Another one bites the dust… And I'm not coping well today

GraceyandTroy

So, I'm a whopping 6dpo and I woke up to a dip in my temp and brown spotting.  For a few minutes there I was kidding myself that maybe it's just implantation bleeding.  Uhm, no.  It's only gotten to be more and redder as the day has progresses.  So, here I am feeling really sorry for myself.  I stupidly let myself get my hopes up since I O'ed three cycles in a row and because my lp was 12 days last cycle.  I really thought I could pull it off and get ku for a 2014 baby.  But no, doesn't look like it.  It's the hoping and letting myself start to get excited for the last week that has left me so gutted.  I even lurked on Nov14 for the last few days (and Holy Tolito!  There is a serious Nov13 vs Nov 14 rivalry going on over there if you're in the mood for the Bump Drama).  I was just itching to join in the fun and buy DS and Big Brother t-shirt.  

I am also starting to feel ready to wean DS.  He's already wanting to nurse less and less, like down to twice a day and only for about 5-10 minutes at a time.  I have such mixed feelings about weaning for the sake of ttc.  I promised myself I wouldn't do it, but now I feel like he's just nursing because I'm offering, so maybe I shouldn't feel so torn up about it.  I think I will miss the closeness and the cuddle time.  I'm crying right now just thinking about it. But I really want to move forward and be more aggressive about ttc, too.  

I will call my OB to see if I get get progesterone for my next tww.  With such short lp's I don't even have a chance.  I also want to go ahead with femera maybe the cycle after this.  That way, I can have one cycle to completely wean DS rather than simply cutting him off right now.  

Man, I'm a wreck today and I have to go to the dentist and get three fillings tonight.  Ugh. 

freakyfast

GraceyandTroy - I am sorry.   Good news I guess that DS is starting to wean himself off, and that isn't a decision you have to make and feel bad about. I  hope things get better.. (((HUGS))) 

pettycrocker

Ugh I'm sorry G&T, progesterone sounds like a good idea. Also sorry about everything else, the dentist and the weaning, it sounds like you have a lot going on right now. Hugs. 

tache

I'm sorry that sucks!

I looked at the Nov 14 board and holy moly you are right! I'm embarrassed to say I was a Nov 13 mom for awhile. Looks like they crazy!

GraceyandTroy

Thanks ladies.  Yeah, a bad day today, but I'll pull myself together soon enough.  DS is probably more ready to wean than I am, so I can find comfort in that.  

And @tache, I don't know how deep you got, there's about 10 pages of craze-balls, lol.  I'm glad you don't want to associate with them!

KC1212

I lol'd when you detoured to mention drama - that was funny.

I'm so sorry to read this update though. My son has been weaned for a long time and I still miss it, however, don't worry about the snuggles- he will still snuggle - i promise

lcloffredo

So sorry the progesterone sounds like a good idea

lucky7wife

I'm sorry.  ((Hugs))  It sounds like you already have a good plan going forward!

sidey1

Now I'm going to have to pop over to that board and check it out, it's like a car accident! Sorry you're having a rough day, I think progesterone is always a good idea, it can't hurt and could def help so why not!

GraceyandTroy

Thanks all.  I just got back from the dentist and I was wrong.  Only one filling today, so it was nice and fast.  But I have to go back next week to get FOUR on the other side of my mouth.  And that, my friends, is why you should not wait 15 years between dentist visits!  

I am already feeling better about my plan.  I talked to DH about it when he got home from work today and he was really agreeable to whatever I want to do. 

Momarazzi007

I'm sorry- but YEAY for a plan!!! And less fillings this week!

lcloffredo

Sorry for the shit luck but I'm glad DH is up for whatever.

bcw2009

Sorry!  AF was rough on me this month too-know you are not alone!

GraceyandTroy

Thanks ladies.