prevented. Sounds like he was trying to take care of himself. That's so sad he couldn't afford his bp meds. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers to get through this.
On this note, and I don't want to be a Debbie downer with more bad news, but I got word from my mom that my grandfathers health is declining rapidly. He has been in with hospice since October, so we knew it was coming, but it doesn't make it any easier. I just hope he goes without pain or suffering, and I am so thankful he is resting at home.
@happymamax2 ((hugs)) You and your family remain in my thoughts.
FX to everyone waiting on GTT results!
We met with our doula last night. She is amazing, and made me feel so much better about a variety of things. Especially about having GD and being induced. She's also worked with my OB, and adores her, as we do. One of the best decisions we've made!
D spent the weekend getting the spare bedroom ready for the nursery. This included rearranging another room, clearing out and moving stuff between 4 closets, and finding another set up for our cat boxes. I'm so excited to get started on the nursery! And I think I'm going to treat D big time for all his hard work.
Re: Tuesday randoms
I even got the silent ugly cry over a text I wrote to my dad telling him how I am going to miss him over the holidays since we are spending it with my in laws.
Then don't even get my started on Christmas movies...
I recommend Netflix. I just got through American horror story season 3. Not bad!
My H is already giving me a hard time about food too. He refuses to do research (because I am better at it) but when I tell him what I have read, he accuses me of holding back information from him. I never have before. He is very insecure - he always has been and it's a trait most of his family has. We got into an argument about eating dairy because I said I have to look at the carbs and can't eat it until after noon(medication issue). He said there is no way that's true and keeps trying to give me yogurt for breakfast. He even bought me a big dessert - because, he said, the dr said I should cut back on bagels and juice but didn't say anything about desserts (maybe because I don't usually eat them????) - and then got mad when I said I would have rather had a bagel and didn't eat the dessert. He is not a stupid guy - but when he gets scared all common sense goes out of the door. He is sucking the life out of me right now...
@almeyer2013 I'm so with you on the wacky emotions lately. Yesterday at work, someone put "Let It Go" on the jukebox (that Frozen song) and I literally lost it. Full on soap opera cries.
@Skrittens good luck with your test tomorrow! Mine is next Monday and I'm worried I'll fail too
Today I get to go shopping for the company Christmas party tomorrow. Buying raffle prizes and decorations. I am dreading the shopping, but it sure is nice that it will be on the company credit card and not mine!
Wishing you all a fun Tuesday!
So dang tired. I'm so sick of waking up at 4 A.M. to get ready for work. I also miss a full night's rest.
However, the furniture will be delivered today, and for that I get to leave work early! Also on the upswing, I had a guy notice at work today that I'm in fact pregnant and not fat. That's a nice change.
Good luck to everyone today with tests, surgery, and illness. Take care and try to enjoy the day ladies.
For SuzyQ & all the March 15 Loss Moms
@jennypm you've got a lot on your shoulders, and I can only imagine how difficult it is when your SO isn't there to support you. Just breathe and know that it will all work itself out somehow. Also, have you considered a tutor for your kid for the class she doesn't like? I *hated* math as a child. My parents found me a great tutor who made math fun. Ended up getting a degree in accounting as an adult. Sometimes it just takes the right educator.
@RQuinlin hope u get to feeling better
So my random is a story that happend to me yeaterday. The family and i went to Outback to eat. Well we was getting ready to leave aNd setting behind ous was this old man and his wife. But this man looked exactly like Santa. I didnt even think anything about, but then my 2 year old daughter sees him and starts yelling SANTA! SANTA! She trys to run up to him and keeps yelling at him santa..i was Sooo embarrassed. So i told my husband to just take her out to the truck and i would get the other kids. When i get out to the truck, my daughters eyes was glowing and she was sp excited to see santa..(even if itwas him in her eyes). so i told her and my 4 year old that it was santa but he wasnt wearing his clothes and hat because he wanted to eat his steak in peace. that way he could hurry back to the north pole in time to deliver the presents. I hope i dodnt do a bad thing in telling them that. but hey, wats a mom suppost to do?
What is especially bad is that last night DH was out with friends and texted me something about his evil genius plan working because I'd be asleep when he got home. So of course I had a hard time falling and staying asleep because I am dying of curiosity.
If he was just talking out of his butt, I'm going to kills him.
Hope everyone has a good day and good appts!
@Chunkymonkeylvr Thinking of your Mom today during her surgery!
@Peledreamsofrain I too have entered the no sleeping part of pregnancy. Everyone says that it's nature's way of preparing us for a newborn. Knowing this doesn't help at 3 am.
I might be feeling tired, but LO is feeling quite chipper this morning, judging by the kicks and punches I've been getting this morning.
Short rant: In the workplace, there is nothing more maddening than having a task you desperately need to complete depend entirely on a person in another department who doesn't give a shit one way or another.
Maybe this is something that only happens in the vast bureaucracy of a university, I dunno. But I was thisclose to grabbing a torch and pitchfork and storming someone's office yesterday. Thanks to her unfathomable incompetence my marketing campaign's been delayed by 10 days.
AND SHE WILL SUFFER NO CONSEQUENCES. It just makes ME look bad. ARGH!!!!!
Good morning, everyone. Just wanted to say hope everyone has a great day and thanks for all the nice bday wishes yesterday.
@Peledreamsofrain I miss sleep, too. Finally passed out at 1 am last night after binge watching Homeland. Then I had dreams of Homeland and been up since 4. Work is going to blow today!
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Ah, gotcha. I am phobic of needles, but I can usually be an adult about it (most nurses have no idea when they give me shots). But when they had to give me steroids for a back injury, I almost passed out from legit life or death fear, despite taking two xanex prior. The idea that I could lose the ability to walk in an instant was so horrible and terrifying. Worse that I was passively allowing it.
I think it's best for all involved if I tell the delivery team to not bring up an epi unless I ask. Stroking out or fleeing is probably not conducive to delivery
MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE Its NOT A REAl NAME'!!!!
I will say that they did not check me before they gave me the epidural and I was already at a 9. So it didn't really kick in and work and I was already pushing my son out. I got up and walked right after giving birth so I didn't get to enjoy any of the benefits of the epi and guess what??? I still got a $1500 charge for that epidural in the mail.
This next time, I will have them check me before and go without one if I am that far dilated. That $1500 charge for something that I didn't even get to enjoy the benefits of still makes me mad.
@skrittens your H needs to do some of his own research if he is going to act so dense. Sorry you're dealing with that BS.
I've only read the first page and don't even recall everyone to respond to!
I called Friday for my GD test results and were told they were in but the doctor hadn't signed them and I would get a call Monday. No call yesterday and no call yet today, so I'm hoping I'm in the clear...I might call to double check later.
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And as for the epidural. I almost died because of it when i was having my first son. Then it didnt even work with my daughter. @-)
@jennypm, I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed but it's with good reason. I'm sorry your DD lied about her homework, but you did the right thing in giving her consequences. If you didn't make a big deal about it, she'd just think it's okay to do it again. You're a great mom. Hang in there.
I'm supposed to go shopping tonight since I couldn't go last night. The upside is I get to go alone and will have time to look for clothes for me, the downside is it's raining and I anticipate the mall will be crazy.
MC: 2/19/14
So i have been MIA for the past few days. Not for any reason just one of those times i just didn't feel like getting on here lol. But anyway so let's see i hit the third trimester on Sunday! Yay that's super exciting...sorta lol oh i did my hospital tour and it was a good tour i suppose but there were some issues. They only offer the tour on Sundays at 430 which for us that time makes it literally impossible for SO and i to both go cuz either he is working or i am. So i decided to go with my mom. Now there were 2 other couples there as well and i guess that the nurse doing the tour just assumed that since i was there with my mom that baby daddy was out of the picture or something cuz she would make these little comments about "dad this" or "dad needs to do that" and then just look at me and say "oh i mean or whoever if dad isn't there for whatever reason" i mean what like does no one else bring their mom? Whatever and then the part that irked me the most was OK when like you walk through the security doors into the L&D unit you either take an immediate left or an immediate right. Left is where pretty much everything is, all the rooms and nurses station and tub room and everything and then to the right is to the NICU. Now nobody is ever thrilled about their child being in the NICU but because of the medication that i am on we are very well aware and have accepted the fact that our daughter will be spending some time there. We are totally fine with it. its just something we have known from the beginning that will have to happen for precautionary reasons. Despite being fine with it i know that when the time comes it will probably be pretty hard cuz she will most likely have to be taken almost immediately which will Def cut into our initial bonding and visiting time and what not but were dealing with it and are just trying to remember that it will only be for a short amount of time and then she can come home. So anyway when we walked through those doors the nurse explained that the NICU was to the right and "hopefully none of you have to have babies in there because it's just the most tragic terrible thing" and then pretty much just continued on for a while about how horrible it would be to have to come in and go to the right and that hopefully everyone can just have to go to the left and on and on. Now being someone who knows that their child will be there, i was really really starting to get upset and just wanted her to stop and move on with the tour. I know she didn't mean any harm by it but i just wished she would have practiced better judgement and realized that there are people out there who already know that their child will be in the NICU. She could have just said "NICU is to the right, now let's go look at everything to the left" and that would have been just as effective considering the NICU was not part of the tour. I think that it upset me so much because most babies who need to be in NICU are there for one reason or another that had nothing to do with the parent. my reason does have to do with me and it made me feel like shit after she talked about how horrible it was for babies to be in there. I'm over it and im just trying to move on. We meet with the neonatologist there in a few weeks which should hopefully answer a lot of questions we have and help put our mind at ease that she will in fact be OK (at least that is what my OB said will happen lol) Anyway sorry about the long post i just had to get that out.
On this note, and I don't want to be a Debbie downer with more bad news, but I got word from my mom that my grandfathers health is declining rapidly. He has been in with hospice since October, so we knew it was coming, but it doesn't make it any easier. I just hope he goes without pain or suffering, and I am so thankful he is resting at home.