~~TTCAL newbie check in 11/4/14~~

rslh10

kyliehopeful said:

@rslh10‌ Thanks, I'm going to need many fingers and toes crossed for the new year I love Xmas, last year we spent 6 months in New York ( hubby had a work contract) and we came back home to Australia in November so we missed a ny Xmas, just seeing the stores and decorations though made me realise just how much more they celebrate it over there ( so jealous!) We hold off putting the tree up until dec 2nd though as my bday is the 1st and my family always held off until I had my bday first

What a wonderful time to be in NYC! I can't imagine how beautiful everything must have looked!! 

rslh10

ChanelA said:

I Tested last week with a first response and the first one was barely there positive, I'm still trying to decide if it has color. I took a second one saturday morning and it was negative.  Now I'm just waiting for AF to show…

AND… I just LOVE everything christmas/holidays!

Hopefully AF comes very soon for you! FX! 

rslh10

mkfish31 said:

Hey @rslh10! Just chart stalked you! When are you thinking of testing? Hope everyone's Tuesday went well. I am in my TWW currently. My first cycle temping seemed to go pretty well. It does make a lot of sense! It is kinda neat to see how your body is doing it's job (or lack thereof.) I o'ed a few days later than I was expecting.  I think our timing was pretty good. I am not getting my hopes up though because we have had great timing the past 3-4 months and nada! Trying to hold out until thursday….i'm sure some cheapies will be sacrificed to cure the urge. 

QOTW

I absolutely love everything Christmas!! I started listening to christmas music yesterday. It just makes me happy.  PLanning a trip to NYC Dec 4-9th with my sisters and mom. Can't wait to do lots of christmas-y things!

I'm glad you enjoy temping! I found myself really enjoying the information I was able to see by looking at my chart. It does make me feel a little crazy, but it's totally worth it. I will be chart stalking you the next few days!!

You know, I think that I'm going to wait for AF to show. I haven't had any luck with any other natural cycle in the past 14 months, so I don't know why this one would work! We actually thought I had already O'ed because my RE said my follie was 18mm on Wednesday, but I guess I didn't O until Sunday. Who knows. We weren't trying to hit O day, but I guess i'll take it:D

Your trip sounds like it will be awesome! I hope you have a great time

rslh10

@cavewmn you're having serious tag fails, Lady  :-B LOL! 

TashaCN

Hello all. I'm a bit late checking in this evening- just got back from my trip to Cali. Which was an amazing time!

Things are going well this week. My body is still having a hard time recovering from the D&C (3 weeks on Thursday) it can't decide if I'm done spotting or not. I have a follow up appointment on Friday so hopefully that gives me a sense of what's going on. My only other concern is that I have had no labs drawn since my initial appointment and it seems like everyone is having some level or other checked. So I'll be asking about that at my appointment as well. 

Alright have a great rest of the week everyone. I'm going  to spend the rest of my evening reading everyone else's post. 

Edited: I forgot the question of the week: I wish the stores would hold of on the holiday decor. I always have a hard time getting into the spirit and spend hours at my desk listening to holiday music on pandora. I think if the stores held off a bit It would help me get more into the spirit. Other than that I really have no opinion on it....

smagglebit

rslh10 said:

I'm so glad you are cleared to TTC again. So would you say that you're NTNP this cycle, or until further notice? I think that's a great way to ease back into things. After my loss, I was sort of pressured by my OB to start asap. (I have low AMH, though). I don't feel that I was mentally ready, so please take the time you need to heal and be ready. I'm sorry you are having a rough time lately. I know that for me, triggers come out of no where. ((hugs))

Thanks for the advice @rslh10! I'm definitely feeling the pressure. I was set to start massage school, and 3 days before classes started I PPROM'd, and everything was put on hold. I want to start my classes, but I also want to try again. I feel like if I do get KU again, everything in my life will have to revolve around that for awhile, which is fine, but makes planning anything difficult. And let's be honest, I ain't getting any younger, so there's that pressure! I'm sure I'm still not ready emotionally ready, even though I really want to be. I'd say NTNP is where we are right now. Maybe that will change next cycle, maybe I'll have to wait until after the 1st of the year.

rslh10

TashaCN said:

Hello all. I'm a bit late checking in this evening- just got back from my trip to Cali. Which was an amazing time!

Things are going well this week. My body is still having a hard time recovering from the D&C (3 weeks on Thursday) it can't decide if I'm done spotting or not. I have a follow up appointment on Friday so hopefully that gives me a sense of what's going on. My only other concern is that I have had no labs drawn since my initial appointment and it seems like everyone is having some level or other checked. So I'll be asking about that at my appointment as well. 

Alright have a great rest of the week everyone. I'm going  to spend the rest of my evening reading everyone else's post. 

Edited: I forgot the question of the week: I wish the stores would hold of on the holiday decor. I always have a hard time getting into the spirit and spend hours at my desk listening to holiday music on pandora. I think if the stores held off a bit It would help me get more into the spirit. Other than that I really have no opinion on it....

I think it's very smart of you to ask for your betas to be checked. I think it's crazy that some OB's don't monitor them down to 0. I hope that your dr has no issue with running these tests for you  

I'm so glad you had a great trip

rslh10

KatyF0813 said:

Hi all, I'm new to the newbie thread
I'm also mobile so I'm sorry for not responding to anyone, but I read each post - you ladies are all so sweet and brave.
I'm going for what will hopefully be my last blood draw tomorrow... Fingers crossed my HCG is down to nothing. My doctor said we don't have to wait at all,but suggests waiting a cycle for dating purposes. The hubby and I both have awful colds and aren't really up to trying yet emotionally, so I guess we technically aren't TTC yet... But soon I hope
Best of luck to all of you

QOTW: I adore Christmas but believe it is best saved for December (DH has his birthday on the 5th and he's not a big Christmas fan so we always wait until after his birthday to do anything)

Welcome to the check in I'm so sorry for your loss. FX your betas are down this week. Also, I know your dr said you didn't have to wait, but the rule of thumb around here is a wait time of 2-3 cycles. But your dr cleared you, so I'm not telling you that you can't ttc when you're ready.  Obviously your body has gone through something traumatic, and it's best to let your body heal properly. You're probably going to feel a lot of emotions about ttc again, as well. So physically and emotionally, you have to make sure you're ready. I have my fx for your betas, and look forward to getting to know you

Cheetara2

Hi Ladies!

Hope you all are in good spirits. The mini vacay was much needed and appreciated. I enjoyed it. Didn't get to monitor or HIO much this cycle, so I'm not banking on this one. 

QOTW: Before Halloween is too early. Anytime after is fair game. I love the holidays, people always seem to be nicer around Christmas time. 

jessica.0723

Hi everyone,

My name is Jess and I just went through a loss. I have one living son, who is 2 next week. He was conceived using clomid, I have PCOS.

My second pregnancy was also conceived with clomid. I lost the baby very early at about 5w3d... Hcg went from 700 down to 270 In 2 days. And then over the next 3 weeks has gone down to 20. And as of yesterday is still 20... I bled over a week ago, and twice gave spotted since then. I'm getting antsy for af yo show up. Doctor says we can try again with next cycle, and then pulled the weight card on me, saying she like if I lost weight first.

Can't say I'm going to follow those orders. She put me on metformin last week...

I just want my hcg to go down!

What has everyone's experience been with that? After hcg goes down do u usually get af??

I just want to be pg again!!

TheAerialist

@rslh10 - DEFINITELY use the insurance for all you can.  They set the limits and trust, they make enough money to cover it.  Definitely get the testing done on your old insurance so you have more to use on your new plan.

@incir NO.  Yuck. Condoms are the WORST. :-((

@mmmsly - I feel ya.  Yesterday was the EDD of my first loss and I was feeling GREAT.  Had fun things to do (yesterday was also my birthday) and generally was having a great day.  Then I went to dinner alone (this was way more fun than it sounds like, I just enjoyed sitting and not talking to anyone) and the damn lady at the bar next to me was pregnant and when her friend came in to meet her, she went on and on and on about her doctors appointment and sonogram and how she can't wait for it to be over.  I was sad.  :-(

rslh10

jessica.0723 said:

Hi everyone,

My name is Jess and I just went through a loss. I have one living son, who is 2 next week. He was conceived using clomid, I have PCOS.

My second pregnancy was also conceived with clomid. I lost the baby very early at about 5w3d... Hcg went from 700 down to 270 In 2 days. And then over the next 3 weeks has gone down to 20. And as of yesterday is still 20... I bled over a week ago, and twice gave spotted since then. I'm getting antsy for af yo show up. Doctor says we can try again with next cycle, and then pulled the weight card on me, saying she like if I lost weight first.

Can't say I'm going to follow those orders. She put me on metformin last week...

I just want my hcg to go down!

What has everyone's experience been with that? After hcg goes down do u usually get af??

I just want to be pg again!!

Hi there. Welcome to the check in. I'm so sorry for your loss. Is your OB going to run another beta on you to make sure you go below 5 (negative)? There have been cases of retained tissue, granted I don't know if hcg of 20 would qualify for retained tissue (im sure it would if it sticks at that level for a while). When your hcg is negative, you could get AF fairly quickly, or it could take a while. Everyone is different. There is a poll in the newbie blog on the main page that will show you some of the general experiences with AF returning (also has TONS of great info). I had an ectopic at 5w6d and mine returned fairly quick. My hcg was never over 300.

Fx for dropping betas.

rslh10

Cheetara2 said:

Hi Ladies!

Hope you all are in good spirits. The mini vacay was much needed and appreciated. I enjoyed it. Didn't get to monitor or HIO much this cycle, so I'm not banking on this one. 

QOTW: Before Halloween is too early. Anytime after is fair game. I love the holidays, people always seem to be nicer around Christmas time. 

I'm glad your trip went well!

rslh10

Annabananabom said:

Hi all, I'm a little late to the check in I think but not too late I hope!

This is my first check in and I felt such a sense of belonging reading through all your posts. It feels like a lot of people are waiting for things to happen which can sometimes be an anxious, uncomfortable space to be in emotionally, I get it. ((((Hugs)))) to anyone who is playing the waiting game right now!

My OB checked all sorts of things in the last blood test and it came back neg for all the baddies. Having another blood test tomorrow because in last week's HCG wasn't quite back to normal.

The past week I've really been focussing on mindfulness and meditation and it's helping me to feel very accepting of whatever will be will be. And I've managed to gain a sense of acceptance around the MC too.

It's sort of bizarre but I feel like I have changed for the better since the MC.

It's still early days so I'm sure I'll still have some horribly sad moments but I'm just grateful right now that I'm having a more positive week.

Welcome to the check in. I'm so sorry for your loss. Fx for negative betas. You're going to have lots of different emotions post loss, and just know that we all understand what you're going through. ((Hugs))

breaker0506

@rslh10 Thank you for doing this checkin and SORRY I AM LATE AGAIN UGH.

My exam is tomorrow! (Hence why I am late checking in.) I was in TWW limbo until I got AF today...I am crushed and now worried because my OPK said I had a surge 9 days ago...which to me says my luteal phase is short...but I'm trying to put that all aside so I can STUDY.

Also try as I might I can't get my siggy to show up? What am I doing wrong it's not like I have a bunch of gifs in there!

QOTW: I'm trying really hard to stay positive but it is definitely hard not to a) resent my classmates complain about their pregnant wives, b) want to cry and be sad and just miss my tiny one and c) Not to just spiral down in general.

rslh10

breaker0506 said:

@rslh10 Thank you for doing this checkin and SORRY I AM LATE AGAIN UGH.

My exam is tomorrow! (Hence why I am late checking in.) I was in TWW limbo until I got AF today...I am crushed and now worried because my OPK said I had a surge 9 days ago...which to me says my luteal phase is short...but I'm trying to put that all aside so I can STUDY.

QOTW: I'm trying really hard to stay positive but it is definitely hard not to a) resent my classmates complain about their pregnant wives, b) want to cry and be sad and just miss my tiny one and c) Not to just spiral down in general.

Better late than never! FX for your exam tomorrow. How many cycles out from your loss are you? There is still a big possibility that your cycle is working itself out. Try not to worry too much, and i'm sorry about AF! What a bitch. 

breaker0506

rslh10 said:

breaker0506 said:

@rslh10 Thank you for doing this checkin and SORRY I AM LATE AGAIN UGH.

My exam is tomorrow! (Hence why I am late checking in.) I was in TWW limbo until I got AF today...I am crushed and now worried because my OPK said I had a surge 9 days ago...which to me says my luteal phase is short...but I'm trying to put that all aside so I can STUDY.

QOTW: I'm trying really hard to stay positive but it is definitely hard not to a) resent my classmates complain about their pregnant wives, b) want to cry and be sad and just miss my tiny one and c) Not to just spiral down in general.

Better late than never! FX for your exam tomorrow. How many cycles out from your loss are you? There is still a big possibility that your cycle is working itself out. Try not to worry too much, and i'm sorry about AF! What a bitch. 

Thanks for the encouragement . Today's AF starts cycle 5...I hope it's just my body working itself out. I had to  get a new Gyn since I'm in another city for school, and he told me my exam was normal and that I'm normal and blah blah normal...but I don't FEEL normal, lol. I feel totally out of whack. I wonder if this is the universe's twisted way of showing me how NOT to treat miscarriage patients...