I had my DD 1 month go she came 4 weeks early. I don't know what's going on but I can't seem to shake it. At times I just want to be by myself. She is starting to cry A LOT and sometimes I can't get her to stop. I feel like a bad person because I can't figure out why she is crying. I am paranoid something will happen so I barely sleep or shower. The only time I shower is when my husband is home. I cry almost all the time especially when I am alone. It's to the point my beautiful baby's cries annoy me ( it hurts to say this). I love my baby more than anything in this world. I feel like such a bad mom for feeling this way. I feel that because of these feelings I don't deserve her. I am very ashamed! What kind of person am I? I feel like a monster.