I had my DD 1 month go she came 4 weeks early. I don't know what's going on but I can't seem to shake it. At times I just want to be by myself. She is starting to cry A LOT and sometimes I can't get her to stop. I feel like a bad person because I can't figure out why she is crying. I am paranoid something will happen so I barely sleep or shower. The only time I shower is when my husband is home. I cry almost all the time especially when I am alone. It's to the point my beautiful baby's cries annoy me ( it hurts to say this). I love my baby more than anything in this world. I feel like such a bad mom for feeling this way. I feel that because of these feelings I don't deserve her. I am very ashamed! What kind of person am I? I feel like a monster.
Re: Feeling lost :(
I think calling your doctor is a good idea.
From what everyone tells me that it gets better, and that the first month is the hardest- you already made it through that first hurdle!
You are not a monster at all. With my first child, hearing him cry would literally raise my blood pressure and I was an anxious mess. My stress did not help with his stress levels either.
And babies go through growth spurts and developmental leaps when they cry more than normal - yours may be going through one now. Try a million different things to calm them until you find what works. I have a baby shusher that works wonders. So does taking my LO into the bathroom and running the shower and the fan. Some babies like the hair dryer.
But the key is to get yourself feeling better and them you will be in a better state of mind to help your LO.