I am very thankful I found this corner of the internet. I like that it is a smaller group of woman and I'll get to know you better the everybody in the #infertility thread.
I am 37 and have been trying on my own for over 7 years now. I lost 7 pregnancies(that's the number for documented ones, but I think I was pregnant 9 times).
I was always told it's bad luck and that I will eventually keep the pregnancy. I asked about IVF a couple of years ago but I was told I still have plenty of time to consider it. I was mainly being treated by an OB for a couple of years and then we transitioned to seeing Dr.Wood-Molo at Rush Medical Center in Chicago. While we didn't get the end result I love her to pieces and I think that she is a fantastic doctor.
We went through a horrible loss in late 2011(few ultrasounds confirmed a healthy growth with a heartbeat) and both me and hubs went through a pretty bad depression for about 6 months. We barely talked to each other. We were kinda done for good.
Fast forward to January 2014 - we filled out an application for fostering to adopt. I was already consulting with a social worker but something in me made me ask my hubs if we could try just 1-2 cycles of IVF. We were never able to afford it but we got a little bit lucky with a short sale and got $20K to look into some options. I was so happy I'll finally get some answers. At this point I just needed to know.
Long story short something happened in my body within the past two years and I went from having plenty of eggs(most likely shitty) to not having any. I had some in April (7 antral follicles), then got pregnant on my own again, had another ectopic, had to take methotrexate and was benched for 3 moths. I took a lot of supplements during that break only to find out in October that I have two 20mm cycts on one ovary and no follicles at all to stim for IVF.
Well shit,(I do swear - just a warning) I knew right there this is a lost cause. This is all at Shady Grove with Dr.O'Brien. The look on her face said it all. She promised she would try anything to make this miracle come through for me but I knew. I could have waited another cycle, wait for the cysts to go away etc. and than maybe get a 5% chance of success. F&@k
that!!! I cried so many tears already I was ready for something positive. I transitioned into donor egg program right there. If I had more money and I was younger maybe
would have fought some more, but I gave up and it felt right.
The best thing is that by hubs in on board. He is actually 'happy' about this turn of events as he thought we would loose all of our money and go through more pain with nothing to show for it. It's so nice to get proper support form him.
We got our calendar a couple of weeks ago. I just started the Delestrogen injections and I'm not loving it.
Anyway, we are doing 1:3 shred risk donor program at Shady Grove and our 6 day embryo transfer is scheduled on 12/16. We are doing PGS on day 5 hence day 6 transfer.
I'm looking forward to sharing this journey with you guys!
Good luck to everybody who is already cycling!