Sulking.

bbboiwithluv

Hi ladies

Since discovering my MMC on 9/26, I've been trying my best to stay busy & stay in the company of my family, SO, and coworkers to avoid being alone with my feelings. But tonight, I've ended up all on my own...& have been doing pretty much nothing but sulking, crying & listening to sad songs.

It seems so easy for everyone around me to brush off my loss as something so minimal. No one seems to understand why I would be so heartbroken. But every single time I'm alone, all I do is cry.

Sorry, I know this isn't a diary, and I know my situation and pain is no different than everyone else's. But I just needed to vent & needed whoever is reading this to know that I'm grieving by your side.

AllyDogg

So sorry to hear about your loss! I, too, had a MMC found on 9/30. I have cried every night since, and feel absolutely heartbroken as well. I find the times I am alone are the most sad as well. Nothing I can say will make you feel better, but know there are others out there in the same spot. Sending thoughts and hugs.

xraychick01

Most of the time I think the people who tend to "brush it off" have never experienced a miscarriage before.  I think it's perfectly fine that you are having a good cry and listening to sad songs.  It will help you release some of the pent up sadness and heartbreak you have held inside.  It's good to get it out.  Don't feel bad about it.  Everyone grieves differently but you can't hold it in forever.  Get it out from time to time and know it's ok to do so. Take as much time as you need to heal.  We all here understand.

jemmamac

I've been doing the same thing, I had mine on 10/2. I know that I'm not ready to go out and screw a smile on and pretend everything's okay, because it's not. I know I'm going to consider talking to a counselor. It may help talking to someone who doesn't know you and that is neutral to everything, just so you can let it out. Make sure you use your support group like your s/o and family. They may not understand but they're there to cry on. =\ hang in there.

GingerPop79

So sorry for your loss. Your feelings are normal and you need to let yourself feel them. Hugs to you.

flyoffeve

I am sorry for your loss. I feel the same way. My songs tend to be more of the screaming variety from In This Moment because I am in more of a rage over it all. Vent it out!

Bel831

I think we all have to grieve in our own way. There is no shame, there is no judgment here. This community is a fabulous outlet where people may not be in your exact shoes, but we all have experienced loss. Cry if you need to, listen to music that moves you, eat comfort foods, sleep all day. Whatever it takes. If you can talk to a grief counselor, or have a church or community group for loss, go. If you aren't ready for that, read othere posts and share here. None of us are truly alone in our grief. *hugs*

4N6s

I was the same way. I cried for over a week straight.... And ate too many cookies.

Stay strong. You can get through this.

nikiswimr

Sulking is ok, crying is ok, being furious is ok. I'm heartbroken with you. I've been crying uncontrollably at the most inconvenient times and eating ice cream. There's no great way to deal with something like this. Do what you need to make it through.

bbboiwithluv

AllyDogg said:

So sorry to hear about your loss! I, too, had a MMC found on 9/30. I have cried every night since, and feel absolutely heartbroken as well. I find the times I am alone are the most sad as well. Nothing I can say will make you feel better, but know there are others out there in the same spot. Sending thoughts and hugs.

@allydogg Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm so sorry for you loss as well  

FigureSkater8

Sulking, crying and listening to sad songs may be what you need to do right now.  I know I did that for about the first week after my D&C and it was therapeutic for me.  Hugs.