Does anyone else feel like this?

Kdurrett2012

July 7th, 2013 I lost my 13 month old son Jacob to SIDS. He slept in the bed with me and I woke around 530 am to find my son was gone. In febuary I found out I'm pregnant. I feel so many different emotions. I feel guilty for my son. I think how can I possibly be happy about this and morn my son at the same time. Jacob was my life. I miss him so much it hurts. I cry daily for him. I'm so scared I can't be the parent to this child that I was for my son. Am I the only one that feels like this?

ikrystal

I'm not in the same situation (TTCAL, but no BFP yet).  But I do wonder the exact same thing.  Will I be a good mother to a new baby?  Will I love a new baby the way I love Conner and Ben?  How can I do this?  I think these are normal feelings.  I think when you see your baby, you will be so enamored with him or her that your doubts will fade.  I think you can mourn over your loss but still be a great mother to a new baby.  

milb11

Not in the same situation but wanted to send you hugs. I think how you are feeling is normal after what you have gone through. 

shandorfml2

PgAL might be a good board to post on, since all those Moms are pregnant

shandorfml2

and so sorry for the loss of sweet Jacob..

Kdurrett2012

Thank you everyone. It's just so many emotions are going through my head. June 3rd will be his second birthday and then July 7th will it will be one year. Thank you all for your kind words

Kdurrett2012

I'm kind of new here what pgal?

Kdurrett2012

Me and my sweet boy ❤

jonahsma

sorry for the loss of your son Jacob ((hugs))

PGAL is the pregnant after loss board. The women there have gone through a loss and are currently expecting.

Kdurrett2012

Oh ok again thank you so much