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staugustinewedding

Words cannot express how sad I am for you. You are dealing with this situation with such strength..you are an inspiration. I will be thinking of you and your family. Much love. 

Ineedmorecoffee

I am so sorry.

Jpinky9

There are no words to describe how sorry I am that you and your family have to go through this! It's so very heartbreaking! We are all here for you if and when you need any support! This board will not be the same without you!!! Sending lots of positive thoughts and prayers and hugs!!!!

Drmommy84

My heart truly goes out to right now.  Will continue to pray for you during this difficult time.

Maelara

You are going to be so deeply missed around here. This isn't fair. I hate this. I'm going to miss all your positive words with a side of kick ass. You've been a great mod thus far and I'll always remember you. Thank you for being here, even if it was for a short time.

I'm glad you and your family have come go a decision. While it was hard, I'm positive it will be for the best for
your family. Your DH and children are lucky to have you in their lives.

xiaopeapod

@lisaren‌ Again, so sorry for what you're going through. It really makes us all sad. Please take care. I'm sure what ever decisions you make will be right.

phdprocrastinator

I am so, so sorry that you and your family are going through this.  I am glad you were able to get such sweet pictures of your baby.  Best of luck to you now and in the future.

raelynn71109

You, your baby, and your family are in my thoughts. I am so sorry you are going through this. I am glad though that you will have pictures of your sweet baby to hold on to. Hugs to you!

moroccojade

Your baby is so very beautiful.  

mrsodonnell12

@lisaren I am so so so sorry you are going through this. What an impossible decision. I'm so sorry. Thinking about you and praying for you!!!

mockingjay1

I know there are no words that I can say to make you feel any better, but I just wanted to say again how sorry I am that you and your family are having to go through this. I will continue to keep you in my T&Ps. You will be missed here.

Seneca0325

I am so sorry that you are going through this. Again thoughts and prayers are with you as you make difficult decisions and for all the days ahead!

TC0514

I'm so sorry. I've been thinking about you all day. I'm continuing to pray for you and your family during this time.

mb314

I am late to the game, but wanted to say I sorry I am to hear this news. I hope your healing process is smooth. Take care if yourself and your family. Hugs!

Feegan

I decided to lurk on the board today because I was missing everyone and was absolutely heartbroken to read this thread. There is absolutely nothing that can be said to ease your pain, this I now know all to well. You have tremendous support and love that surrounds you and I hope that helps you through this very difficult time. Sending so many hugs your way.

VioletFlower

Lisa, I am so sorry. You are such an amazing women and your babes are lucky to have you. It is so unfair that good people have this happen. You know I have been through such a similar situation so of you ever want to talk or vent or cry or cuss I'm here for you. And every single decision you have and will make is right for you. Never ever doubt it. Never.

DVGirl

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. This board won't be the same without you. It's your rainbows and cupcakes that kept many of us coming back. Sending thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

Nfranco973

She is beautiful. I am sorry you have to go through this. I'm sure whatever decision you make, will be the right one. Thank you for sharing with the N14 board and bringing smiles to our faces. I hope you stick around and stop by sometimes. You will be missed.

so72409

No words....just prayers to you and your family.

CPM13

I am so very sorry to hear this.

Bandia12

Oh sweet @lisaren, I am just so sorry!  I'm thinking of you, and sending you big hugs!

MindyAndRyan

My heart breaks for you and your family. I am so sorry you're going through this.

Acedit

I am so sorry, I don't even have the words to say. But know I am thinking of you and hope whatever you and your fam decide on brings you comfort. I hope in the meantime you physical pain is limited because I know your emotional pain is over the top. Hugs 

musicalmommy3

You will be missed by all of us. Hugs to the whole family.

missnacholover

Thinking of you, your family, and your sweet little baby. 

lisaren

They're hoping to schedule the surgery for Tuesday. And now we may do the ass surgery and do another tubal.
My BFF is. Sonographer professor and she's going to scan me at the college tomorrow one more time. Is that torture? I just need to see.
I keep listening to the heart on Doppler. I'm killing myself I know. I just don't know what else to do.
I put on make up today to take cupcakes to Emma's school for her bday and I've cried it all off. Ughhhh

renbee

Oh hun. You're so strong. I would probably do the same thing with the ultrasound and doppler, it's completely understandable. Do whatever you need to do, but don't torture yourself. Grief is such an ugly monster. Thinking of you. ((hugs))

tlq0726

Do what you need to do. If that means listening to that heartbeat every second until it's gone, go for it.  Only you can know how best to deal with the awful situation in which you've been placed.  As a FTM I have definitely looked up to you on the board, and will continue to do so.  I can't imagine being in your place, and pray that if I ever am I will handle it with as much strength and grace as you have.  Take care of yourself and know that you will truly be missed.

MollMoll4

You just have to do whatever feels best for you! I completely understand wanting to see and hear her as much as possible. still keeping you in my thoughts.

renbee

P.S. - I don't know if this will help you or not, but a lot of the elective ultrasound places offer a service where they record the heartbeat and put it inside a stuffed animal. I don't know if that would help you or make it worse, but thought I'd let you know that's out there. 

lisaren

How sweet. A little bear.
Maybe I'll call around. I keep thinking I'll get a call that everything was wrong. I just ordered all those CD and they're all being delivered. Wtf.

You are all so sweet. I feel like this is not the right place to talk, but where do I go?
I've not had a loss so that place doesn't work. Not a MC so not there. I feel in limbo. So please just feel free to ignore me if I go on a rant here.

missnacholover

This is the right place to talk as we're all your friend and care about you!  *hugs*

PandaCon

missnacholover said:

This is the right place to talk as we're all your friend and care about you!  *hugs*

What she said.  Thinking of you lady. 

Grief is ugly. You do what you need to do. I cannot imagine being in your shoes. I am sure that I would be listening to the HB all the time too. 

love you lady!

icaughtfire

I don't blame you, I would probably need to do another ultrasound too.

You are so strong, please know I'm still keeping you in my thoughts & prayers!

CountryMama1114

I don't even know what to say. I've been reading this from the beginning and words just escape me. I cannot imagine how you feel and I don't think I would ever be strong enough to even comprehend everything, let alone make decisions.

I know all of us here are behind you and every single decision you have made/will make.

I know saying sorry is not enough, and I wish I could find something more fitting to say :-(

brooklyngirl18

oh lisa i'm so sorry i can't imagine your struggle. I imagine i would want to hear that little heart beat as much as possible also. this is definitely the right place to let it out, we are all here for you and will always support you.

 

lizgrace03

Yep, just echoing all the others.  We love you Lisa!

mommymeg143

I agree with everyone above.   We all love you here.   You are one of us, so don't go trying to cheat with the other boards.   We've got your back so post away!

shan24

I don't even have words.

Please know that whatever it is that is helping you in that moment is the right thing to do.  If that's listening to the Doppler, then listen away.  If it's posting here, please post.  That's what we're here for.

crystaldh

Best of luck to you!!!