It's been a month and a half since I've lost my angel and I have been struggling so hard and have just gone into a deep depression with very very dark thoughts. I've also been very weak and after a full day at work I get temps and have been throwing up.
I finally did something about it and went to the doctors and we found out I'm still highly distressed with losing the baby and the horrific way it happened out at sea. All my test results for being ill have came back negative so the doctor has put my illness down to my emotions. My husband and I also believe this miscarriage has triggered of my depression I use to battle as a teen and young adult that I had completely under control due to counselling and medication that I've been off for 2 years.
So this weekend I'm going to start back up on medication and to be ohnest I'm scared because I know it can make you feel strange but I know it's going to be good for me and get those suicidal I'm worthless because I can't keep a baby alive in me thoughts out of my head.
I know this is never going to take away the pain from losing my baby and I'm always going to grieve and have a hole in my heart but I know this is going to help with the feelings caused due to the chemical reaction of this miscarriage.
So I just want to put it out there to any girl feeling the same as I do there is no shame in getting extra help. None at all! We all deserve to be heathy and happy x