I woke up at 6 am with a terrible horrible feeling. My intuition was spot on. Came to do my first pick up ever. STBXH was verbally abusing me in front of the kids with very nasty things to say. Pushed me and pulled a bag out of my hand and punched a dent in my car. Also yelled horrific things at my mom and she didn't even come into the house. Then his mom pushed me while joining in on the verbal assault again all in front of the kids. It's like living a nightmare and I feel so bad for the kids. I'm allowed to stay in our home, have full custody and a no contact and no visitation order until we see the judge. I feel sick. And sad. Why couldn't they let me come get the kids and just go? It went so smooth on Friday when he picked up. Why didn't he do the same? Fucked up. No other words. And no idea what happens from here.