July 7th, 2013 I lost my 13 month old son Jacob to SIDS. He slept in the bed with me and I woke around 530 am to find my son was gone. In febuary I found out I'm pregnant. I feel so many different emotions. I feel guilty for my son. I think how can I possibly be happy about this and morn my son at the same time. Jacob was my life. I miss him so much it hurts. I cry daily for him. I'm so scared I can't be the parent to this child that I was for my son. Am I the only one that feels like this?