Sunny days!

milb11

How's the weather for you guys? The past few days here in NC have been absolutely beautiful!!! For that I am thankful! I feel like the sunshine makes me feel a little better. I told my counselor the other day that I am grateful that the spring/summer is right around the corner. I feel like going through this loss during the winter months (especially with the nasty weather we've had) would have been harder. 

Jellybean71514

The weather in NYC has finally started to warm up a bit- some rain here and there but I agree @milb11‌ if I had to go through this during the awful snowy winter we just had I think it would of been so much harder. The sunshine does make it brighter all around having to get thru these days, looking forward to being outdoors again and summer BBQs- xo

stefuge

I don't know - the warmer weather makes me think of summer and I was big and pregnant last summer and that will be a tough memory this year. It has been beautiful lately though.

jonahsma

We had rain a couple of days ago. Today it was beautiful big fluffy clouds and a nice blue sky. It was very cold this morning but the sun was out and it was warmer in the afternoon, it felt springy. I love the spring..

gracie5107

I'm conflicted about the nicer weather.  On one hand it's easier for me to get outside and do active things.  There are a lot of good things coming up in the spring that I should be looking forward to.  But on the other hand, I kind of like it when the weather mirrors my feelings.  When I'm sad and gloomy, I like it to be yucky out too.  Also, the changing seasons remind me that time is moving on and my baby is not here.  This spring was supposed to be so fun with taking a baby on walks, etc.  I am grieving losing those experiences and many more.  Hopefully as the season progresses I will be able to enjoy more and more of it. 

ikrystal

OOO I'm so jealous of people having nice weather.  I live in the Chicago suburbs and it has been a torrential downpour since... 3 am?  And I mean like buckets and buckets of rain coming down.  It was probably just last week that it was snowing... 

GymSpaz26

We've had some sunshine mixed in with our days and days of rain lately (Seattle-ish) and for me it has been wonderful. It is amazing how much this affects my mood and energy! The sun comes out after days and days of gray and it is like someone flips a switch in my brain and the world is a better place, I'm more able to do things, don't feel so down. I've been taking Vitamin D, which helps also... But the sunshine is so much better! We've just had weeks and weeks of gray and rain though. Until now, where we've had at least partial days of sunshine off and on for about a week (mixed with rain...).

LyndseyTS

We've had chilly days and sunshine for the last few days, but they are calling for freezing rain overnight and tomorrow morning - yuck.

Maybe Joleisa

gracie5107 said:

I'm conflicted about the nicer weather.  On one hand it's easier for me to get outside and do active things.  There are a lot of good things coming up in the spring that I should be looking forward to.  But on the other hand, I kind of like it when the weather mirrors my feelings.  When I'm sad and gloomy, I like it to be yucky out too.  Also, the changing seasons remind me that time is moving on and my baby is not here.  This spring was supposed to be so fun with taking a baby on walks, etc.  I am grieving losing those experiences and many more.  Hopefully as the season progresses I will be able to enjoy more and more of it. 

I, too, am finding the nicer weather bitter sweet. I am such a summer girl, but I can't help thinking that this summer was supposed to be different. Things I had hoped to be doing with the babies will not be happening and doing anything makes me feel a little guilty. (Supposed to go to Opening Day tomorrow, but have been non-committal and haven't bought a ticket yet. I'm supposed to be on bed rest--not out watching baseball.)

Jellybean71514

I agree with you guys thoughts of the Spring and Summer are bitter sweet since I should be preparing for my little boy this Summer- and lately when it rains here it's validated my crappy feeling of wanting to stay in bed all day so I can see all ends of PPs- I've been trying my best to use the sunny days as a reason to get myself out even if it's just outside my door for a breathe of fresh air and to look up at the blue sky.
Someone once told me when I reached out to console him after the loss of his partner..... "eventually the rain will end, the clouds will lift a bit more each day and the sun will come out again." I always thought that was such a beautiful way to express his grief and think of it often now - xo

gracie5107

@jellybean71514 I love that quote.  Thank  you for sharing it.  I will remember it also. 

milb11

stefuge - I hope that this summer isn't too tough for you. 

gracie5107Maybe Joleisa - I agree that it can be bittersweet. I started taking walks in the evenings since the weather has been so nice but I would like nothing more than to be taking those walks with Elijah in his stroller. I already had it all planned out, our mommy and son walks. Or taking him to the beach or the pool and having to slather him with sunblock. I hate that we never got to do those things. 

On the gloomy days, it's very easy for me to get and remain down. But there is something about the warmth of the sun that just gives me an instant boost. And when the sky is clear, I find myself looking up and telling my baby boy hi. It may sound weird, but on sunny days I feel like he is looking out for his mommy. 

LyndseyTSikrystal!

LyndseyTS

@milb11 Thanks, and I feel the same way as you do about the sun. Especially sunrays - I just feel like I can "feel" Serenity in them.

nohalo21

@milb11 and @LyndseyTS I love the feel of sunshine and find myself talking to the puffy clouds. It definitely brings some comfort.

Yesterday driving into work I was amazed by the sky. There were hundreds of small clouds, almost heart shaped, coming out across the sky from where the sun was. The sun was also that pinkish color form the sunrise. I immediately thought of my little girl and all the other angels. It was as if each cloud was for one of them. I wish I had taken a photo. 

stefuge

@milb11‌ @LyndseyTS‌ I like that thought - that the sun is our babies shining down on us. I'll try and think of it that way as the weather gets warmer.