Thanks in advance for listening. I'm having a nervous breakdown.
As I've said, I have an anterior placenta, so I haven't felt baby move. Sometimes I feel what I *think* is movement, but it's never strong and I'm never really sure. I just left my 28 week appt/glucose test. The doctor today asked if I had been feeling movement and started talking to me about counting kicks. I told her I can't feel anything. She didn't believe me. She said even with an AP I should be feeling some movement.
Then she said, "Ok we're going to feel it together." And proceeded to push on my stomach with both of our sets of hands there. Nothing. Even SHE couldn't feel anything. She said she just kept feeling the placental pulse.
So her recommendation is that I go for another ultrasound today (can't wait) so that they can hopefully detect movement and *teach* me so that I can tell when baby is moving. If this doesn't work, I need to start coming in for weekly non-stress tests.
The baby's heartrate was fine (mid-140s) and although the doctor didn't seem panicked, she definitely seemed concern I couldn't feel anything. It made me feel like a failure as a mother because I can't feel movement. Trust me, I want nothing more in the world than to feel it. So now I'm sitting in the ultrasound office waiting to get squeezed in.
Any words of encouragement are appreciated.
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Update: Thanks so much for everyone's kind words! Definitely made me feel better.
I just got home from the US and it turns out we just have a very chill baby who doesn't like to move a lot. The tech said the movement was "adequate" and that they weren't concerned in that regard, just that baby won't move a lot. She also measured placenta and it is 6 inches thick plus baby is breech. She said all of that makes it even harder to feel movement.
LO sat in there the entire time sucking it's thumb. At one point she was pushing on its head, trying to get it to move (to give me a free 3D pic of its face), and all it did was yawn then continue sucking its thumb. Ha!
She also held the US wand still so I could see baby move (watching it's feet/legs), and it VERY SLOOOWWLLLY stretched out its legs. Not a hard kick at all. Tech said she totally understands why I'm not feeling movement and to just hang in there.
I go for my next appt in 2 weeks. I guess if I'm not feeling more by then, they'll start the every week nonstress test. I'm hoping by then I'm feeling movement! This is the most frustrating feeling ever.
Baby weighed 2 lb 8 oz and they predicted birth weight of 7 lb 7 oz. They redid measurements and said everything was within the normal percentile. Heartrate at US office was 128 (which was funny since it was 140 an hour earlier).
Anyways, thanks again for the support. I'm attaching a pic of baby sucking it's thumb, but it's not very clear.
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It is good they are going to keep an eye on you, but in no way, shape or form is this your fault.
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The tech told me that my baby was just a lazy kid lol. She roughly bounced the wand on my stomach several times to try to prod him around and get him to move and he barely did so I totally get it. I expected so much movement at this point and I get VERY little.
Happy for you guys though! Congrats on the cutie