I am in the process of recovering from a recent loss. DH and I were trying to conceive for months when we unexpectedly found out that I was pregnant. As much as I wanted to be completely excited that our dream was coming true, I was actually scared from the beginning. A week prior to finding out, I had just finished what I originally thought was a typical period. That's why I was surprised to get a positive when I did. I knew as soon as I saw that positive test that it had to have been heavy bleeding during pregnancy.
It's a long story, but I'll try to make it short. Basically, I started spotting again and then felt cramping so I went to get checked out by doctors. I had to go back and forth several times over the course of the next several days. I tried to be positive and hope for the best while I still feared for the worst. I ended up having emergency surgery on Saturday during which an ectopic pregnancy was confirmed in my right tube. They were able to save my tube, but there's nothing that can be done to save the baby when this happens. It's been a devastating experience and while I am starting to recover from the physical pain, the emotional pain is still raw and intense.
I have joined an ectopic pregnancy support group which has been very helpful. However, I miss being active on the bump. I hope to give and get support here as I continue on the healing process.